Episode 203. The essence of fog (2)
Humans are weak yet adaptable animals.
It’s difficult to start with anything, but once you get used to it, it becomes natural as if it’s something you’ve always done.
So did I.
When I passed the ordeal and picked up the assassin’s sword for the first time, I was full of useless hesitation.
Do you know who the first person I stabbed was?
It was me.
Not the one I faced through trials,
I am the one holding the sword.
Only after stabbing the weak nature within me with a knife and releasing it through blood was I finally able to properly hold the assassin’s sword.
After that, I naturally got used to it.
I killed everyone I had to kill without hesitation, regardless of whether they were related to me or blood-related.
Not because it was me, but because that’s what an assassin would have to do.
But what is this?
What can you say that won’t happen?
Did the head of the family really think that I would have any hesitation in assassinating Princess Arin?
Not anyone else, me?
“Are you serious? “Do you really think I can’t kill that shell-like princess?”
“There’s a 99% chance you can kill it.”
I’m not going to like it.
The meaning of 99 rather than 100 is clearly different.
She thinks there is a 1% chance that I will not be able to kill Princess Arin.
I admit it.
To me, Princess Arin is not an ordinary relationship.
It was I who first suggested that she become an emperor, and it was I who saved her from almost being assassinated by a marionette in the imperial castle.
Is that it?
Fabian, even when Prince Nerobien sent assassins to me, I told her about it and helped her build a sword and shield to protect herself, and in the end… … .
He told me to move forward so that my existence would never appear in this world again.
Yes, I admit it! I admit it!
It was she who made me act uncharacteristically uncharacteristically many times,
She is the one who sometimes comes to me in my dreams and makes me dizzy by constantly reminding me of the moment when I begged her to just say one word.
So, what happened?
The moment I realized that she was also someone I had to kill,
I am confident that I will kill without mercy.
It has always been that way, and it will always be that way.
“On what basis do you think that? “During my purification work, I have never once shown any hesitation or hesitation to the head of the family, have I?”
“Yeah, there wasn’t. “You performed your duties as an assassin better than anyone else.”
I could barely suppress the sudden surge of anger.
You know that better than anyone else, so why can’t you trust me?
“Then let me ask you something too.”
The head of the family raised his eyes and asked me.
“Why didn’t you kill your brother seven years ago in Brenu?”
I was speechless for a moment.
It wasn’t because I couldn’t answer.
It was because I had no idea that those words would come out of the head of the family’s mouth at this exact moment.
“You said it was to inflict the greatest pain possible on the target of your revenge, right? “I said it was to give you the frustration of not being able to take you down in the end, even though I did everything I could.”
She already knew the answer without having to explain it.
“You might have thought back then. I can handle it all. No matter what they were planning or what terrible things they were doing, you probably thought you could handle it all on your own. “It’s still the same now.”
right.
Then and now, I intend to take responsibility for all my actions.
For me, and for everyone in my category.
“How selfish is that… … “You need to know now.”
It feels like I was hit hard in the back of the head with a large hammer.
Selfish? Selfish?
Okay, well, it’s not completely wrong.
The grandiose beliefs of a powerless person?
That is nothing but useless stubbornness and arrogance.
But not me.
I can protect myself, and I have the power to protect everyone.
Even if the person who stands in my way is a god, I have run so far with the sole intention of killing that god as well.
Am I being selfish like that?
It was the most incomprehensible nagging I had ever heard from the head of the family.
“You may think that your current life, which you have lived to avoid repeating the mistakes of your past life, was achieved entirely by your own efforts. But that’s a big mistake, Sian. “The person you are now is just a human being who was created through the hands of countless people.”
I don’t know why, but the words “I’m just a human being” rang like an echo in my head.
Didn’t you clearly engrave it into that devil’s mind seven years ago?
I’m just an ordinary human being who knows your true nature… … .
“Isn’t that right, Xian? Humans are such foolish beings that they can ruin their cause because of a little kindness. Since you choose to be human, you too will be bound to make the same mistakes. Otherwise, you can never be called human… … .”
I feel dirty.
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In this serious situation, the image of Princess Arin crying suddenly passed before my eyes.
As if it represents the expectations of the head of the family.
“Just as you let everyone else stand by for you and your people, this time we will let you go for your own sake.”
The mouth that was closed due to complicated emotions could hardly be opened.
I didn’t even feel like opening it.
In my current situation, no matter what I say, I feel like I’ll feel shabby.
“If you’re feeling itchy, go and take Nana, who’s bored, for a walk. “As far away from the imperial castle as possible.”
After saying those words, the head of the family got up and left.
My feet did not move until the sound of her footsteps getting further and further away finally stopped in the distance.
Normally, Kayram would have popped out around this time and laughed at my current shabby situation.
[…] … .]
Now she doesn’t even appear to me.
“Kick!”
