〈 Episode 263 〉 It’s not a blessing, it’s a curse (4)
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It is a curse, not a blessing.
That’s what Destel started saying, but it wasn’t a sentence that Destel himself came up with. Because it was a sentence someone whispered to Destel.
“It’s a curse that the stars fall. A terrible curse, not a blessing. “Don’t you really think so?”
Regardless of the existence of the speaker who said this sentence, Destel agrees with the meaning of the sentence itself.
Destel said.
“Of course I don’t hate the stars. I don’t even think about bringing down the stars like the Apostates or Kelhalm. “Before I consider right or wrong, I’m not a great person to set such a grand goal.”
I really thought so.
Destel continued speaking without acting or disguising his actions as usual. She felt that there was no need to act in front of a girl who dreamed of becoming a hero.
“Still.”
Destel looked at Chloe.
A young girl who was blessed by the stars and forced to live. De Stel smiled bitterly as she looked at the girl who might end up walking a similar path as her.
“I agree with this one thing: falling stars are a curse, not a blessing.”
“···A curse?”
“uh. curse. “A curse that determines one’s life as one pleases.”
Destel nodded.
“The moment you receive starlight, what you dreamed of before doesn’t mean anything. Just become a warrior. “A warrior who lives off of other people’s blood.”
Unlike yourself, who is nothing without stars, there are people who are dazzling even without stars. Such people are willing to sacrifice their lives for themselves.
We must live by receiving their blood.
Just because he was chosen by a star.
‘It’s a terrible curse.’
“You have to kill yourself and act like what others want you to be. This means that it must be perfect, good, and a symbol of hope. Because that’s what a hero should be.”
Chloe, who was listening to the story, asked a question.
“···Destel, are you like that too?”
“no? I don’t do that. You know. “What am I called?”
Destel shrugged his shoulders.
“I don’t do that anymore. “I’m tired.”
It was like that at first.
But now that time has passed, I am exhausted.
“I know I’m trash. Uncharacteristic of a warrior, he only takes the easy path and forces knights to make sacrifices. And they don’t even want to take responsibility.”
Don’t fight for your life.
They force others to make sacrifices and do not actually put their own lives on the scale.
‘I don’t want to take responsibility for the sacrifice, but I don’t have the courage to make self-sacrifice.’
He is just that person.
Destel knows himself well.
“By giving up honor, I am choosing the easy way. A path that is not challenging and does not degrade my body.”
Truly, a life befitting the moniker of servility (???).
Destel muttered as if mocking himself.
“It is right to split.”
Words that came out without context.
“The Gray Wizard is not someone like me. I know. “To that extent.”
It is an extension of the conversation that took place during the day.
Chloe listened to Destel’s words in silence.
“Ashen Wizard, Raniel Van Trias.”
A wizard who made a name for himself on the battlefield.
He is a man called a wise man, and there is no one who does not know his achievements. However, since he was in the same position as Destel, he also knows something.
“He is more responsible than anyone else, better than anyone else, and more of a warrior than anyone else. Not even a hero. I’ve never seen a guy like that before. He wondered if something like that was possible.”
It was truly shocking.
That was Destel’s first impression of Raniel.
“He has no obligations whatsoever. Even, he was born different from someone like me. “Unlike me, who is nothing without starlight, he has already achieved his position.”
The greatest magic tower in the royal capital, the Gray Magic Tower.
He is a monster who won the position of the next magic tower lord before he was even 20 years old.
“And yet he came to the battlefield.”
Raniel gave up that position and came to the battlefield.
No one forced him to do it.
“And, I fought by wasting my body. Even though there is no reason to do so. Even though there is no need for it.”
There is no obligation. There is no responsibility.
Nevertheless, Raniel took responsibility for everything.
“No one can criticize the Gray Wizard. That is correct. He could have retired a long time ago. “Because he had no obligations whatsoever.”
It is not a forced life.
