How to Survive at the Academy Chapter 254

[Side Story] Wind Flower (4)

There are many stories of those who loved someone they couldn’t pass on.

I know that it is only possible in fairy tales that love that transcends social status ends with a romantic happy ending.

Yenica Failover realized a long time ago. Reality is a series of times that are clearer than you think, without a twist, and indifferently flowing.

The highlights that you encounter once in a while are only brief at that time, and the original life is mostly made up of obvious stories and mediocre times.

So, his love story will also end with an obvious ending.

Unlike fairy tales that end a turbulent life history with an irresponsible line, “I lived happily for a long time,” and close the book…

As always, the life of Yenika Failover will flow with very occasional highlights and most obvious times.

I loved a man named Ed Rosteyler.

It was a short life, but I can still intuit it. No matter how many more years I live, I will never think of someone so passionately again.

The experience of loving someone like fire will become the nourishment of a long life, making Jenika a more mature person.

Even if it’s a love that didn’t come to fruition, it will remain in a corner of your heart, and you’ll be able to recall that you’ve ever thought of someone so passionately.

In fact, isn’t that what happened?

That’s how Yenika Failover arbitrarily decided to break up. Although she is not conscious of herself.

She had a hunch that the days of living together in the Duchy of Ross-Taylor and being by his side would surely come to an end someday.

Frightened by a broken heart that hasn’t even come yet, the absurd act of ending a love story on your own. The reason for doing that is obvious. Because I am well aware of Ed Rosteyler’s situation.

Yenica Failover knows what Ed must sacrifice to get her.

It would be a real pleasure if Ed made up his mind and risked all the sacrifices to get Jenika. However, you can’t even blame him for not doing that.

If you love him, you just have to be stubborn.

If you want to have me by your side, whether it’s political gain, personal connections, aristocratic authority, or a busy professorship… just put it down.

If you want a woman named Yenica Failover, you just have to make the right sacrifice, take care of yourself more, take care of yourself, and force her to hug you from time to time. Ed Rosteyler probably wouldn’t be able to deny it.

However, Yenika Failover was born with a natural inability to do so.

She doesn’t want to force Ed Rosteeler to make any kind of sacrifice. All the more because I know very well what kind of life he lived and what kind of life he intends to live in the future.

That is why the girl wanders. Her love affair, which she has cherished for a long time, has lost its direction as if it drifted on an uninhabited island.

There are times when I feel disillusioned with myself, who has been content with just being by my side.

‘…I have to make up my mind…’

After washing herself, Jenika wore a light gown and tied the front island tightly. She then looked in the mirror and brushed her hair, making up her mind again.

‘I was distracted because I slept in the same room for a while, but don’t confuse me… I have my own role..’

Just because Ed Rosteeler treats you specially, you shouldn’t be mistaken that you are really a special and noble human being.

Even though he was grateful to Ed for letting him into the room once he had lost his place to go, his heart was pounding as if he was full of anticipation.

Due to Ed’s tendency, he wouldn’t even lay a hand on Jenika. In fact, as always, there was a high possibility that Jenika was the only one playing drums and playing drums and getting nervous.

Looking at her blush-red cheeks, Yenika pursed her lips.

Although he had just graduated from Sylvania Academy, he himself hadn’t become an adult. How long will you be blushing, waving your eyes, and being afraid of things like this?

I didn’t really make up my mind to go to bed, I just gave you a bed in the room.

It is very embarrassing for a grown woman to stutter, blush, and suffocate because she is ashamed of that one thing. It is also impossible to be taken care of by Ed forever.

So, I made up my mind and washed my face again.

“Yeah, it was good..”

The heat on my face, which seemed to be on fire, had subsided, and I felt that my composure had finally returned.

I look in the mirror for no reason and try to smile like an adult. If you do this, you won’t feel like mugwort at all. It is the image of an adult who treats men with a sense of leisure.

Taking advantage of that momentum, Jenika quickly opened the bathroom door and threw it back. I think I can deal with Ed casually now.

“Did you wash everything?”

– Bang!

However, when he saw Ed, who had taken off his top and was wearing only cotton pants and was sitting on Yenika’s bed… Yenika had to slam the bathroom door again and close it.

I had to hold on to the bridge of my nose to deal with the almost bloody nose, and once again I had to pour cold water into my face for a long time.

*“Me, I’m sorry… Ed… I didn’t know you were changing.”

Yenika, who came out towards the bedroom, came out with her face blushing to the point where I wondered if she had just dabbed on red paint.

However, when Yenika came back to the bedroom, Ed was still shirtless.

“Ah, I haven’t changed yet…! Sorry! I’ll be in for a while, so call me when you’re done!”

“No, you don’t have to go. Come over here and sit next to me.”

