How to Survive at the Academy Chapter 255

[Side Story] Wind Flower (5)

The soft light of the full moon seeps through the fluttering curtains.

Looking up from the darkness, Ed’s face is infinitely serious. As always, he seems to be deep in thought, but… No matter how rational and reasonably a man behaves, he has his limits.

Patience is bound to break someday.

It is safe to say that Ed Rosteyler’s patience and self-control are in the realm of superhumans, but they are by no means infinite.

Determining to deliver the last blow to the faltering reason, Yenika whispers. I’m okay.

The warm relationship in which each other understands, cares for, and cares for each other is beautiful. But, let’s not think about such complicated things for now. It is time to graduate even in the flower garden full of fairy tales.

An illustration from a children’s book that Yenika read as a child.

A fresh story that ended with a wonderful prince saving the princess, lifting his bangs and giving her a dainty kiss. Even with just that kiss, Jenika was tapping the pillow and pressing down on the blanket to let her imagination run wild…

I had to realize that the kiss in reality is completely different from the content in the children’s book, which was drawn in a cute watercolor style.

Ed’s hand, full of calluses, brushed her forehead, leaving Jenika with nowhere to hide. With her quivering eyes and flushed cheeks exposed, unable to hide them any longer, she stiffened and waited for Ed’s next move.

I wonder if the fish on the cutting board feels like this.

Now, the strange state of being led by a man named Ed Rosteyler and moving as he pleases. Even the strange sense of immorality that comes from such a sense of subjugation is a new world for Jenika.

Ed Rosteyler was equally nervous. It’s not that she doesn’t have experience with women, but this situation in which she directly touches an innocent and lively girl like Jenika… encourages a different kind of hesitation.

Thoughts of whether it is okay to be like this constantly eat away at my head… No matter how rationally I look at it, there is no reason why it shouldn’t be like this.

Yenica herself said it was okay, and Ed herself had already declared that she was trash, and the villagers… even Yenika’s family nodded.

It’s a situation where the hand that rides on Jenika’s forehead and sweeps down the jawline… it’s okay if it stretches down a little further down. There is no one in the world who can put a restraint on the movement of that hand.

If there is no one to stop you, you just move on. Ed swallowed an uncharacteristically dry gulp, then she stroked Jenica’s shoulder and silently kissed her on the mouth.

Lips caught on fire.

To that extent, the surface of Jenika’s skin was completely heated. Has her shame reached its limit?

It wasn’t the first kiss. However, kissing in this situation, in this atmosphere, is a completely different experience from kissing briefly at camp.

Illustrations in children’s books cannot be compared with reality. Just with the surface of her lips touching, Yenica had to experience her whole body trembling, the goo feeling rumbling in her chest.

Love between a man and a woman is not just a heartwarming scene where they hold hands and smile in a pretty field of pansy flowers.

Rather, such a creepy feeling as if entering a forbidden area is closer to the essence.

For the first time in her life, Yenika tasted such a feeling.

Ed’s mouth falls apart, and Yenika gasps, waiting for Ed’s next move.

That’s how Ed’s hand went down little by little, and the moment he was about to head to the next bend… Jenika couldn’t stand it and raised her voice.

“Ed… that…”

After this, the meaning of skinship itself changes.

In the state just before that, Yenika barely managed to utter a voice.

“Naa, can I ask a really pathetic, stupid question…?”

“now…?”

“Yes…”

Ed paused for a moment, then nodded quietly.

“Eh, Ed… am I the first?”

I couldn’t help but breathe for a moment at the question that stabbed my lungs. In this situation, when a question like this pops in, no one has no choice but to stop thinking for once.

Ed was the same. I thought about thinking about it for a while, but in fact, the option of ‘thinking about it’ is the worst. It is because the answer is no different from the point of trouble.

There’s no reason to lie to Yenica, and the atmosphere could only get weirder after she’s given bizarre consideration… First of all, Ed shook his head.

“Huh…”

As if that short answer was a big shock, Jenika endured tears once more. In fact, it is impossible to say anything from Yenika’s point of view.

Ed met Yenika after he entered the Sylvania Academy, and what Ed’s life would have been like before that was completely outside of Yenika’s domain. In fact, even after that.

As a young master of the duke’s family, he must have lived a life completely separated from Yenikawa. From Jenika’s point of view, Ed’s life before admission is completely imaginary.

So I can’t say anything to Ed, who shook his head. However, at least you can do a favor.

“I-I’m the first…”

“…”

“Eh, Ed has to take the lead… I’m really… white-headed… I don’t know… anything…”

Jenika said it with pure intentions, but she wouldn’t know how heavy the meaning was to the other person.

Do as you please, I will follow. There was no man who could maintain patience in this face.

