Memorize Chapter 112

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She is not weak. But she was showing weakness in front of me now. I also had a lot of things I wanted to say to her. But I thought it would be better to listen to her first. I didn’t want to meet and talk like this, and although it was a little early, I also thought that if it was something I wanted to talk about anyway, it would be okay to do it quickly.

When she nodded once in agreement, she smiled slightly.

“Before that, I want to ask you something. “How do you usually see me?”

The intention of Jeong Ha-yeon’s question was not yet clear. But I didn’t worry much. Just as I had told her a part of my truth through her , now she was also trying to reveal her inner self to me. Suddenly, I remembered the time in the ruined laboratory when she revealed her reaction to her clan.

“I think he is a smart and skilled wizard.”

“And?”

“I am always calm and like to solve things logically. “It is true that you have your own standards, but I think there is a certain amount of flexibility.”

“yes. And?”

“… “Your voice is clear.”

“Kick. And?”

I closed my mouth and stared at her with a blank face. Overall, Jeong Ha-yeon’s face seemed to be smiling. However, if you look closely, you can see that only the corners of her mouth have thin lines and her eyes are deeply sunken. I didn’t open her mouth anymore.

“… “Everyone has a side they see on the outside, and a side inside that only they know.”

“There are people who are the same on the outside and the inside.”

“no. I believed that there was no such person. Even though there are similar people, I thought that no one was completely the same. “But for the first time since I met you, my faith has been broken.”

“… … .”

I let out a sigh. Of course, I also agree with what she said. There was a time when I thought that way too. In some ways, I felt a little sad. What on earth happened to make me so disappointed in myself and others?

“I have no reason to doubt anything. I know very well the effectiveness of , and your sincerity was not even a lie. A person whose behavior on the outside matches his inner self. “It’s so amazing that people like this exist in the world.”

Although my stomach felt tingly for a moment, I quickly calmed down. I don’t feel sorry. At least the fact that my feelings for my brother and Han So-young were sincere gave me the confidence to endure all the shame.

Jeong Ha-yeon filled the glass with alcohol once again, slightly moistened her lips with her tongue, and continued speaking.

“I’m sure you’ve told me this before. If there is anything that seems even slightly unclear, I will point it out clearly. This is my creed for living on the whole plane. Do you know why I made these cold words my credo?”

“I do not know.”

“I was a member of the Golden Lion clan a year ago.”

He spoke straight away without any preparation or hesitation. okay. This is Jeong Ha-yeon. She focused even more on what she was saying, feeling like she was finally getting back to what she was talking about. She closed her eyes for a moment and seemed to gather her thoughts, but then she opened her eyes and opened her mouth in a polite, clear voice.

“You’re not surprised. great. Anyway, it seemed like he noticed it then. Anyway, when they tell you that you rejected the Golden Lion Clan… “It felt unique.”

“It would be crazy to join a clan with no future like that.”

“It’s a clan with no future… Who can really say that about the current Golden Lion Clan? But I agree with you.”

She paused for a moment and looked wistful. A face recalling memories. It didn’t take long for her to speak again.

“The Golden Lion Clan is a clan with a lot of tradition. It is said that the clan lord, who was in his 8th year at the time when attacking Barbara, died, so it can be said that this is his 12th year. Considering that there are no users who have survived more than 10 years in Holplane, it is an alliance that has its own continuity. is it so. I don’t know what it was like back then… They have changed. From the time we attacked Barbara, established ourselves, and started to gain strength. Of course, I wasn’t there at the time, but I think I have the qualifications to make such a bold assessment.”

“… … .”

“I came to Hall Plain with my younger brother two years ago. It was a time when the Golden Lion Clan was doing well. At that time, I was in my final year of college and entered Hall Plain without even knowing the English language. I was afraid. After falling into what is considered a rite of passage, encountering monsters you only see in movies, having your life threatened, and the fact that you cannot return home. At that time, I was able to meet one user who also participated in this rite of passage.”

Jeong Ha-yeon’s words felt so sad that I wanted to say something. But she stopped me by shaking her head excitedly. In response, I sighed and closed my half-open mouth.