“What’s up”

what? I tried to answer, but my breathing stopped and I made an incomprehensible sound.

Since he was not in a position to be considerate of Jenika, whose brain was overloaded right away, Ed had no choice but to put in an extra hit with the next line.

“It wasn’t that I was changing, I just took it off.”

“…!!!”

Yenika had already stopped breathing here, so it wouldn’t be strange if she suffocated.

He nodded his head a couple of times, which wouldn’t be strange if steam came out right away, and just as Ed told him to, he walked out and sat down next to him.

“…without losing?”

The sound of my heart beating went beyond the level of a thump, to the point where it resonated in my ears. He was about to miss Ed’s words for a moment.

“Yes?! what?!”

“Isn’t it cold?”

“huh! The weather is warm too! It’s rather cold water, so it’s nice to be alert!”

I was nervous for no reason, so the tension was higher than necessary.

It’s an attitude that seems to want to emphasize that I’m fine. There is usually no one who is good enough for someone who takes that attitude.

“Then I’m glad. Anyway, now that this opportunity has come, I have something I really want to say to you, Yenika.”

“Yep! say! tell me everything!”

Already, Yenika was completely a yes-man.

confined space. Promised to spend the night together. Ed took off his shirt and sat on Yenika’s bed. Sitting next to him in only his underwear and gown, Yenica, breathing heavily with his head blushing.

In this state, it is impossible to think about anything more or to roll the brain itself. Jenika was such a person.

“…I’m saying something serious. From your point of view, it may feel natural or unexpected, but… I will tell you clearly.”

“What?”

Ed tugged at the end of the bed sheet for a moment, then just spoke in a rhythm.

“I guess I like you. In a rational sense.”

Yenika Failover’s breathing stopped.

Dead. Yenika Failover, 21 years old.

Shock death from a heart attack caused by Ed Rosteyler’s sudden confession.

* “…Huh!”

It felt like I was lost for a while and then came back. Was it 3 seconds or was it 5 seconds?

Jenika’s mind, which had been in a state of panic for a while, quickly returned to its place, enough to make it feel like she had returned from death.

“What, what…”

“I said I seemed to like you rationally.”

“Ah, no, I heard it, but why.. uh.. Uh-uh, why…

Unable to keep her mouth shut, saliva flowed out and Yenika snorted and quickly regained her senses.

“You must have had a gut feeling to some extent. How many years have you been involved?”

“No, that’s true, but… there’s a gap between Ed and I… Ed is the son of a duke, and I’m one of his vassals, and I’ve only been given the title of baron…”

“Yeah… I expected you to talk like that…”

Ed lowered his head for a moment and spoke.

“…That’s right, from my point of view, I have nothing to say even if I get kicked.”

“What? What are you talking about! Don’t interpret this strangely! It’s not cold! It’s not cold, so don’t jump to conclusions too quickly. First of all, we need to talk! Do not misunderstand! It’s important, so I’m definitely checking it out, but it’s not really cold! Not full!”

“If it’s not full, then…”

“Huh…!”

Yenica, who was out of breath whenever she had a chance, covered her face and talked as if she couldn’t handle the heat on her face.

“Eh, Ed… Something big happened…”

“what? why?”

“I-I can’t control the corners of my mouth, I can’t control it… Give me a moment. I think I’m putting on a very funny and silly expression that doesn’t match the current atmosphere…”

“…take it slow.”

Yenika lowered her head and buried it between her white thighs.

What is this feeling that has been creeping up on my back since earlier? This subtle refreshing feeling, catharsis, and heat that I don’t know what to name is something I’ve never felt before.

Happiness, I try to express it in such a lumpy way, but it feels like something is lacking. I don’t think it would be strange to ascend to heaven right now with the feeling that my heart is floating so much that even breathing becomes quicker.

“But, there is a problem.”

Ed’s words passed to Jenika’s back as she struggled to make a sound out of her throat, which had been strangled with happiness.

Unsuitable for that man, he hesitates, avoids his gaze… In a strange tone, he continues to speak with difficulty.

“You may not like it…”

The world has stopped.

Jenika, who was trying to pull down the corner of her mouth that was ascending, somehow hardened like a stone.

Then he raised his stiff head and looked at Ed with widened eyes.

“…Yes?”

“Well… listen… Yenika… There’s a word called heroic lust… I’m not a hero, but even so, I’m a young duke and I’ve achieved quite a lot.”

“Uh, uh…”

“How can a large ship settle in only one port? If you are a man with a magnificent vessel, you should go through a lot of experiences and refine your inner self like Hahae, who can embrace many people…”

For Ed Rosteyler, there are a lot of floating noises. It feels strangely different from the way he always talked coldly and directly.

I couldn’t help it. She had experience with women even before she possessed Ed Ross Taylor, but she had never done anything trashy like openly declaring to someone that she was cheating on me.

