Episode 109 < How she loves. (1) >
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One.
The Lady of the Silver Lily is standing in a hallway at midnight.
Behind the lady, there is a huge mirror.
Full body mirror.
Smooth and clean.
In the mirror through which the moonlight slides, only the lady’s upright back is reflected. The only thing the mirror reflected was a speck of moonlight and a strand of hair, making the Lady of the Silver Lily look like a lonely island in a dark sea.
“There are no words.”
“…….”
“It’s a face of trouble. You have a clear expression. Easy to read even at night. Just by looking at the face, I can tell that this is [the first time].”
1st?
From now on, my heart has been pounding with anxiety. It still is. Why does the Lady of the Silver Lily use such a friendly tone?
A cold and cold sword to everyone. Ivansia family month.
The reason she would be kind to me, the butler of the Lady of the Golden Silk… does not exist.
There won’t be.
“…I didn’t know what to say, so I stayed silent. If I have been rude, please forgive me. Little Duke. This… Is it a dream? Did the Little Duke also appear in my dream?”
The Lady of the Silver Lily’s reaction to my words was to make a very strange expression. The smile on her lips somehow felt like a scar.
“That’s an interesting question. okay. Your dreams have taken over my life. “Now I know that love is simply dedicating your life to someone else’s dreams.”
What does it mean?
“I become your dream, and you become my life. Exchanging dreams and lives with each other is what we call love.”
What does it mean?
So I didn’t know what that meant. There were many other things I didn’t know.
The Lady of the Silver Lily explained one of the things I didn’t know with a bright smile.
“But I don’t think the question was asked in a very romantic sense. Please answer me seriously. If you’re feeling suspicious because you can’t see the servants, don’t worry. “I got bitten.”
“why… … ”
“And I warn you. “Don’t ever call me [Duke] with those lips again.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily smiled.
“I will cut out your heart and kill you.”
“…….”
I don’t understand.
Just now, the Lady of the Silver Lily was trying to kill me. Saying I will kill you. That was definitely not a lie. It wasn’t even a bluff. If I call her ‘Little Duke’ one more time, her rapier will surely pierce my heart.
That would be true.
‘why?’
Why is the life the duke’s daughter sent me not cold, and why is Idazi so warm?
How could declaring one’s intention to kill someone be this comfortable?
“Come over here.”
Her voice called to me like a hand gesture. I couldn’t refuse. As I approached the Lady of the Silver Lily, she pointed at me to the full-length mirror. “What do you see?”
“… … “I see you standing side by side with me.”
“and?”
“It’s a dark hallway… with barely any moonlight shining through. Except for the lady and me, we can barely see anything. Everything is covered in darkness.”
“and?”
The Duke’s daughter asked. It was bizarre. She was asking for a different answer. As if there was still something left for me to see in the mirror. But what else can a mirror reflect?
“And what else do you see?”
“…….”
“Say it, don’t hide it.”
I decided to look in the mirror a little harder. He narrowed his eyes and frowned. But even if I did that, what I saw was largely the same.
‘As expected, I can only see darkness. Exceptionally red eyes… .’
It was that moment. Jjiing! A headache struck me.
Incomprehensible letters flashed before my eyes.
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■■■: ■■
■■ [■■], [■■■], [■■], [■■]
■■ ■■
■■ ■■■: [■Seung], [Yeon■], [■■■ ■■], [■■■], [■■■], [■■■■], [■■], [■ ■■ ■■■ ■ ■■ ■], [■■■■ ■■■■ ■],
[■■ ■■■■■]
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“Whoop, whoop…” … ?!”
I felt extremely nauseous.
-Kim ■ja ■圖 Je■ ■ ■■ ■ryeo!
[■■■■ Dragon ■■■ ■■■■■ ■■■■!]
Reflexively, I wrapped my hands around my neck. For a moment, my neck hurt, but I didn’t know why.
Since I had no choice but to leave unknown what I didn’t know, I thought of something else.
‘I’m glad it’s empty.’
It didn’t cause vomiting. Vomiting in front of the legitimate daughter of Duke Ivansia, it was horrible to even imagine. I desperately swallowed the nausea.
The Lady of the Silver Lily was calm.
“I asked what I see.”
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What a cold-hearted person.
A bitter taste spread to the tip of my tongue.
“The letters… I see strange letters. And the voice… Strange voices… I do not know.”
“Voice.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily smiled slightly at those words. This smile was more like a smile than the smile before.
“You are loved.”
“What are you saying…?” .”
“Tell me about letters.”
I just stared blankly as she moved on without any explanation. Her smile had dried before she knew it, and she simply repeated calmly without any signs of urging.
“Didn’t you say you see strange letters? “Tell me.”
“… It’s hard to see. I can’t even see the complete letters… All you can see are letters… Fragments… ?”
“Recite at least one fragment.”
“Win… kite… Other than that, no way. nothing.”
“hmm.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily placed her chin.
For some reason, she was curling her eyebrows.
“indeed. [Seung] is [Teacher] and [Yeon] is [Lover]. What you left at the end is very much like you. But is the teacher placed before the lover? “I understand, but I don’t like it.”
