MEMORIZE Chapter 678

00678 4. Promised separation. ————————————————– ———————-=

A long time ago… . Since when did it start?

To tell you the truth, I wasn’t a very good user at first. Regardless of my lack of skills or user information, my mental awakening as a user was quite late. Let alone taking active action or thinking about how to survive, I couldn’t even think of facing this scary and difficult world called Hol Plain. So, locked in the city, I became lonely, trembling like a coward. But ironically, in order to survive, one day you had to go out into the world.

‘okay. ‘Let’s give it a try.’ I didn’t muster up the courage to go out with that thought in mind. My first step into the world was, funny enough, because I had no money, I was hungry and almost pushed around. Still, perhaps due to beginner’s luck, the first step I managed to take was somewhat successful. I still can’t forget the taste of the meat I bought with the money I was first allocated.

But it wasn’t always successful. no. Rather, as if to laugh at a zero-year user who knew nothing, the reality they had to experience afterwards was extremely cruel.

‘It was your first expedition that went out with us?’

‘no wonder. Still, there seemed to be quite a bit of growth potential. If it’s okay, please come with us on our next expedition.’

On my second expedition, I was playing the role of bait without even realizing it. When I barely escaped by heavenly luck, the woman who led the caravan frowned when she saw me barely come back alive. And he even gave me a small amount of money as if it were a favor. At that time, like an idiot, I couldn’t say anything and had to take the money and turn away. All I did was curl up in a corner of a homeless place in the city and shed a single tear out of frustration.

Looking back, I was reckless at the time. Not only was it reckless, it was also stupid. I should have realized something from that incident, but I haven’t gotten any better since then. When I happened to go exploring, I was always prone to being taken advantage of, and on days when I couldn’t go exploring, I wandered around the square all day and walked around helplessly. Let alone finding a place to sleep, it was a long task to even eat meals for the day.

Is that all? I was betrayed by a user I believed to be a friend, and I even had the money I had worked so hard to save stolen. Even then, I had no place to complain, so I just swallowed my heart and cried. Even if I didn’t cry on the outside, I was always crying in my heart.

The one good thing was that at least there was someone to hate. I resented the person who used me and blamed myself for my shortcomings. Still, I wait and believe that the sun will shine someday. I think that was probably the last time I was pure.

But the real problem began when the long-awaited day of sunshine arrived. Ever since I happened to participate in the creation of a new caravan led by a man, I have always been around caravans. I worried every day that I might become bait again, that I might be used again and then abandoned. However, the users of the caravan treated me with sincerity and thought of me as a person, not just a user.

I once asked that question to a man in charge of leadership.

‘Why did you accept me, me, into the caravan?’

In response, the man said this.

‘Why? That’s simple. Soohyun, you are definitely not a very attractive user. But I will tell you this one thing. Even if user Kim Soo-hyun is a bit unsightly, Kim Soo-hyun as a person is full of charm. At least for me.’

‘Even so, I’m confident that I have a good eye for people. Even if you are betrayed, you are not the kind of person who would betray yourself first. That’s why I let you join my caravan. I want to make our caravan a family where we can trust and have each other’s backs, rather than a group that prioritizes skills.’

Perhaps those words opened my wounded heart. I was happy that I had met someone I could trust for the first time in this harsh world. From then on, I always trusted and followed the man. At the same time, I was able to secure my place in the caravan. By trusting and relying on my colleagues in any situation, I was able to be recognized as a worthy colleague at some point. For the first time, happiness came to my life as a user, which was stained with hurt and tears.

But that happiness didn’t last long. We ended up being wiped out only once as a result of a wrong expedition in the Blue Mountains. Not only the leader, but also all the colleagues who had been laughing and chatting before the expedition were wiped out. The only ones who survived were me and one other person who barely managed to escape.

I lost people I considered family. The shock I felt at that time was truly indescribable, and my only remaining colleague and I parted ways without saying a word to each other. In the end, I ended up being alone again.

