Episode 237
One.
Sylvia clenched her fists.
“What do you mean by coping mechanisms?”
“If I were to summarize the issues that are currently problematic, they are as follows.”
My lover continued calmly.
“I hurt you. I apologized in an attempt to comfort the wound, but it is difficult to heal the wound with just one word. In reality, you may not have completely healed your wounds even now.”
“Well, when you say it like that, it makes me seem really sloppy, but… Well then… ?”
“Then there may be three options.”
Raviel stretched out three fingers and folded one of them.
“The first is for me to suffer destruction until your insides are relieved.”
As I listened, I clenched my fists.
Raviel gave me a sideways look and then looked at the Lady of the Golden Silk again.
“But it cannot be done. Whether it was then or now, my destruction is accompanied not only by me personally but by so many things that depend on me. “Once upon a time it was the comfort of the empire, and now my lover’s happiness has been added to it, which is why I cannot possibly grant that request.”
“More than anything, your butler has already proven by giving his all that you cannot be happy with that.”
Sylvia lowered her head.
The story about the butler will forever remain in her as an indelible debt.
Raviel’s fingers folded one more time.
“The second is to physically exclude you and destroy you.”
“…!”
Sylvia flinched and raised her head.
The silver tyrant looked down at Sylvia with red eyes that pierced the darkness.
“Under normal circumstances, this is the method I would choose without hesitation.”
“….”
“Murder is the ultimate incompetence, my companion told me from some god. I completely agree with that. “Murder is not proof of competence; it is simply a method that cannot be chosen because there is no other way.”
However, Raviel said.
“But I am not an omnipotent god. He is not an omniscient transcendental person. I am a person with limitations, and I am nothing more than a ‘slightly intelligent animal’ who lives with my feet on the ground and cannot survive without bread and water. I must protect what I carry within those constraints. “This is why we have no choice but to physically exclude everything that threatens our safety or has the potential to threaten our safety.”
There was a human dignity expressed in that voice that willingly acknowledged one’s own limitations.
“so… .”
Sylvia gritted her teeth.
“Are you saying you want to get rid of me? ? Or are you saying that since we cannot allow a person like you to have a body, we will continue to subject you to the bondage of these hundred demons…?”
“Both are possible, but I won’t choose either one right now.”
Raviel said that and folded her last finger.
“The third is to accept your heart.”
“…?”
“In other words, I am taking you as my concubine.”
Silence fell.
“…….”
“…….”
Whoops, Amethyst drank the barley tea. I could clearly hear the sound of tea being drunk.
Other than that, no sound was heard, and even the members of the Demonic Cult hiding in the shadow of the wall held their breath.
-Wow.
What finally reached my ears was Bae Hu-ryeong’s admiration.
The legend of legends who had conquered the 99th floor of the tower was looking into the courtyard with a truly profound expression.
-Zombie, I need some popcorn. ah. Please make sure to ask for caramel popcorn, not just popcorn. In my opinion, popcorn tastes best when it is coated in a moderately brown color. What can I say, is it even more special because it feels like biting into a cavity? Anyway, yeah.
Compared to the facial expressions, the dialogue was not very profound.
To be honest, I’d like to tell you to shut up for a moment.
Finally, after a while, a human voice came out from the courtyard, and it was Sylvia Evanail. She was the daughter of Baron Golden Silk.
Sylvia’s lips trembled.
“What nonsense!?”
It was hard to see because it was covered in darkness, but his eyes were trembling just like his lips.
“Secret room? Wife, your concubine’s office? Now, I dare you, to that Sylvia Evanail. His Majesty the Crown Prince even made a covenant to make me his wife, so he asked me to become nothing more than his concubine… … ! Are you telling me to become your concubine!?”
“Yes.”
“dog sound! Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit! What kind of bullshit are you talking about? What on earth are you thinking? .”
“hmm. “It’s definitely bullshit.”
Raviel confirmed.
Thanks to this, my heart, which had fallen, whimpered and crawled up holding my spine.
“There are again two reasons why this is bullshit.”
Raviel spread her fingers again and said.
“one. This is not something I can decide on my own right away. face. status. glare. All such physical conditions can be sorted out, but an agreement must first be reached between Confucius and me. “The fact that this agreement was not preceded is the first reason why I consider this solution bullshit.”
I breathed a sigh of relief.
Silvia screamed as she sat cross-legged, her heart crawling up her spine.
“No, that’s not it! Where did listening to my opinion go! “That is a condition that must come first—”
“two.”
Raviel folded her fingers.
“Did you really love me?”
Sylvia, who had been shouting, closed her mouth.
“Wasn’t it not love, just a longing for an idol?”
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“Wasn’t it a desire to possess something you couldn’t have, something you assumed you couldn’t have?”
There was a long silence.
“I am,”
Tuk.
Raviel put down the teacup.
Amethyst picked up the tray, collected the teacups, and disappeared toward the main hall.
“I love Gongja Kim.”
“I love everything about Gongja Kim. “I never thought this kind of love was possible, and it would have been impossible for countless people who have lived and died, but one miracle was granted to me, and I met him.”
As for Raviel.
He recited it calmly as if he was just stating the truth.