It is a life that shines even brighter because it is a life that you choose yourself.
“I hate to admit it, but he’s a cool guy. That’s why they call him crazy. “There is no way a life like that would be possible without going crazy.”
“···is that so?”
“It’s like that. “I have a lot of personality issues, but… they’re minor, so I’ll ignore them.”
Chloe tilted her head.
Destel laughed as he saw that.
“This guy lives by correct opinion.”
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Do what needs to be done.
It has to be that way, so do it.
“How difficult is that? Living with correct opinions is the most difficult. “A life without compromise is the most difficult.”
There was a time when I longed for that kind of life.
There were times when Destel tried to imitate that life. But that was all in the past now.
“but.”
Destel looked at Chloe.
“Not everyone can be like Raniel.”
Chloe’s eyes lit up every time Raniel’s name came up or the story of Galahal came up. Having seen the longing in those eyes, Destel could not leave this girl alone.
The end of longing is terrible.
Destel knew that fact very well.
“The spirit breaks down quickly. The goal becomes corrupted. People have to compromise at some point. Even if you have an indomitable spirit that does not compromise…”
Destel knows.
Standing next to Raniel, the existence of a hero who dreamed of being like Raniel but was transformed.
“If you don’t have natural talent, it’s meaningless.”
Destel knows.
I burned my life dreaming of becoming a perfect warrior, but I am a warrior who will soon die without achieving anything.
“I don’t know what you dream of or what kind of being you want to be…”
Destel looked at Chloe.
Destel said as he looked at the girl who still had a chance because she had not yet chosen her life.
“To live in Tokyo alone, this place is like hell. Think carefully before making your choice.”
Destel let out a short breath.
“Whether you admire Raniel or live like Galahal. Or let go of everything and live like me. “In the end, the choice is yours.”
Chloe bowed her head slightly.
Although the eyes cannot be seen because they are obscured by the flowing hair, Destel guessed that the eyes were shaking.
“Since you have come to the battlefield, see a lot and learn a lot. “Think about it carefully and then decide.”
Unlike myself, who was a mess from the beginning.
“Because you still have time left.”
Because the girl in front of me had time left.
‘Some people will criticize me for instilling useless ideas and teaching unnecessary things…’
This was Destel’s own consideration.
Consideration and advice from a senior who belatedly realized that he was nothing more than an expendable product.
2.
Early in the morning, I took off the Aplia uniform I always wore and changed into the uniform of the knights. The feeling of wearing a uniform after a long time was unfamiliar.
‘I wore it often in the beginning.’
Later on, he only wore a robe, but I remember that in the early days, he wore the uniform of a knight. At that time, he tried to be cool in his own way.
“Look at this, Raniel.”
“I heard this is a warrior-only outfit. Gold border with white tone. Isn’t it cool? Specially designed shoulder armor will be added…”
When Kyle first received the warrior’s conquest.
At that time, the guy had a lot of strength in his shoulders, and he kept touching the hilt of the holy sword.
“I’m still an apprentice, but if I’m going to stand in front of others, I guess I’ll have to dress like this. How do you feel, does it suit you well?”
“It’s okay. “How about mine?”
“Hmm, you finally look like a knight.”
“yes?”
Kyle, those were the days when that bastard walked around with his eyes full of motivation, not the eyes of a rotten fish, and with his shoulders squared. It seemed like she remembered it because it was a fun time for her.
‘It’s all in the past now.’
What happened to that guy?
“Ugh.”
I sighed and pulled down my gloves.
Sigh.
As I opened the door, Chloe, who had already finished changing clothes, came into view, squatting in the hallway.
“Chloe.”
“Ah, Professor Rania.”
Chloe slowly raised her head and looked at me.
The pupils were sunken and the skin was somehow lifeless.
“···Did you not sleep well last night?”
“Well, um… I couldn’t sleep well.”
Chloe scratched her head.
It doesn’t look the same as usual. I looked at Chloe in silence, then opened my mouth.