I don’t know why, but laughter came out of my mouth without me knowing.
It wasn’t a situation to laugh, but I just laughed.
That’s how much I am now,
I guess it’s not a normal situation.
* * *
<… Accordingly, the imperial family decided to disband and reorganize the Knights of Light. Matters that are decided in the future will be notified to each territory through an official letter.>
An official letter from the imperial family received shortly before the arrival of the imperial castle.
Unlike the others who were shocked, Jereon’s face was very indifferent.
As if he had predicted from the beginning that something like this would happen.
“Why do you guys make that look? “We’re not even the Knights of Light anymore, so what’s the big deal about disbanding the Knights?”
“Are you sure there’s nothing wrong with Zereon?”
“Isn’t it the way of the world that everything is thrown away as soon as it is no longer needed? Should I tell you all this? “Everyone has aged like crazy.”
Although they were not of similar age to Jereon, they were also in the twilight period with white hair and wrinkles.
“Isn’t it written here that it is not completely dismantled in the first place but reorganized? As times change, the roles that must be performed naturally also change. “The Knights of Light are just going through the same process.”
The subordinates could hardly open their mouths and just stared into the distance.
“You people who didn’t tremble even in front of high-level magicians are making funny facial expressions with just a few words.”
Jereon looked around at them as if they were pitiful.
“Are you going to the imperial castle like this?”
“I have to go. Although I won’t be treated as well as before… … .”
Instead of being treated as before, I could have been treated in the exact opposite way.
“Usually the reason I ask such a question is to dissuade you because you won’t see anything good if you go, but… … .”
A smile immediately appeared on Jereon’s lips as he looked at each of his subordinates’ eyes.
“It looks like you all want to go to the imperial castle. “I feel like I’m going to go and see the end of it.”
The subordinates did not deny it.
“How could I go to the imperial palace alone, leaving you like this? “We haven’t done anything wrong, so they won’t throw us in jail right away.”
Only then did their serious expressions begin to ease.
“Go and check it out with your own eyes. “I wonder if the path we have taken was really the right path.”
“I will obey the leader’s orders!”
Now, so long has passed that even being called the leader sounds awkward,
The eyes of Zereon and other subordinates were shining intensely, as if they had returned to the moment decades ago when they stood proudly on the battlefield wearing pure white armor.
At this time, it seemed like their bond would last forever, but
The bond was broken exactly eight hours later.
The moment Mark, feeling puzzled by Zereon’s absence even though the morning sun rose brightly, entered his room,
“Je Leon?”
Mark couldn’t believe his eyes.
Jereon, who had promised to go to the imperial castle with his subordinates, had suddenly disappeared.
All that was left behind was a letter containing an indifferent word.
* * *
“We were planning to take you there soon, so I’m just grateful that you came here in person.”
Violette, with a smile on her face, poured tea for him and said.
Jereon stared at the tea the princess gave him, then took a sip.
“I didn’t know that Princess Violet would welcome me.”
“Are you uncomfortable because I came to visit you?”
“Is that possible? “I told you that because I thought Princess Arin would come visit me.”
Violette covered her mouth and smiled elegantly.
“That kid is very busy. He works hard every day to become a proper member of the royal family. “As her older sister, I am truly grateful in many ways.”
After those words, there was a moment of silence between the two.
“It’s something I could never have imagined.”
“You mean the disbandment of the Knights of Light?”
“Princess Arin is looking after the royal family’s affairs. “Even before I retired, the imperial family was on the verge of a storm. I had no idea that she would grow up so well and take on the role of princess.”
“What does bloodline matter? Anyone can be treated well as long as they have the ability. Just like Captain Jereon back in the day… … .”
Jereon ignored Violet’s meaningful words as he drank his tea.
“Before I walked through the gates, I had two situations in mind.”
“What kind of situation do you mean?”
“The former was taken away by knights as soon as they entered the castle gate, and the second… … “It was the same situation now.”
“What do you mean by arrest? “How did you come up with such a terrible thought?”
Violet looked quite sad.
“The situation ahead is better. If that happens, we will clearly know what the imperial family’s intentions are regarding the current situation. But the current situation is a different story.”
“What makes you think that?”
“At a time when the Knights of Light had declared its disbandment, the former leader of the Knights of Light suddenly appeared at the imperial castle. What good could there be for the imperial family? But, the fact that you treat me so kindly… … .”
Jereon’s eyes became sharp for a moment.
“It means you want something from me. Isn’t that right? Princess Violet?”
Despite his cool-headed question, Violette’s face was extremely calm.
On the contrary, he was smiling happily, as if he was very satisfied with the situation.
“As expected, it’s Captain Jereon. You are cool-headed! “Then, I will get straight to the point without turning around.”
Violet soon got up from her seat and said, wrapping her hands around Jereon.
“Will you be our savior?”
(Continued in the next part)
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