Just like that, Ed’s hand went down the curve. Yenica tightly closed her eyes and held her heart tight. After that, things went like crazy.

As Ed’s hands became busy, Yenica’s voice rose in response. Sometimes intensely as if this moment was a waste, sometimes as if this time would last forever, each other coveted each other.

Holding each other in their arms, making eye contact, and touching each other.

For Jenika, who has no experience with the opposite s*x, every trivial act seems to cross the forbidden line. It was the first time that I had hugged the strong and heavy man’s body with my whole body, and even his hands that flowed softly along the skin like water, and his breath that I felt up close, the feeling of resistance as if I was doing something I shouldn’t have disappeared.

It is only after this close skin-to-skin relationship that Yenica realizes the difference between Ed and herself more and more.

It’s not about status, personality, background, or values… a more wild and primitive difference. Heavy hand movements, strong arms and legs, a height of more than one hand, a body that cannot be held even when tightly hugged, and his body, which was completed after repeating a steady life of survival, is clearly comparable to Jenika’s thin, white limbs. do.

The kisses were repeated several more times, but the more they kissed, the more their heart skipped a beat. Whatever it is, when it comes to acts like this, you really don’t have the ability to adapt at all. realize that fact.

Every single movement, every kiss, every breath, every warmth, I couldn’t get used to. Every time, like the first time, my heart beats, and I push Jenika as if I’m going to faint at any moment.

Ed was well aware of that fact, but he was no longer in a position to look after Yenika’s circumstances.

Even in the midst of his busy schedule, he lifted Jenika’s bangs once in a while and gently made eye contact with her.

Whenever that happened, Yenika still couldn’t adapt and tried to avoid her gaze with a shy expression. Still, Ed didn’t give Jenika any more room to escape.

It gave them a chance to regain their composure by having time to look into each other’s eyes… Rather, it was counterproductive to Yenika. It takes too much mental strength for her to see Ed up close and face to face.

After closing my eyes like that, I found it interesting to watch Yenika trying to make eye contact again, so I reached the point where I half-played it.

At this point, Yenika was already half-conscious.

Even if you feel Ed’s hand and raise your voice, take a break for a while and make eye contact and look at each other, or hug each other without saying anything and gently support each other.

When Ed tried his best, he held on, and when Ed stroked him, he felt the warmth, and just played in his hand, going back and forth between tension and relaxation.

And what was surprising was that he himself was enjoying that feeling quite a bit.

Even though my limbs weren’t tied, I felt something filling up in my chest just by moving as I was being led, without being able to do anything.

When Ed stroked her hair and hugged her again, Jenika realized. This is happiness.

It doesn’t sound a little violent to express it in a lump, but other than that, there was no vocabulary to express this satisfaction rising in the heart.

Yenica Failover is feeling happy right now. It was not just a simple fulfillment of desire, but a feeling of positivity and hope for life.

Bondi must have been like this to spend the night together.

It is a process of reaffirming the value of one’s life by relying on someone’s warmth, rather than satisfying one-dimensional desires in a chaotic place.

It is to confirm that you are not alone. Whether it is a flower road or a thorny road, there is someone next to me who will walk hand in hand with me.

It wasn’t a life full of sunshine. In fact, he had more dark days after he entered Sylvania.

The anticipation that weighed down my shoulders, the magic circle of Glaskan that filled the sky, the memories of crying at the broken nail coffin, the cry of the star spear dragon that roared with the will to burn the continent, and the heartbeat of Friede that covered the sky over Aken Island. The sound, and the will that pierced the group of monsters with wounds.

And at the end, the solitude of Jenika Failover, who shed blood, cried, and gnashed her teeth.

Even if you can’t be compensated for those cold days, there is someone next to you who will understand.

As if confirming how great happiness that was, Jenika suddenly shed a few tears.

“…Are you okay?”

“I’m not crying because I’m scared.”

“…then?”

“just.”

People shed tears even when they are happy. I realized such a new fact.

Yenica felt Ed’s thumb brushing her eyes, and rather looked up at the corners of her mouth.

Has the tension finally eased?

Ed nodded and pushed a large pillow from the edge of the bed under Jenika’s waist.

Because of the upright waist, it seems that the body’s curvature is emphasized for no reason. She’d get used to it, but still Yenica caught her breath with her face blushing.

Ed brushed his chin down once and then supported Jenika’s waist with both arms.

It’s obvious what’s going to happen, but in fact, the body didn’t matter. At some point, the sympathy of the mind rather than the body was giving the two a greater sense of satisfaction.

Sharing a sense that each other values ​​each other is one of the greatest happiness a person can feel.

The same was true of the thoughts that Jenika had in her heart during the long night. Will such a happy moment ever come again in my life? The joy and sadness were raging at the same time.