But did I really know at that time? The fact that that incident at that time was only the beginning of the long life of Hall Plain that would follow.

As I sometimes think, my memories of the first round were always filled with similar experiences.

Crying over losing a colleague.

Crying over losing a friend.

I cry over losing my older brother.

Crying over losing a woman.

A daily routine of repeated loss and crying.

Even when I look back on it now, the events pass by vaguely like a midsummer night’s dream.

And at some point, I stopped crying. The reason why I don’t shed tears even when I look back on those memories one by one is because at some point I got tired of experiencing daily life over and over again. After losing, being hurt, shaking, and crying, I eventually gave up.

At the same time, I was finally able to realize it. In other words, I instinctively realized how to avoid getting hurt anymore.

The method was simple. It was enough to treat the other person as a user rather than a person. Instead of treating it as affection, it was treated as a necessity. As a result, more and more things were naturally thought of as means or tools.

It definitely had an effect. As a specific example, Helena died during this attack, but I did not feel that much sadness. I just felt a deep regret that my horizons were not broad. Since I didn’t have feelings for you in the first place, there’s no way I can feel regret or regret.

So, except for my brother and Han So-young, I tried not to be too attached to other users.

But, by the way.

“My dear… .”

Now a woman who is craving my affection has appeared and asks me to have affection for her. Citing the qualifications of being a father that weigh heavily on my shoulders. Those words brought me a fresh shock. Because Gehenna truly wanted me.

There is no doubt that what I heard was sincere. As I thought before, in this hell, Gehenna is a being in a completely superior position. If they wanted to, it wouldn’t be a problem to keep me from going out.

But Gehenna did not do that. Rather, she captured me with her sorrowful eyes shining and her sorrowful voice. She says she won’t hold on for the rest of her life. Even if it’s just for a little while, please stay by my side for the sake of our future child. What emotions did I really feel when I thought about Yeokjisaji?

“please… .”

Eventually, when I heard the anxious voice once more, I felt my heart begin to change little by little. For a split second, the thought that I had to get out as quickly as possible struck me. And the faces of my brother, Han So-young, and other clan members flashed through my mind.

“… … .”

Right now, I couldn’t ignore Gehenna’s request to stay with me for just seven nights, not a lifetime.

So, I slowly walked towards Gehenna and quietly opened my mouth.

“Gehenna. “I’m truly sorry.”

At that moment, Gehenna’s eyes fluttered like waves and then closed her eyes tightly.

“I don’t think I can stay with you forever.”

okay. This is the correct answer. If you think about it backwards, I was in a position where I had to apologize. As Gehenna said, the child I conceived now was also my child.

“ah… ?”

Soon, as if something unexpected happened, Gehenna opened her eyes the size of a flower lantern and gently opened her mouth.

“If it’s really okay for just seven nights… .”

Looking at Gehenna like that, I continued speaking once more.

“Uh, you?”

I slowly knelt down right in front of Gehenna. Then, she grabbed Gehenna’s embarrassed stomach with both hands and calmly placed her ear close to her. Even though there was no sound, she focused all her attention on her ears, hoping to feel something.

After a while.

I gently closed my eyes as I felt a cozy hand wrapping around the top of my head.

*

– New Continent, Atlanta.

A young man is lying on a cot and staring at the ceiling of a tent. The eyes, which seemed dazed at first glance, were so blurry that they reminded one of a dead person. Now that I think about it, there are water marks not only on my face but also on the bed sheets, which looks like tears have dried up after flowing.

Then suddenly, tears flowed down once more, and the young man frowned and trembled slightly. He seemed to be able to hold it in for a moment, but eventually he turned around and began sobbing quietly. Tears flow endlessly from my squinted eyes.

The young man lying on the cot and crying right now was none other than Ahn Hyeon. About three weeks ago, to be exact, after Kim Soo-hyun was dragged into hell by the Grand Duke of Hell, Ahn Hyun stayed up all night crying for several days. Not even a sip of water, let alone food, I just continued to sob.

