MEMORIZE Chapter 338

00338 Finished. And then the outbreak. ————————————————– ———————-=

“I didn’t recognize you… . “So you’ve lost all your memories?”

“no. I told you at the beginning. “It was not complete amnesia, but partial amnesia.”

Ahn Hyun shook his head left and right with a sad face. I clasped my hands together and quietly thought.

If there is one thing I regret, it is that I heard about the past from Ahn Hyeon’s mouth. He told the story from his own perspective, and as such, the story about what happened to Ansol seemed to be quite lacking in specificity. Well, he was hardly at home at the time, so he didn’t really have anything to say.

I gathered my thoughts to some extent and slowly opened my mouth.

“So, there are things I remember, and there are things I can’t remember.”

“yes. According to the doctor… . He said he would have forgotten most of his painful memories. There are many possibilities, but the most likely is that some kind of self-defense instinct was expressed, not wanting to remember anymore… .”

“… … .”

“The moment I heard that, my head went blank. “Forgetting me would mean that my younger brother resented my older brother deep down in his heart.”

I nodded calmly. Although I didn’t hear it from Ansol’s perspective, I was able to fully empathize with the situation.

A ruined family and the resulting discord between families. Mother’s suicide. Long-term, abusive domestic violence. Bullying suffered at school. And finally, my father’s suicide.

Moreover, it is said that the father suffered from severe schizophrenia.

Whether considering the situation or genetics, it was impossible not to develop a mental disorder. In a world where there was no one on his side, it was surprising that Ansol’s personality did not cause him to attempt suicide.

‘No, maybe I did.’

Anhyeon may not know, or he may not have said anything at all.

I shook off the tobacco a couple of times and spoke softly.

“So what happened to Ansol after that?”

“… I was very confused and anxious. She was very reluctant to meet people, and when she was in a state of severe depression, she would hold her head and shed tears. To make matters worse, as her symptoms became more severe, her age seemed to be regressing.”

“So has that continued until now?”

“At the hospital… . It happened due to a combination of extreme trauma and stress. Since there are many cases of sudden recovery, I decided to take it slow and watch the progress… . “Even as time passed, I didn’t feel any signs of recovery.”

Anhyeon sighed deeply. Before I knew it, his eyes were fixed on the tobacco that was stuck between my fingers. He seems like he wants to smoke, so I give him a little signal and he shakes his head excitedly.

I put my hand back in my arms and took a sip. Ahn Hyun placed both hands on the floor, laid down his body slightly, and opened his mouth.

“I somehow brought it home… . At first, I tried to find a way, right? The pressure I felt when I realized that it was really just the two of us left was no joke. So, I thought I would protect Sol-i at all costs… . “I showed him pictures, took him to the hospital regularly, and often took him to places we used to hang out together.”

“Shouldn’t you have done that a long time ago?”

“haha… . It’s always too late to regret, right? Anyway, I think we were together almost all the time except for working hours. Then one day. “A thought suddenly occurred to me.”

“… … ?”

Anhyeon paused for a moment. And then he suddenly looked straight at me and immediately opened his mouth in a clear tone.

“I think that maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea to live like this without forgetting my memories.”

“… hmm.”

“Is that so? How can I comfort you like this… . “It suddenly occurred to me that maybe I could have a new start.”

“Well… .”

Personally, I don’t agree with that opinion. However, he did not dare to say those inner thoughts out loud. Perhaps, if Ahn Hyun had stuck to his original thoughts, he would not have even mentioned this to me. And since I had never experienced that situation, I had no intention of criticizing it.

Soon, Ahn Hyeon continued speaking.

“But brother. I guess it’s not possible for someone who is destined to fail. He finally came to his senses and was about to make a fresh start, but when he opened his eyes, he found himself in Hall Plain with his younger brother. “You know how I feel, right?”

“… know.”

“My brother, of course, got summoned on the day he returned from military service. If you think about it, there is no one who doesn’t feel wronged… . Well, anyway, this is roughly the story. haha.”

Ahn Hyeon concluded the whole story with words that made it difficult to tell whether he was laughing or crying.

A quiet night with clear moonlight. The son-in-law was quiet. Anhyun and I kept our mouths shut, as if we had made a promise.

After a rather long silence, I decided to speak first.

“Hyuna. I am only a listener, so I cannot imagine the pain you must have felt in your life. Because it’s something I’ve never experienced myself.”

“… yes.”

“Maybe that’s why, but if you had told me a little earlier… . I don’t think so. Then we could have found a way a little earlier.”

“that… .”

Anhyeon showed a moment of hesitation. However, she must have thought that she was just throwing Kim away, so she soon answered in a low tone.

“I did it because I was afraid of being abandoned… .”

