I Quit the Hero’s Party Chapter 350

〈 Episode 350 〉 Me to myself (1)

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People have regrets.

Anyone can do that. Since the best is far from possible and a perfect ending cannot exist, people live with regrets.

I wish it had been like this.

I shouldn’t have done this there.

What if it were like this?

Everyone assumes a better future by making sentences that start with ‘maybe’. Even though I know it is meaningless.

perhaps.

Maybe, maybe, maybe.

Endless assumptions.

The best future born from home.

The more one thinks about something that is close to a delusion, the more broken one becomes. Being buried in the past. In the midst of growing regret, you find yourself ruminating over your mistakes over and over again. You probably don’t know that all that remains at the end is extreme emptiness.

Even though I knew, I lived like that.

I had to live like that.

Because I made such a big mistake.

Because I lost the opportunity to make up for that mistake.

Even so, I had to live.

Because I had to endure hell. Because many, many reasons made me live.

widely.

I lived with regrets.

I lived a hellish life.

widely.

There was always blood on the path I walked, and someone else’s life was always on my shoulders. It was heavy. It was difficult because it was heavy. It was hard, but I couldn’t stop walking.

widely.

So I walked and walked.

After walking and walking, I became a warrior. He became a madman that people shunned, and in the end, he became a god representing a world.

widely.

I became a god, but there was no one by my side.

It wasn’t just me that wasn’t there. It was nowhere. Because my world was completely burned down, reduced to ashes, and became a world where life could no longer exist.

Took.

Only then did I stop.

There was no way to go any further so I stopped. Since there was no future, I had to look back only at the past, and when I looked back at the past, I ended up laughing.

Hell was there.

2.

To me, Kyle failed.

Kyle, who failed, had to face death, but he was not even given the peace of death. Kyle became a disaster, and his wish upon a star was not fully realized.

I became a warrior just like Kyle wanted.

Contrary to his wishes, he did not become a perfect warrior.

I gained super regeneration like a warrior, but I was not given the star weapon. Kyle didn’t even get the star characteristics he originally had. There was just a lot of starlight in my body.

That star prevented me from dying.

Even if I wanted to die, I couldn’t.

Even if the skin was scratched or the eye was gouged, it quickly regenerated. At some point, I stopped feeling pain. In the emptiness, I was buried in the past.

I regretted and regretted.

I thought of Kyle who died in front of me.

I thought of myself making Kyle shake.

I thought about it and thought about it and regretted it.

I blamed myself, asking why I did that and why I had to do that to Kyle. Many people came to see me as I collapsed, but I could not stand up. Because my time stopped there.

but.

Just because my time has stopped doesn’t mean the world’s time has stopped either. The world goes by. It goes on as it pleases, leaving me alone.

Kyle Torben has been a disaster.

That guy couldn’t be forgotten by people.

People know Kyle is a warrior.

However, I did not know that Kyle had hurt the Demon King and that it ended in disaster. Because they didn’t know, in people’s eyes, Kyle was nothing more than a traitor.

『The strongest hero defected.』

『Humanity’s hope has become humanity’s despair.』

The Sword of Reverse Heaven, Kyle Torben.

That so-called human traitor.

As Kyle was originally known as mankind’s strongest sword, Kyle, who became a disaster, was extremely strong. When the sword was aimed at humanity, there was no one who could stop Kyle.

Many people died from Kyle.

“disaster.”

『Dirty, disgusting traitor.』

『The hero’s stain.』

『The worst hero.』

Many people criticized Kyle.

Countless people pointed at Kyle and criticized him for being a disaster. They felt afraid of Kyle, and the more they felt afraid, the more they crushed Kyle.

The fear grew bigger and bigger.

Although he was not allowed to invade the royal capital by contract, Kyle reigned as a disaster on many battlefields. Unlike other disasters, he moved proactively. Kyle has been seen on numerous battlefields.

Every time he swung his sword, countless humans were wiped out. There was no human who could block that sword even once.

Humanity retreated and retreated.

The front lines began to become meaningless.