“My lady, there are so many things I couldn’t understand from earlier. “You said this wasn’t a dream, but then what do you want from me?”
“I want you.”
“I’m sorry. I still don’t understand… … ”
“What did you dream about?”
The Lady of the Silver Lily Duke cut my words short.
‘No matter how much she is the legitimate daughter of the Ivansia family-.’
‘He is definitely the only butler of the Lady of the Golden Silk-.’
‘His Royal Highness loves the young lady, but to treat her like this-.’
Countless thoughts were tangled in my head.
But none of them touched my heart. It just shakes like music that has lost its rhythm. It will just collapse soon.
“I don’t really remember. But in my dreams… … ”
In the end, what got the vibrations from my mouth was an obedient answer to the duke’s question.
“In a dream.”
“… … “The lady shed tears as she looked at me.”
Yes.
“I’m in the chair… Probably strapped to a chair. With something like a rope. “I didn’t know why I was tied up, but the lady was the only one in the gorgeous room, looking down at me.”
Just before waking up.
Surely I have seen such a sight.
“My heart ached. The chest… It was pierced by the blade that the Lady stabbed. However, it seems that was not all. In my dream, I……”
“What about you?”
“… … “I remember feeling very guilty toward you.”
“okay.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily smiled again.
Just seeing that smile made me feel like I was going to cry, I felt sick to my stomach.
“I’m glad you at least know that I’m sorry.”
“…….”
“Do you know why you had such a dream?”
“no. I do not know. at all… .”
“Because that’s the [trauma] I have.”
trauma.
“I haven’t said anything yet. “My mother committed suicide.”
what ?
My head turned white from shock.
“I don’t know why she committed suicide because it happened so young. The duke’s wife. Ivansia’s moon. How could someone with so much power and wealth end his own life? “I don’t know why, but I clearly remember the words her mother called me and whispered to me on her last night, and the sight of everyone quietly cremating her mother’s death.”
This.
This is something I shouldn’t know. This is something you shouldn’t even hear. I can’t believe such evil is hidden in the Ivansia duchy. A terrible secret that cannot be used as a political tool.
“But.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily Duke looked at me.
“Even that memory is no longer my trauma.”
“…….”
“His Royal Highness gave the Golden Silk a blue coral ring today.”
One step.
The Lady of the Silver Lily approached me.
“In my last life, I despaired of that. Or angry. It’s okay to say that you were jealous and envious. Everything filled my heart. “I took up a sword in my heart to curse the world, and cut down my own heart in the mirror.”
There were no footsteps.
Only then did I realize that she was barefoot.
“But even that is no longer my trauma.”
Kuuk.
The lady’s foot stepped on my shoe.
A light and insignificant weight entangled one of my feet. If I wanted to back away, I would back away as much as I wanted, and if I wanted to get away, I would get away whenever I wanted to, but my whole body was caught by half of her weight.
“The ten days seemed like an eternity.”
The lady’s hand got closer.
“The sight of my world being stained with blood and destroyed. The figures of the devil imitated my tongue and lips and laughed at me. “All the things that once hurt my heart are no longer my trauma.”
Thin grip.
“It turned out not to be.”
neck.
“From now on, only you have the right to hurt my heart.”
Her hands lightly squeezed my neck.
“Even if the person with the most vicious tongue in the world cursed me for two days, it would still be worse than the sigh you inadvertently threw at me.”
From the small finger to the index finger. From her thinnest fingers to her thickest, I felt every inch of pressure she applied to me.
“Even if the most vicious person in the world whips and whips me, it is still less than the one sneer you shed at me. Although there are countless people in this world who can kill my body, you are the only one who can hurt and kill my soul.
I was out of breath.
“So my trauma has already been decided as one.”
My throat was tight.
“Young, child… … ”
“Stupid. “I warned you clearly.”
『If you scar my heart, I will kill you.』
“you. “You gave me a scar.”
Warm murderous intent.
Red eyes smiled.
“I haven’t broken a promise since I was four years old. die.”
“……, …….”
“Die and love me again.”
I am.
For some reason I can’t resist.
[You are dead.]
and.
[Relive the trauma of the enemy who killed you.]
[Penalty depth is medium.]
[This is Agwido.]
A dream within a dream unfolded.
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I don’t want to kill you.
Raviel Ivansia thought as she looked at the man in front of her. I don’t want to lose it. Once again, it was funny to think to Raviel Ivansia himself about how possessive a person he was.
-Princess. Think about it. A princess would be able to come up with exactly what I came up with. The princess is also a regressor like me.
Dangerous man.
Raviel quickly realized what he was trying to do. He was willing to completely immerse himself in the role of ‘butler’. Thus, when he returns one day from the ‘deacon’s point of view’, he returns to the time before he offered his heart to the mirror.
It can overturn the game board itself.
‘What a brilliant idea.’
It would truly be a plan to pierce a loophole in the tower.
‘He has a gentle face, but what kind of brain is he using to come up with this trick?’
It felt good to know that the man she fell in love with wasn’t stupid. okay. It was a very pleasant experience. But even so, Raviel Ivansia was against it.