“huh?”

When I raised my eyebrows as if to ask what I was talking about, Ahn Hyeon spoke again in a slightly louder voice.

“Honestly, that’s true. Even in modern times, when it comes to mental disorders, the reality is that everyone puts colored glasses on their eyes… . And it was actually like that when I first entered the rite of passage. Do you remember back then… ?”

“ah. then… .”

It certainly was. I closed my mouth. At that time, Ansol showed signs of anxiety that were incomparable to what he is now, and Park Dong-geol and Lee Shin-woo said they should leave him immediately. Ahn Hyeon probably heard that.

‘wait. So, are you saying that the symptoms have improved a bit now?’

At the same time, many questions come to mind. But even if I think about it now, I can’t find an answer. It was a problem that was decided to take time to resolve in the first place.

I took a moment to clear my mind and slowly got up. Then he walked over to Ahn Hyeon, who was still sitting down, touched his shoulder, and opened his mouth.

“Okay, I understand. “I’m sorry for making you say such painful things.”

“brother… .”

“And thank you for trusting me and telling me.”

“no. Now that I’ve said it, I feel relieved. Like my brother said, I should have told you sooner. It’s not anyone else, it’s my brother… .”

Anhyeon answered with a clumsy smile. Looking at him like that, I suddenly held out my hand. Ahn Hyeon looked at my hand with a distant look in his eyes, and then he held my hand with an insincere smile.

And the moment I tried to get up with my hands, I heard Lee Yu-jeong’s voice from far away.

“brother! Anhyeon! Where are you both! “Where are you doing?”

Anhyun and I turned our heads at the same time. And then we made eye contact again. I let out a soft breath, pulled Ahn Hyeon up, and continued speaking.

“… “The mood has calmed down a lot, but shall we go?”

“Okay, bro. Because the festival is still left. Grump~cha.”

Finally, Ahn Hyun stood up, patted his hands and stretched vigorously. He then bowed his head respectfully and opened his mouth.

“older brother. We wish Sol well in the future. I will also help as much as I can. “Just order whatever you want.”

“okay. Of course I can’t guarantee, but… . “I promise you this one thing.”

I was able to answer clearly because I had already said something.

“I will do my best to the best of my ability.”

With that said, I headed to where the clan members were gathered.

This time, I did the opposite and held Ahn Hyeon’s arm.

*

The unity meeting suggested by Jeong Ha-yeon was successfully concluded. Personally, I think this meeting was quite good. Even though only a few days had passed since the festival ended, it was felt that the atmosphere within the clan had clearly changed.

Until recently, there were quite a few clan members who were indifferent to each other, but with this opportunity, they were able to bring in all the clan members who were on the outside. Of course, the chronic cold war between the kids and Kim Han-byeol showed no signs of being resolved yet.

After the unity meeting ended, I took a few days to think and then immediately called Ansol.

And Ansol was right in front of me right now. He must have been waiting for my phone call ever since he got angry, and as soon as I called him to the call box, he seemed to have rushed over at once.

I was quietly lost in thought as I watched Ansol play with his hands with his head down.

To be honest, I’m not sure. The best weapons I had now were knowing the future and force.

If I had just used my power, I wouldn’t have worried so much. Since she was not an expert in the field of spirit to begin with, it was impossible to rely on potions like Baek Seo-yeon. It’s easy to break something, but it’s difficult to restore a spirit once it’s broken.

‘But I can’t just suck my finger like this… .’

Even if you can’t find a method right now, try until you get results. This was the thought I had now. ‘Knock. There is a saying that goes, ‘Then it will open.’

I decided to gather my thoughts and open my mouth.

“Sol.”

“yes yes?”

Perhaps surprised by my calling his name, Ansol lifted his head and answered.

“I’ve been thinking about it for a while… . “I think Sol is the clan member who is most unsuited to being a mercenary at the moment.”

“!”

And the moment I continued speaking, an exclamation point flashed above Ansol’s head. I could roughly guess how she received it, as her eyes soon became bright.

“Oh, brother… .”

“Look at this. It’s like this again. “I haven’t even finished talking yet, why are you crying already?”

“I’m sorry… .”

“then. I should be sorry. Perhaps Yujeong would have asked about her own problems rather than cried. And he said he would fix it. “Do you know that Yoo-jeong has been scolded by me so much?”

Ansol moved his neck as if trying to hold back his tears and barely nodded. I spoke immediately after seeing it.

“Of course, I admit that you have abilities that are different from others. But still. That ability only becomes valuable when you know how to use it yourself and protect it. If that doesn’t work, it’s a perfect ability to be exploited. “Am I wrong?”

Doridori.

Ansol bit his lip and shook his head. It bothered her that he kept giving her pitiful looks, but she had already made up her mind.