“That user was really great. He has a handsome face, tall height, nice body, and cute personality. He was the kind of person who fit the imagination of many dreamy female college students at the time. Not only did she become the leader of those who fell with her at the time, she led them to escape that hellish rite of passage. And I couldn’t help but fall in love with that look. He had great skills at the time and was a man who lacked nothing. He was especially good at using a bow, and he could easily shoot a white-haired bow. “If I were to ride a white horse, I would literally be like a prince on a white horse.”

If so, it means it’s the same 2nd year. And he is good with a bow. I thought of a few users, but none of them really matched what she said. There are more than one or two archer users of the Golden Lion Clan who have achieved fame, but honestly, I don’t even remember the ones below Seon Yu-un who reached the level.

“That’s how we escaped the rite of passage and entered the user academy together. And there he stood out. It wasn’t easy to become the head of the user academy as an archer. Until then, I believed that I would continue to be with him and practiced after practice. Because he didn’t want anything holding him back. And then the long-awaited graduation day. He was the envy of all new users and proudly received an offer from the Golden Lion Clan. And at the same time, my dream came true.”

“What if it’s a dream?”

“To continue to be with him. On the day of graduation, with everyone’s eyes on me, he came up to me, held my hand, and said, I want to go with you. I want to be together in the future. I guess they asked the Golden Lion Clan to let them take one more person. My grades at the time weren’t that bad, but honestly, I wasn’t good enough to join that clan. Nevertheless, the Golden Lion Clan scout at that time nodded willingly. is it so. I was still just a beginner at the time, so I just followed him because I liked it, but following him back then may have been the starting point of everything… under.”

Jeong Ha-yeon paused for a moment and let out a short sigh. I quickly poured a drink into my empty glass. And by the end of this glass, the liquor in the bottle was completely empty. She drank the drink I poured for her in one go. She wet her lips with her tongue, as if to quench her throat a bit, and eventually burst into laughter.

“At that time, my younger brother was not able to join the users who went through the rite of passage together. Other users said that they had not been able to talk much since they first joined the user academy. But I could understand. No, I was actually happy. I worked hard to become a user like him. Since you are not skilled, you were not chosen by him. Of course, it took his younger brother a bit, but Jiyeon was considerate of me. I entered the Golden Lion Clan with him, feeling like a princess. “I loved that he treated me like a special person, and I was so excited.”

At that moment, I was able to recall the unique ability, charisma. A user who calmly understands the situation as much as she was was that captivated? If you are a charismatic user… no. At that time, she may not have been as rational as she is now. I buried the random thoughts in my head in a corner. She continued speaking again.

“… The words were too long. I’ll finish it soon. To put it bluntly, life in that clan was never happy. Users who came in based on pure skill looked down on me, and all new users were jealous of me. At that time, I gave my body to him in return… I even heard people whispering behind my back that I was a prostitute. From above too. And below too. “There was no one on my side.”

“Didn’t that user take your side?”

She gritted her teeth at my question. She bit down so hard that the sound of her teeth grinding was clearly audible. After chewing her teeth and lips for a while, she sighed heavily again. She lowered her head, lowered her gaze and opened her mouth.

“It was one night. That day, I lay down to sleep because my body and mind were exhausted, but no other users using the same accommodation came in that day. I thought it was strange, but I didn’t have time to pay much attention to it at the time. After a while, I heard the door opening. I was already in bed, so I closed my eyes, thinking we were the same hostel users. And at that moment, the user who came in climbed onto my bed and placed his heavy body on top of me.”

“no way… .”

“I was shocked and tried to get up, but the person who came in violently tore my clothes. I resisted like crazy. I wasn’t the type of person who would be attacked like that, but maybe I was letting my guard down, or maybe my resistance was lucky and successful. At the time, the vag!nal chanting I was learning to improve my skills became successful by chance. The criminal, who was hit by an unexpected blow, fell with a loud sound. Only then did I come to my senses and raise my head to see that the criminal who had attacked me was bleeding all over his body right before my eyes. That person was none other than a scouter from the old user academy. “As soon as he saw me, he got angry.”

“You’re angry?”

“yes. On the contrary, I was the only one who would be angry, but I was dumbfounded. Among the things he said at that time were these: What are you? “Didn’t you finish talking to that guy?”