– Confucius. Dangerous.
The reason was clear.
-I won’t remember you.
Himself, Raviel Ivansia, does not remember Gongja Kim.
Even if you go back a day, stop yourself from stabbing the mirror, and thereby prevent the tragedy of 10 days of eternity from repeating itself, it is meaningless if you don’t remember yourself.
-I don’t want to live.
-I want to live with you.
The days I spent with you.
The first full-month holiday allowed to me.
All those memories make me who I am now. Once it is gone, you can no longer become Raviel Ivansia.
Do you know, the man in front of you? That way, he realized that he was not at all grateful that he had escaped the ten-day maze.
-are you okay.
Maybe he knew.
-I will definitely resolve it somehow.
If you look at the way they say things so obnoxiously.
-Please trust me.
-…….
Raviel Ivansia was silent.
The harshness of those words paralyzed me for a moment. Please believe me. Trusting someone without any reason. Even belatedly, I regretted the promise I made a few days ago that I would trust you. However, Raviel Ivansia was too urgent to be immersed in paralysis and regret.
‘Believe.’
I believe in the man I love. I believe in this man’s competence. He is a man of his own choice. He is his own person. Surely he will [somehow] succeed in persuading the tower to go back to the day before.
The real problem starts after that.
‘How do we bring back the level of immersion that has risen above 90%?’
If he succeeds in going back in time one day, he will definitely not remember anything about himself. Even if you remember it, it will only be a vague feeling. It is impossible to recall the days spent with oneself in detail.
‘…….’
no.
‘wait for a sec.’
There is a way.
Raviel groaned at the thought of such a method and moaned again. It occurred to her that all the poison of her empire came from her own heart. It wasn’t for long. I couldn’t do that for long.
Raviel Ivansia realized that she would carry out that method.
‘I,’
Thus, Raviel Ivansia reflected in her heart the plan she had come up with and how she would decide.
‘I just have to kill this man.’
trauma.
He confessed almost everything about himself to himself. I informed you. The ability he has has the side effect of peeking into the memories of the person who killed him.
‘If only I could make this moment a trauma.’
He will glimpse [now] at the moment he kills himself.
Not about your past, but about this very moment you are thinking about.
-…….
then. If only I could.
-I can tell him again what I want to say, the memories I want to pass on, everything.
-He can think of it again through me.
-okay.
Raviel was confident of success.
-내가 그대의 첫 번째 개새끼가 되었으니, 그대는 나의 마지막 개새끼가 되겠지.
Confucius.
-Really, I ended up having a bad guy as my lover.
Are you listening?
I am happy to have you. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want to miss the time I spent with you.
you said ‘I will write a diary starting today.’ You said that to show me your entire day. Was that a lie?
you said ‘I will learn music.’ I hope I can have a quiet evening listening to your music. Was that wish really a lie?
I want to see your day. I want to bid farewell to the evening with you. Your day will surely make me smile, and my evenings with you will be happy. I want my smile and your happiness to overlap.
I don’t want to kill you.
I don’t want to lose you.
-Are you okay?
-yes… … For now, it’s okay… … more.
-Are you asking me to kiss you more? You are truly spoiled, my lover.
look at me
Look at you with me.
you are a stupid person It’s even naive. I wonder how I will survive in this world with such innocence, but soon the question will be answered, which means I may have died thousands of times.
There are many, many reasons to abandon naivety. There are few reasons to remain naive. Even if there are many reasons, I do not abandon you, and I say that you are pure because you protect me even if there are no reasons.
I love your innocence.
-Are you still okay?
-Raviel… … .
Are you afraid of losing yourself? Is it scary?
-i love you. I love you, Raviel… … .
-Know.
Okay.
-Even if I’m reborn, I’ll love you… … .
I am here.
Just as I trust you, you too must trust me.
rely on me
-So, make sure I never forget you. Even if I die, I won’t forget you…
-I know.
You cannot protect yourself alone.
I cannot protect the world alone.
But with you and me, we can do anything.
I too am afraid. I am afraid of killing you.
I am terribly afraid of approaching you, even though I know it will hurt me.
But my fears are no obstacle to being with you.
Look.
-… … oh my god.
Eventually, you, who have sunk into the role of a butler, speak to me.
-Little Duke.
Throbbing.
My heart aches. sick.
I feel sorry for you who call me [Duchess] instead of [Princess].
-Are you sure you kidnapped me now?
A face of disbelief. It hurts to see people looking at me with suspicion. It’s painful to react as if someone is seeing me for the first time.
-It’s too much. Even if the Ivansia Duke family’s power covers the sky, it is too much. Why do you hate the Lady of the Golden Silk so much that she threatens me, her servant?
Listen.
This is the scar you left on me.
– Confucius.
Don’t forget.
-… … Who are you looking for?
never. Don’t forget even when you die.
-My lover.
The man who gave his heart to me.
-This is the man I will give my heart to.
you are here
dwells in my heart
-Go on.
-…….
-I am waiting for you.
Are you listening?
Can you hear me?
Confucius.
I am loving you.
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