So, I opened my mouth as if to say something.

“You are currently the slowest and most backward among the clan members. I’m not talking about ability. I’m talking about this hole plane in general. Do you understand what I’m saying?”

“yes. yes… . sorry… . I’m really sorry… . sorry… . I won’t do that again… . Please forgive me… .”

It was my first time pushing Ansol like this. She also looked quite shocked, as if she was used to seeing me like this and couldn’t get used to it.

As I watched Ansol continue to rain, I spoke in a slightly softened voice.

“After a while. you. “You do know that the attendant position is empty right now, right?”

At a recent meeting, I officially notified Lee Yu-jeong that I would be removed from the attendant. I didn’t cut her because she wasn’t good at it. I don’t know if it’s because of her ‘braids of chastity’, but Lee Yu-jeong’s attitude was admirably stable.

In addition, we had already discussed enough before the meeting, and we were able to get Lee Yu-jeong’s consent by adding some circumstances. Although he actually seemed quite disappointed.

Finally, after seeing Ansol nodding hastily, I continued speaking.

“I intend to appoint you as my successor.”

“Um, me? Sue, how many people are accompanying you?”

“okay. But don’t get me wrong. You need to know more about hole planes, and you need to learn more. There is no right to veto. “You’d better come prepared.”

“Well, then… .”

Ansol’s expression, which looked like he was about to shed tears at any moment, began to subtly change. She whimpered, lifted her neck a few times, and blinked three or four times.

“Are you not abandoning me? You’re not kicking me out… ?”

That was the moment when Ansol’s cautious voice was heard.

Da da da da! Jump up!

“Merchionary Lord!”

Someone opened the door to the office, waving long, straight hair. I was annoyed at being suddenly interrupted as I was in the middle of an important conversation, but when I saw the user who came in, I felt strange.

The identity of the user who opened the door to the office was none other than Lim Hanna.

Since I was familiar with Im Hanna’s neat personality and dignified demeanor, I couldn’t help but find it even more strange. But when I challenged her to say something, she spoke first.

“It’s breaking news. “I was out in the downtown area just now, and I heard the news.”

“User Lim Hanna. Calm down and stay calm. “What news did you hear?”

Hannah Lim followed my instructions and placed one hand on her chest, and soon showed herself catching her breath. She wondered if five seconds had passed like that. She seemed to have calmed down a bit and slowly parted her lips.

“Halo, we have confirmed Halo’s fall.”

“hmm… . I heard that communication was cut off… . Anyway, yes.”

Since it was already planned, I answered calmly.

However, Im Hanna’s words were not yet finished.

“And it is said that a request for support from the Golden Lion has also been received. There are more than one or two other than this. There are also rumors that Western Continent users have begun their march to Barbara… .”

Finally, the moment Hannah Lim continued speaking, I reflexively knocked on the table.

—————————= Review of the work ——————– ——-=

There were a lot of stories I wanted to tell more about and unravel. Still, rather than revealing everything here and now, I thought it would be better to reveal them one by one in the process of unraveling Ansol’s threads in the future.

I’m glad I’m not too late today. haha.

Now the resolution begins. We will try to pull it off as quickly as possible before the war. thank you _(__)_

『Reripple』

1. Usain Bolt: Congratulations on first place. Wow, you’re cool. 11!

2. Blamy: Hey Blamy! Aim for first place sometime! I’ll do my best to catch up on the midnight series soon! ㅜ.ㅠ

3. Ayasaki: You must be a soldier. Thank you for protecting our country. cheer up!

4. [Pirate] Zoro: No. I hardly ever watch TV. lol. I also watch entertainment three or four times a month. 🙂

5. Sunsets: Modified. thank you! _(__)_

6. Pierrot’s Tears: I was moved to tears when I saw the comment. He just called me by my nickname, and suddenly tears started to flow. thank you Sobbing.

7. Eshal K: Honestly, Ansol is such a scam. If you mix it with Baekhangyeol, you will get the strongest combination in the auxiliary series. It can’t be given easily. Hehehe.

8. guzzi: Oh my. okay. I fixed it right away. thank you!

9. Mukhyang Cousin: There are many cases where incest is related to mental disorders. They say it’s almost 70%. That means that there are cases where it is not 30%. I didn’t rush it. 🙂

10. Lea: Yes. I also want to occasionally reveal the stories of characters other than the main character. My mission(?) is to write as interestingly as possible so that readers can enjoy reading. haha.

11. Quill: As always, thank you for reading. 😀

12. Repil: Thank you for your kind words. In the end, it will be in my hands. I’m always worried. It’s a fun concern. 🙂

Thank you for always reading. I hope you can always read my writing with a comfortable mind.

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