EP.191 Each person’s stage (5)
『Run away.』
『Get out of here right now.』
Star’s voice rang in my head.
The star’s voice, heard for the first time in a few weeks, is sharp. Alarm bells continued to ring in Ayla’s ears. She slowly looked away, avoiding Rania’s blue eyes.
When you look around, all you see is darkness.
‘It’s dark.’
Aplia covered in thick fog.
A black barrier surrounding the sky.
Not a single bit of light comes in, so you can’t even clearly see what’s in front of you. A gloomy air hovered around. Ayla’s eyes trembled.
A crisis predicted by the stars.
All of Ayla’s senses sharpened. She perceives everything around her as dangerous. Snap, click, Ayla’s upper and lower teeth clashed again and again.
“Uh, it’s dangerous.”
The star screams.
Star’s scream is contagious to Ayla.
“The stars are dangerous…”
The princess who was confident in everything is no longer here.
The only thing here is a cowardly girl who has lived her whole life under a mask. The girl, in her fright, utters words that do not form her language.
I want to run away, right now.
I want to lean against the stars and hide, right now.
“So, run away immediately…”
But why?
“······.”
The blue eyes that are looking at you.
The cold blue eyes that continued in silence showed no signs of letting go.
2.
The stars were always close to me.
I was not chosen, blessed, or loved by the stars, but I knew them well. Well, I’ve met a lot of people like that.
I met a sword superman who did not trust the stars.
I faced a madman who hated the stars.
I was with a warrior blessed by the stars.
I had an adventure with a saint who believed in the stars.
and.
The first hero chosen by the stars.
Even the saint from the past who betrayed the stars.
I also encountered a wise man from the past who made a contract with the stars.
As I recall my meeting with them, I look ahead.
“Professor La-Nia.”
There is one girl here.
A girl is sitting down in front of me. The girl is looking at me with shaking eyes. There is a clear starlight in those eyes.
“···Star.”
Fourth princess, Ayla.
“The star made a prophecy…”
Stella, a child loved by the stars.
“I have to run away from here… like that···.”
A girl who lived by relying on the prophecy of the stars.
“I said it.”
A scared girl tells me.
I looked at her in silence.
‘I’ve seen it before.’
I have seen something like this child in someone else.
“Raniel, Byul, Byeol… Because you didn’t answer. Because the stars are silent, that means… I…”
A saint who could not do anything in front of the devil.
“The reason I couldn’t do anything at that time was because the stars were silent. Yes, because there are no stars…”
Even after running away from the devil, Sarah was unable to perform any miracles for a while. Having lost her confidence, she refused to stand in front of Shindo.
‘That’s right, because you would have known.’
The God he believed in.
You must have realized that the God you believed to be perfect is neither complete nor perfect.
“I couldn’t do anything.”
It wasn’t just Sarah.
“I was nothing. Yeah, I feel like I finally realized it. Raniel, unlike you, I was nothing. From the beginning, I was just a human being. “From the beginning.”
Kyle was broken right then and there.
“I have felt it ever since I faced the sword of death. I am helpless in front of them. I had to feel nothing but helplessness. “Then what is the meaning of this journey?”
Kyle was terrified and fell into a state of futility.
It wasn’t created in a day or two. It was just something that had accumulated and exploded, and it was a problem that would explode someday.
‘In the words of a human who relies on the stars for everything.’
I couldn’t prevent that end.
Unable to put the broken Kyle back in his place, I eventually had to turn my back on them.
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“···Professor, why?”
Now, as time has passed, I am facing a situation similar to that time.
“Say something…”
Before my eyes is a girl who lived by relying on the stars. For a girl, stars are everything in life. This child will think that the star’s words are the correct answer.
then.
‘What should I say?’
It’s easy to come up with some nice words to get over the present. It would have been nice to persuade him by pointing out the limitations of the star’s prophecy. It was also good to make people think that my words were the correct answer instead of the stars’ words.
But none of these are fundamental solutions.
Only then does the person you rely on change from the stars to yourself. I didn’t want that.
“Princess.”
Because it wasn’t.
“Look at me.”
I held Ayla’s shoulders tightly.
Her eyebrows furrowed. Even as she complained of her pain, I did not let go of her shoulder. I said, looking straight into the golden eyes.
“It means don’t try to see what you can’t see, but look at me. “What do you see with your eyes?”
“···Blue, eyes.”
“Yes, I am looking at the princess right now.”
Gold eyes shine blue.
“Did you say the stars prophesied?”
Ayla nodded.
“Run away from here…”
“If you want to do that, do it.”
I pointed to the barrier with my hand.
“If you want to leave, I will open it for you. It is not difficult to get a princess to leave right away. “If you want, I can do it.”