“Everything is perfect. The sound of his breathing, the empty spot on the bed when he went out at dawn and disappeared… warmth… . I feel happy with every trace my love leaves behind. I understand him, and he understands me. We live in the same time. therefore… … .”
Raviel looked back at Sylvia.
“I cannot recognize anything else as love other than [this kind of love].”
“…….”
“Did you love me that much?”
Sylvia lowered her head.
It was a gesture that I couldn’t answer or not answer, so I just wanted to avoid it in this place.
“By now, you probably knew it all along. you didn’t love me That’s why I can’t love you.”
Yes.
That’s it.
How much coincidence and bloodshed was necessary for me to love Raviel and for Raviel to love me? The reason we love strongly is simply because we did not love easily.
Our love is difficult.
It is a love that can be achieved because of Raviel and I.
“… … then,”
If so, said Sylvia.
Darkness gathered inside the prone head and flowing bangs.
“So, what is it…” “In the end, what are we going to do?”
My clenched and trembling teeth began to turn red, soaked with the blood that had pushed out from my gums.
“I will not destroy you, I will not destroy you, I will not love you… What should we do? I just throw away an apple that I admit is imperfect and say, ah, what should I do… What should we do… .”
“I want to leave that to you.”
And Raviel looked back at me.
“Confucius.”
hmm.
“Yes, Raviel.”
“If you give Sylvia a body using the skill called Phalange Dragon’s Box, will she become much freer than when she was a white ghost?”
I understood the intent of the question, so I nodded.
“Yes, I am free.”
“Is that freedom worth what you enjoyed while alive?”
“Yes that’s right.”
“Enough to pursue what you want?”
“Enough to pursue what you want.”
Raviel nodded and looked at Sylvia.
“Pursue what you desire. Sylvia Evanail.”
“Do you want to destroy me? You were already almost successful. Let’s try again. But to do that, you will have to be stronger than me and my lover, and you will have to be able to completely ignore the heart of the deacon who sacrificed himself for you.”
The Golden Silk’s breathing stopped.
Raviel continued speaking.
“Do you want to die and disappear? Or do you want to kill me and get rid of me? Try it. But I have no intention of accepting it gently. I will resist the threats posed to me with everything I have, and I will win. “You will have to do better, just as you had to do earlier when you wanted to destroy me.”
“Or do you want to be loved by me? Or do you want to become someone I admire and admire, just like I once did for you? That too depends on your efforts. “You can try.”
Maybe we can achieve that, Raviel muttered.
The whole time she was speaking, she was looking straight at the Golden Silk.
“Either way, Sylvia Evanail.”
A person’s eyes met other people’s eyes.
“I recognize you as my opponent, as someone who can be anything that stands opposite me, and as an equal human being.”
From the beginning.
From the very beginning, that may be just what every world needed.
“So, let me ask you. Sylvia Evanail.”
Raviel Ivansia asked quietly.
“Do you acknowledge me as a human being?”
And then silence came.
2.
Sylvia looked up at Raviel blankly.
Beyond the darkened sky, a white moon was floating.
Raviel’s face, backlit by the moonlight, was very stern.
How much time has passed?
“…….”
The Golden Silk opened her mouth.
There was so much steam building up in my chest that even when I opened my mouth, no words came out.
Just the sound of hot breath, malice, anger, shame, self-reproach, resentment, resentment, blood, and breath leaked out endlessly.
“I am… … .”
I am, she said.
Sylvia was practically throwing up herself.
“For me, it’s difficult. You, you… .”
I grit my teeth so hard that they bleed.
Staring at me until it hurts.
“I don’t look up to you, I don’t look down on you… Accepting myself as a human being… Doing to others what I would not wish for myself… .”
Above all, with a stretched out voice.
“…It’s still like that now. You apologized to me, but in the end I… I can’t apologize to you. I can’t forgive you… I said, “Silvia covered her face with both her hands.
“I know… This statement itself would be shameless. I know that I have done much, much, much more harm to you than can be compared. Even though I know it… that.”
Regardless of the force, power, or strength of a person, the person who forgives is stronger than the person who is forgiven by that fact alone.
Sylvia wasn’t that strong, so she couldn’t forgive Raviel.
“So, for now… .”
Sylvia trembled, took a deep breath, and barely chewed it up and spit it out.
“First of all… I’d like to try it… .”
Sylvia swore.
“you… Forgiving you… “I don’t know how long it will take or how I will be able to accept you as human beings, but I will make it happen.”
“Because it… .”
Sylvia swallowed her words.
She could have swallowed it and digested it, but she said with her head down.
“That’s what it means for me to become that kind of person…” That guy must have wanted a butler… .”
Her eyes were full of tears as she mumbled.
Following the sniffles, sobs flowed.
“First of all… So, to become someone who is not ashamed of that guy… It’s hard, it’s hard, but I… .”
I am.
It is called the will to live.
“good night.”
As one who has the power to share life, I gladly answered.
“Then where would you like to live? Lady of the Baron of the Golden Silk. Sylvia Evanail.”
“To get what you want to get. To prove what you’re trying to prove. “Live.”
The golden card I held in my hand glowed.
“I will be with you.”
I put her will into the phalanx dragon’s box.
[Activate the skill!]
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