“What’s going on?”
“Oh, nothing happened.”
Something happened.
I laughed bitterly at Chloe’s visibly embarrassed appearance. He bent his waist slightly so that I was at eye level with Chloe. Chloe slowly looked away.
“You look like you have a lot to worry about.”
“···little bit.”
“It doesn’t look like you have any intention of talking.”
Chloe pursed her lips.
It seemed like he was thinking something like, “This is the type of worry that you shouldn’t tell me about.”
“Ugh.”
Soybeans, I fed chestnuts to Chloe’s head.
“Shall we rest today?”
“···From the beginning?”
“You’re in this state for about a day. “Anyway, your will is the most important thing.”
Chloe shook her head.
“are you okay.”
And then he jumped up from his seat.
Chloe’s knightly uniform fluttered in the wind. She looked awkward, as if she was wearing clothes that didn’t fit her.
“Let’s go, Professor Rania.”
“Okay, well…”
I nodded and looked back.
Galahal was standing there no matter when he arrived. He was wearing the uniform issued to warriors and carrying a holy spear on his back, and he looked as natural as one body.
“It’s serious.”
“Because we are going into battle in earnest. Rania, don’t you have anything else to prepare?”
Before I knew it, the way they called me changed from ‘Professor Rania’ to ‘You, Rania.’ Although I felt a little uncomfortable with the tone of voice, I nodded.
“Do we need anything else?”
“A cane or something like that.”
“hey. “Did you see the gray wizard fighting with his staff?”
“I didn’t use it because I thought it was inconvenient. From what I remember, you just packed the cane that your friend and teacher gave you, but didn’t use it?”
“yes.”
Once you reach a certain level, the cane is just a nuisance. A cane is used to help draw circuits, but even if you get used to it, drawing with your fingers is much faster.
“So I don’t use it either.”
“Ah, I see…”
If that’s you, then that’s probably it.
Galahal looked down at me with those eyes. It was a look of resignation rarely seen in Galahal’s eyes.
“···Why do you look at me like that?”
“What am I saying?”
“No, your eyes look a little strange.”
“If you feel that way, isn’t there something prickly about you? “I am innocent.”
This bastard, just looking at the cancer…
“Hey, you can’t believe it…”
“Galahal, Destel is waiting for you.”
Just as I was about to say something, the driver who approached pointed us to the end of the hallway.
“let’s go.”
Galahal walked ahead with the same attitude as me.
I kept my mouth shut and glared at Galahal.
‘For some reason, his attitude toward me has become lighter, and this can’t be right…’
I stabbed Galahal in the back.
Galahal made a noise and looked back at me.
“You noticed.”
“What do you notice?”
“No, you know, brat.”
“So, what do you mean?”
Write it.
“Professor Rania, what’s going on?”
“···never mind. “Let’s go, Chloe.”
I think I noticed this just by looking at the cancer.
There was only heartache. I eventually sighed and walked after Galahal.
3.
Eastern 3rd Front, Haprion.
“I’m going to do what I always do. I am the general manager of Harpion. “You are all guests.”
The inside of the office with maps plastered all over it.
Destel, the owner of the place, greeted the guests with his chin resting. Those eyes were full of fatigue.
“I can roughly understand why you chose this place. “You probably want to compare Galahal and me.”
He said grumblingly.
“If you’re going to do that, then do it. I’ll proceed with the operation as usual, and treat you as extra-strength. “It’s up to you wherever you are and what you do.”
I won’t do anything annoying like pretending to work hard when a guest comes, or not using abandon language…
Destel let out a short breath as if hammering a nail into his head.
“The operation will be implemented in three days.”
He pointed to the map on the table.
“Berta Canyon annihilation battle.”
Raniel frowned after checking the location indicated in the place name. Because it is her name, it is impossible for her not to know her.
Berta Gorge.
It was the place where Raniel defeated the black dragon with Kyle.
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fantasy,