The moment I heard her last words, I frowned. It seemed like I could roughly guess the situation before and after with just one word. She smiled when she saw my reaction. But that smile seemed so bitter and so lonely.

“is it so. It will be exactly what you imagine. That day, the Golden Lion Clan was shocked. I haven’t done anything wrong during my time there. Because I did what the clan told me to do and stayed silent. Even if they tried to criticize me, they wouldn’t have been able to because I didn’t do anything reprehensible except for those rumors. But that was it. As time passed, the matter was buried and the higher-ups said to let it pass quietly. He gave off a lot of nuance, saying that he was lucky that I wasn’t kicked out of the group. And that was the day it was decided to bury the matter. “I was called by the user who shared my rite of passage and brought me into the clan.”

If it was like that two years ago, you know what it’s like now. Although we certainly failed in a major expedition, there was no sense that we collapsed too easily afterward. Now, two years later, you can tell without looking or hearing how much the inside has rotted.

“Still, I wanted to be comforted because I thought he was the only one on my side. And the moment I came to see him with a sad face, he looked at my face and said something coldly.”

“… “What did you say?”

“You idiot. “I thought she was smart, but she turned out to be stupid.”

“yes. Please stop it. You can stop talking now. “I fully understood the context.”

This made it clear. Thinking that this was the right line, I raised my hand to stop Jeong Ha-yeon. But she shook her head fiercely, despite my consideration. Shiny short hair flutters beautifully from side to side. When I saw his firm determination to continue talking, I had no choice but to lower my raised hand.

“At that time, we argued and fought really badly. For the first time since I was with him, I also confronted him harshly. In the past, he cried and asked me how he could do that to me, but he always criticized me in a cold voice. Because of you, I fell out of favor with scouts. Do you know how much power that person holds here and now? Maintaining chastity in the hall plain is foolish. You have to do whatever it takes to survive. Why do you not know my heart? He gave persuasive sermons for a while. He left me sitting there crying. “All the scouter said was, ‘I’ll tell you again,’ and tell you to stop and face reality.”

“Jeong Ha-yeon.”

“It’s almost done. Just listen, just a little more. I don’t even remember how I got back to my room after that happened. I spent three days and nights crying and sobbing. But at that time, I still couldn’t see reality. Not the reality he talks about, but the reality I see. There was still a part of me that wanted to believe in that man. In the end, after thinking about it for a long time, I decided to acknowledge what the man said. There were certainly some female users around who lived that way, and the concept of chastity was rare in Whole Plain compared to modern society. I just imagined it. They are all doing this for me, and they will be able to accept me again later when they have a place. “He calmed his mind and got up with self-justification, which was nothing more than a vain delusion.”

“That’s stupid.”

She immediately agreed to my criticism.

“yes. I admit it. Thinking about it now, it was really stupid. I’m not bragging, but I had never accepted a man before. So, there was something of a fantasy about the beginning. I want to do it with the person I love, things like that. So, I got up, dressed myself up, and made myself as pretty as I could. Then, I waited for night to fall and secretly left my room and went to his room. I thought that if I gave him at least the beginning, I could take some comfort from the pain I would experience living like that in the future. So I made up my mind and went to the door of his dorm. And I put my hand on the doorknob. however… ”

When Jeong Ha-yeon recalled the memory of that time, her lips trembled as if in pain. Her hands were shaking, and her eyes were also shaking violently. She seemed on the verge of shedding tears if I made a fuss, but she seemed to be holding it back. She took a deep breath once or twice to calm herself down, then continued speaking in a tone that made her choke up.

“The moment I stood in front of the door, I heard a faint sound inside the room. is it so. The sound was none other than the moaning of a man and a woman. I placed my hand on the doorknob and held my trembling hand in silence for a moment. And I opened the door slightly, feeling as if I was possessed by something. And inside that room… As expected, he and a female user were lusting after each other’s bodies. And the moment I opened the door.”

At that moment, I had the illusion that a blue flame was burning in Jeong Ha-yeon’s eyes as she stopped talking. With the anger burning so clearly, I swallowed my saliva without realizing it and waited for her next words.

“I made eye contact with the female user who was lying down and receiving the man.”

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