Ed shook his head and spoke.

“Everyone, isn’t it possible that you will be able to fall in love with another woman rationally again…”

“What, what are you talking about…!”

“Since I come from the Duke of Roth-Taylor, there must be quite a few women who want to hook up with me or try to get in line with me… Anyway, I hang out with them socially, and then I see eye to eye… Well, that’s normal in aristocratic society. At that time, Jenika, the thing that hurts you is that it’s not like that. In a way, he cares about you… it’s like that…”

Sophistry itself.

However, Ed Rosteeler somehow continued the story even though he knew this was nonsense.

“So… I wanted to ask a question like… would you be able to understand and forgive me if something like this happened…”

Here, Ed Rosteyler made up his mind, thinking that Yenika would lift the slap.

I thought about how to respond if I cried or cursed. Anyway, no matter what Yenika did, Ed Ross was ready to accept it.

“Eh, uh…”

Jenika, who lifted her head like that… had a surprisingly sad expression on her face.

It’s been almost 4 years since we first met at the lake in the northern forest of Aken Island when we were 2nd year students in Sylvania.

Having gone through many hardships, living together, and even having a relationship with each other… Jenika had a deeper understanding of who Ed was than anyone else.

Are there all these garbage people! I don’t know if you think it’s time to kick back while yelling at me, but…

Yenica Failover had understood all of Ed’s intentions by saying such things.

A man named Ed Rosteyler is not greedy, does not stretch out his vessel just because it is wide, and is not interested in purring. I’m not the kind of person who would say such a thing.

Nonetheless, the reason Ed Rosteiler put those words into his mouth is that he deeply understands Yenika Failover after all.

When a human named Ed Rosteeler takes Yenica Failover at the cost of self-sacrifice, the sense of debt and burden she will feel… Ed knows all too well.

Jenika, who had once been crushed by that heavy burden, did not want to go through the same experience twice.

That’s why Ed himself was trash.

Rather than forcing the burden on Jenika at the cost of Ed’s sacrifice, he puts himself in the position of bowing his head, accepting the blame, and receiving forgiveness.

Yenica Failover does not become a debtor who owes Ed a lot, but becomes a person who understands and forgives Ed’s immorality and debauchery.

Because he understands how much weight that alone can remove from Yenika’s heart… Ed didn’t bother to take care of social prestige. Among the nobles, there were originally many people who played with commoners and fire. Are you saying that you can handle that level of gossip?

It’s hard to imagine that a responsible Ed would hug multiple women at once. This is because he is sincere in everything and treats everyone with sincerity. There is no reason for such a well-to-do man to do debauchery.

At least Yenica was well aware of Ed’s temperament. He was always the type to focus on what he had to do, rather than having a relationship with the opposite s*x.

Whether the members of the opposite s*x around Ed will stay still… aside…

Not knowing how things will change later… For now, putting that aside…

Even the fact that things in the world don’t always go as predicted… if you put it aside…

First of all, the consideration that Ed gave to Yenika, rather made her cry. There are a lot of things I have set aside, but whatever.

“Ed. Don’t try to take responsibility for my heart, even to the point of putting yourself down.”

Ed was speechless for a moment at Jenika’s words that penetrated to the core.

I just thought that if it was Yenika, I would have questions about Ed’s behavior.

Still, it was such a shocking declaration that I wondered if I would send a look of contempt first. However, more than I thought, Jenika had a deep understanding of Ed.

I am not a person who plays with people’s minds for no reason.

Since that firm trust is unshakable, in fact, from Ed’s point of view, he has nothing to do but put on a stigma.

In the end, it’s just pointless nonsense.

—However, no one could have imagined that such futile fuss would lead to unexpected development. Yenica and Ed too.

In the end, the relationship between the two is close to tying each other up with mutual respect and consideration intertwined like a spider’s web.

Ed is worried about Jenika’s heart, and Yenica is worried about Ed’s heart… When one of the two makes up his mind, the relationship is bound to change completely.

“So… ok, Ed.”

In the end, having read all of Ed’s intentions, Jenika swallowed dry saliva and shouted as if declaring.

“If you’re so trashy, trash it!”

Did Ed’s strong heart eventually affect Yenica as well? Yenica hardened his heart and yanked Ed by the arm, then fell onto the bed.

It felt like he had used up all his courage just by pulling Ed while holding his breath.

When I came to my senses, I felt Ed’s arm supporting my body around the nape of my neck.

Unraveled front island. If you think about the exposed chest or buttocks, you’ll already feel like you’re going to pass out with a fever.

The cool night air coming in from the window touches Jenika’s bare skin and sweeps her body down. Even the late summer night air feels as cold as ice because of the body temperature that has been heated to the limit.