After that, Jenika just held onto the pillow as if it were a lover.

Firmly gripping the pillowcase under the waist, or lying face down in your arms and burying your face, supporting your body as it is, supporting your body as it is, supporting your body behind your neck and looking at the sky…

After such a long time, Yenika, who was making various movements, realized two things.

One was that his body wasn’t as flexible as he thought, and the other was that there was a limit to Ed’s physical strength, which seemed to last forever.

Is the end coming soon? Ed swept Yenica’s cheek once and took on the appearance of giving strength to his abdomen, and Yenica hugged his shoulders rather tightly.

The thought of wanting this man to run away, wanting to hold him tightly in her arms for now… That’s how Yenika wanted to bury her face in Ed Rosteyler’s wide chest until the end.

* Calm yet full of energy.

It’s a contradictory expression, but I have such a strange feeling at dawn in a mountain village.

The majesty of the majestic mountain range could not be confirmed because of the fog that flowed down the ridge, but the noise of life resonates between the villages from time to time.

From the distant hour when even the sun fell asleep, this village began preparing to move.

Tobacco smoke billowed up, and before long it was caught in Merilda’s kicks and quickly disappeared.

Merilda, who was watching the mountain scenery from the rooftop of the inn, looked down at me, who had been out smoking since dawn, and smiled mischievously.

[You look tired~]

As I sat quietly on the stump of a tree in front of the hostel and listened to the sound of insects in the early morning, I was about to answer.

Yenika is completely distraught and asleep. She covers her well and she goes outside, and early, less than five o’clock, she sees people leaving for work.

“You have a lot of mischievous sides too. Meryl.”

[What a surprise~. ]

Merilda jumped off the roof of the inn and landed on the floor, clutching the hem of her skirt that was blowing in the wind.

He swept his gray hair that was tied up behind him, and then he came back with his back on his back, looked up at my face smoking a cigarette, and said teasingly:

[ Garbage ~ ]

I was going to say what to accept, but I just stayed still because I thought it would be right not to deny it. Meryl was instigated by herself, so in fact she probably wouldn’t have much of a say either.

[I don’t want to leave Yenika unattended, and I don’t want to burden her… Well, I’ll admit that I did my best in the position and line you could take…]

Merilda sat down side by side on the tree stump next to me and talked while fluttering the hem of her skirt.

[Nodding her head at the word to say whether other women are involved or not… Maybe Jenika, on the contrary, opened up a more difficult path… ]

“Hey dude.”

[You don’t know what’s going on in the world. One day, you might suddenly open your new eyes. ]

Merilda smiled as if she didn’t hate it, and played a prank on me by sending out wind magic and scattering my tobacco smoke.

I knew that he was originally a spirit with a playful disposition, but he seemed to be in a better mood today.

That’s why I knew.

“Anyway, we should start investigating Tyrcalax soon. Because I have to finish it quickly and go back to Aken Island.”

After I finished smoking, I talked while rubbing the light out.

Upon hearing those words, Merilda spoke again with a vague expression.

[ I know that? ]

“what.”

[In this area, the pansy flowers that bloom all the way along the ridge are called windflowers. ]

“okay?”

The wind blew. It is a cool breeze in the early morning.

The cool breeze that comes down along the ridge is always refreshing.

With her white hair flowing, Merilda looked up at the wide open ridge.

[Why do you think you would call it that? ]

“Because it’s always swaying in the wind?”

[Similar but subtly different. ]

With that solitary face that he sometimes makes, the wind wolf spoke softly.

*“Can I get you something to drink?”

On my way up to smoke a cigarette, the owner of the inn kindly asked. After saying thanks, I climbed the shabby stairs and opened the door. Maybe it’s because I didn’t get much sleep last night, so I thought I’d like to lie in bed a little longer.

Yenika seemed to have just woken up and was wiggling her toes.

It was as if he was looking at me as if he was ashamed to show his face, buried himself under the blanket. It is the so-called wise time.

I sat down on the bed opposite and put the water jug ​​on the bedside table.

Then, after pouring a glass of water into the cup, he took one shot at a time and put it down.

“…”

So quiet for a while.

After a time difference in the ensuing silence, I decided to speak out again.

“Hey, Jenika.”

Yenika trembled, wrapping her toes around her toes, wondering what was so surprising about having her name called once.

And the way he carefully poked his head out under the covers was like a squirrel hiding in a burrow.

“I have to go investigate.”

I felt sorry for Jenika, who was shivering under the blanket, so I decided to give her a reason to come out.

Once you have something to do, you have no choice but to come out even if you don’t like it.

Yenika pulled her face out of her body wrapped in a blanket, turned her head, brushed her scattered hair once, and answered with difficulty.

“Ah Okay…”

The voice was completely out.

It was worth it.