The contract was shaken, and demonic beasts hid inside the royal capital. Master, who told me he was fine, did not return that night. He didn’t come back even after a few days. It was a few days later that I learned that my teacher had been brutally murdered by a demonic beast.

Master died.

Other than Raniel van Trias, there is no one who knew anyone named Raniel. That’s why Raniel had to disappear from the world. What remains after disappearing is Raniel Van Trias.

A wise man and a warrior.

A human being who has to stand in front of others.

Only then did I stand up. It was too late, but I had to stand up. I wanted revenge. I decided to fulfill my responsibilities. I killed the incoming demonic beast. The devil’s army was trampled and burned.

He went forward, burning everything in sight.

And then I faced Kyle Torben.

I wanted to kill him, thinking over and over that I had to kill him, that I had to subdue him. But at the last moment, I was shaken. I was so shaken that I lost to him.

“This way.”

“Isn’t your goal to kill Ash?”

Cardi became the bait to save me.

“It’s been a long time since I suffered this much.”

Cardi, who became the bait, lost an arm, an eye, and a leg. Still, Cardi returned to the royal road, supporting me.

“Come to your senses, Raniel.”

Cardi laughed.

“You can sacrifice your body at least once for your junior. “Are you conscious now?”

He said with a smile.

“Raniel, don’t make the same choice as me.”

“I feel sorry for you.”

“You know that too, right? must be killed no method. I thought you might be able to find it, but it seems like not anymore.”

There is no way to bring Kyle back.

It was nowhere.

There was only one way left for me.

“Kill me.”

“There is no other way.”

…I had to move on.

Losing and losing, I moved on.

There were superhumans by my side. But they didn’t follow me for long. Those who followed me died one by one. Their endings were all extremely miserable.

Kelhalm was the first to die.

Next was Draka.

Next was Kariot.

“I will take my time.”

“Well, I’m not good at things like this.”

The last one to die.

“I’ll go first, senior.”

It was Kalt.

After Kalt died, there was no one by my side. Still, I had to move on. I moved forward alone.

“There is no hope for humans.”

“Everyone is dead.”

“This was the only way to survive.”

It wasn’t just demonic beasts that blocked the path ahead. Many people were shaken in front of a shaken world, and they became apostates.

Among them were many familiar faces.

I killed the students I taught with my own hands.

I killed the knights I protected with my own hands.

I killed the refugees I had saved with my own hands.

killed and killed Because that was the only answer.

What I encountered while moving forward was Chloe, who had become the fifth disaster. Chloe, who had lost all of her colleagues and even Belnoir, stopped me. Chloe smiled as she pulled up Galahal’s starlight.

“why.”

“Why then?”

“Didn’t you come when I needed you most?”

That child needed someone to blame, and it was me that the broken child hated. I killed Chloe who was running towards me while holding the starlight of Galahal. He pulled out a star from Chloe’s body. He burned the body and reduced it to ashes.

I got focus.

Now I could kill Kyle.

We had to move efficiently.

The apostate who had taken out Kardi as bait was burned to death. The apostate called out Cardi’s name at the last moment, but I burned even his voice.

He faced the sword of death in a way he least wanted. He locked them in a canyon where he had built six magic towers and used magic for dozens of days. Every time he tried to escape from there, his terrain was reversed and he was trapped again.

I gnawed little by little.

I dealt with Ganicalt over dozens of days.

Only when his body crumbled and he lost his grip on his sword did I stand in front of Ganicalt. His heart burst open inside his broken ribs. Even at that moment, the sword of death struck back at me. It wasn’t me who stopped that counterattack.

Using Kuntel and Kalt, who had stolen the initiative from the apostate, I dealt with the dying Ganikalt. In the process, he lost both arms, both legs, and both eyes, but it was an injury from which he would recover anyway. In the end, I even defeated Ganikalt.

The ancient lich, Skeval.

Reflux, Chloe.

Gletus, the apostate.

The sword of death, Ganicalt.

Four of the five plagues were subdued.

There was only one thing left.

I had to give everything I had left to kill Kyle, who was a disaster. At the end, I killed Kyle. Burned the shade.