Afterwards, he barely came to his senses with the help of people around him, but Ahn Hyeon, who always seemed bright and cheerful, was no longer there. She was almost always confined to her tent, and appeared lethargic, spending most of her time lying on a cot. Go Yeon-joo and Jeong Ha-yeon, who were worse than her, went in to scold her harshly, but when she saw Ahn Hyeon crying, she just shook her head in despair. The two women were also greatly heartbroken by Kim Soo-hyun’s near-death disappearance, and she knew what Ahn Hyun always thought of Kim Soo-hyun.

Above all, the sound of Anhyun crying was truly sad. I try my best to hold back my tears, but the more I try, the more sobs that sound like whimpers come out. Like right now.

It was then.

– Sweet.

The sound of the door being opened was heard, and a woman with an elegant appearance walked in. The woman who comes in holding a tray with a bowl of food in her hand is none other than Im Hannah. She was worried about Anhyeon’s health and brought food and water herself.

“Hyuna. My sister is here. Try some of this. huh?”

In fact, Im Hanna was equally sad in this situation. However, when I looked at the other clan members, especially the kids who had been with Kim Soo-hyun since the rite of passage, I couldn’t show it. Ahn Hyun was showing her emotions with her whole body, enough to make those who saw her forget their sadness for a moment.

Anhyeon did not open his mouth for a moment. She just kept her mouth shut and without Im Hannah’s knowledge, she started wiping her eyes with her clenched hands.

“yes. “Is your sister here?”

Ahn Hyeon, who had been wiping away her tears for a long time, spoke in a hoarse voice, clearly showing that she had forced herself to keep her voice quiet. And surprisingly, he obediently got up and faced Im Hanna.

In fact, there is no way I would have an appetite in this situation. However, Anhyeon did not want to cause any direct harm to the clan members. This is because, not long ago, she happened to see Lee Yu-jeong screaming and making a fuss at Im Hanna, who brought her a bowl of food just like her. At that time, Ahn Hyeon understood Lee Yu-jeong’s feelings, but she promised herself not to do something like that. As I said, there is nothing wrong with Im Hanna.

Ahn Hyeon slowly raised his eyes, met Im Hanna’s kind eyes, and bowed his head.

“sister… . thank you… .”

“are you okay. It’s okay, so eat it. On the contrary, I am thankful that he eats even this little bit.”

Ahn Hyeon smiled bitterly to himself, thinking he knew what that meant. On the tray was something like a soft soup that was considerate of Ahn Hyun’s weakened body, giving off a fragrant smell. He lifted the spoon with difficulty, but the speed at which Anhyun ate was extremely slow. It’s as if he doesn’t want to eat but is forcing himself to eat. It may be unavoidable since I have no appetite, but I still do it.

By the time I was holding back the feeling that I was going to vomit at any moment, I was forcing myself to keep going.

“What do you mean! “What does that mean?”

Suddenly, a shout coming from outside the tent rang in the ears of Ahn Hyeon and Im Hanna. At the same time, the faces of the two men and women crossed. Ahn Hyeon gave her a puzzled look, and Im Hanna closed her eyes tightly. It was as if he was saying that it had finally come.

“I heard you came back! They say you can find out if you just have a contract! however… !”

Finally, when the voice was heard once more, Ahn Hyeon’s eyes widened as if he remembered something. And just as she was about to get up, she was stopped by Im Hanna’s hand.

“no. If you want to go, eat everything and leave.”

Im Hanna, who was quietly thinking, looked directly at Ahn Hyeon while biting her lower lip. Her eyes said she couldn’t compromise on this much.

however.

The next moment, Ahn Hyun’s dead eyes suddenly lit up. Then, he picked up the bowl of soup he had been chewing on, poured it into his mouth, pulled back the curtain, and walked out of the tent.

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