When I looked back after defeating all the disasters and the demon lord, the world had already become a sea of ​​fire. There was nothing left for me. There were only a handful of people who survived until the last moment.

Destel was there.

Destel, who provided crucial help in defeating Kyle, wrung out his voice through his dying body.

“How about becoming a god?”

Destel made a suggestion to me who had lost my purpose.

“Kyle said that.”

“I thought you were like a god.”

“So, why don’t you make that your goal? “I think you can do it.”

Destel laughed while muttering that.

“It’s funny that I survived all this way just to tell you this.”

“I go first. “Don’t follow me.”

Destel committed suicide.

I was the only remaining hero.

Becoming a god was simple. He killed the stars and burned the wyrms that stood in my way. When he became a god, the world was already colored gray.

Goddess of Ash.

At the end of the road, I became a god.

Looking back, life was hell.

“what’s this.”

I lived calmly.

I erased my emotions and moved efficiently.

I was trembling with fear and wanted to die right away, so I endured it by clawing at my body several times a day. What I faced at the end of that hell was emptiness.

It’s empty and there’s nothing.

I burst out laughing in front of the void.

Looking back on my hellish life, I regretted it. Where did it go wrong? Where did it start to break down? Why did I have to walk this path?

The answer was clear.

Since it was clear, I decided to go back.

I wanted to make hell nothing that never happened. I hoped that this path I had walked would disappear.

There is only one timeline in this world, so if you change the past, the future where you existed will never have existed. I really hoped that would happen. I went back to make my life, which had become meaningless, into nothing.

Because it’s broken.

Because I don’t want to live anymore.

Still, I don’t want to accept this ending.

It would have been a case of going back in time to choose the lesser evil rather than the worst.

When I returned, I saw it.

What I thought I had let go of and forgotten.

3.

“I saw it.”

I muttered when Cardi said that things seemed to have changed a little. My muttering voice was light. Like my past self, I spoke in a light voice.

“I thought my life was meaningless. I thought I was worthless because I failed. Because I couldn’t protect anything. But, by the way.”

I laughed.

“He showed me.”

“···what?”

“Possibility.”

The possibility of changing the future.

The possibility that the best ending is possible, rather than an ending that can be accepted only after thinking about it over and over again.

and.

“Because I returned to the past and this hellish life, he showed me the best possible ending.”

The possibilities that were possible because of my life.

Kyle showed it to me.

“I saw a path that I had to believe in.”

“···believe?”

“Yes, I will try to believe it.”

I laughed bitterly.

“It seems my life wasn’t necessarily worthless.”

Even if it fails, it has meaning.

It became meaningful. In the end, determining its meaning is what determines what you will do at the end of your life.

“···Really.”

I let out a short breath.

“He kept his promise until the end.”

watch me I will show you.

I will show you the possibility of change.

I will show you a future that will change because of you from the future. I will be the opportunity for you to stand up.

The guy kept everything he promised. It showed me potential until the very end. That effort cannot be ignored.

“therefore.”

I stopped in front of the door.

Cardi also stopped.

Before we knew it, we were inside the mansion. I looked to the side. There are familiar yet unfamiliar faces there.

“you···?”

Master looks at me with his eyes wide open.

I nodded slightly towards the teacher I had missed so much. I opened my mouth to say something, but I just remained silent.

All I have left is a handful of time.

There was no time to spend with Master.

It’s a pity, but I guess I’ll have to be satisfied with just seeing his face. I nodded, looked away from Master, and entered the door. I muttered as I entered.

“So, now it’s my turn to show you.”

The potential that Kyle showed me.

The possibility that was given to me.

This time it was my turn to show my past self.

Sigh.

When I open the door and enter, there I am, looking down with wide eyes. This is me 13 years ago. I looked at my past self and exhaled at myself.

“Nice to meet you, Raniel van Trias.”

I raised my head at my words.

I raised my head and looked at me, my eyes wide open, and I took a deep breath. I laughed at that reaction and continued.

“I am you from 13 years in the future.”

I thought about it.

This is the second time.

To raise someone who is broken is to raise them up.

“I came because I have something to tell you.”

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fantasy,