“······.”
Ayla was silent.
I was not silent.
“It’s not a threat. I don’t blame the princess. The princess has no responsibility whatsoever. “If you want to run away, you can do so.”
I saw Ayla.
“step.”
“You must choose for yourself, princess.”
I force her to make a choice.
“That was the prophecy of the star. Don’t use such words. “If you want to escape from here, it must be your own will.”
I let go of her shoulder.
I took a step back.
“···It’s not a prophecy, it’s my choice.”
“yes.”
“but···.”
“Princess.”
I laughed bitterly.
Numerous scenes and voices pass through my mind. These are things I have heard about, seen, and experienced.
“The stars are words.”
“Don’t trust the stars.”
“Because the stars will abandon you at the decisive moment.”
Kuntel, the sword superman, spoke.
Stars are not objects of unconditional trust.
“It is not an object of unconditional trust.”
“I hate the stars.”
“Stars are not perfect beings. On topics that are not perfect, he emphasizes that only he is right. It is nothing but coercion. “A star is only half a god.”
The madman, Kelhalm said.
Stars are not perfect beings.
“Because they are not perfect, the stars do not always give the right advice. They’re wrong too. “Sometimes we take the wrong path to avoid immediate danger.”
After saying that much.
I was silent for a moment. I have already told these words to someone. And he answered me like this:
“The stars are everything to me, Raniel.”
“He gave me strength and gave me a holy sword. “Everything about me originated from the stars.”
“······.”
“I realized in front of the Demon King that the stars were silent.”
“···The stars are words.”
“No longer able to use starlight or the holy sword, I am nothing more than a mere human being. A human who can’t do anything. “Mere humans, scattered here and there.”
I laughed bitterly.
Was it because it reminded me of the time when I had decisively split up with Kyle, or was it because I couldn’t tell him this at that time? Or is it both?
‘I don’t know, though.’
I just wanted to say this much.
“Stars don’t live your life for you.”
therefore.
“Choose for yourself.”
Even if.
“Even if it is the wrong way.”
3.
Ayla was silent.
She looked up at the woman standing before her in silence. Things that were invisible at first gradually became visible after I got used to the darkness.
‘···Cold sweat.’
Cold sweat flows along Rania’s collarbone. Red blood was visible through the gap between her clenched lips. The cold blue eyes periodically lose focus and then regain it again.
‘And yet he is standing with both feet on the ground.’
Looking at her, Ayla opened her mouth.
“Did I tell you to choose?”
Ayla asks.
“yes.”
Rania answers.
“Living life is about making your own choices and taking responsibility for your choices.”
She burst out laughing.
“The stars don’t live for you, right?”
“Did that star live for you?”
In that voice, Ayla overhears the past.
It was a word similar to a sentence that a young man with gray hair had thrown out while turning the pages of a book in the library.
“Advice is just advice.”
“It’s no different if you call it a prophecy.”
“Please just use this as a reference. “The person who has to choose at the critical moment is ultimately himself.”
Ayla looks at the person in front of her.
Gray hair and blue eyes. In her, Ayla recalls her own benefactor. So far, the star has continued to deny Ayla’s speculation.
‘but.’
Ayla faces reality squarely.
The stars scream in Ayla’s ears.
『Run away.』
『If you want to live, run away immediately.』
The star saved his life several times.
If there were no stars, he would have died long ago. Therefore, for Ayla, the stars were everything.
‘A life of believing in the stars.’
I thought I had taken off my mask all this time.
I thought I could see the world as it is and live confidently. But that was a mistake. Ayla only realizes this now.
The star is not unmasked.
In fact, it became a thicker mask.
It was nothing more than hiding his cowardice and living a false life in the confidence that he could foresee all dangers. Now that she realized that fact through loss, Ayla let out a short breath.
Close your eyes, then open them again.
She extinguished her star of her own will. No longer does her starlight whisper something in Ayla’s ear. She doesn’t even give a warning. In her silence, Ayla feels afraid.
What we face in fear is reality.
Ayla does not see the world once filtered by the stars. I look at her world solely through her own eyes. It was not Stella who opened her eyes like that, but just a timid girl.
‘I have no confidence, I’m just scared.’
Just a human.
The girl has always chosen the easy path, relying on the stars.
I have been running away, hiding, and turning away.
The girl who had been hiding behind a mask takes off the mask and slowly stands up. Plants her own feet on the ground and stands up.
chin.
Stand on the ground with your own strength.
It doesn’t look as confident as always. My legs are shaking and my eyes are still shaking.
gulp.
Dry needles pass through the neck and neck. Cold sweat ran down her spine. But I don’t close my eyes. Ayla looks straight ahead of her.
“······.”
There is a person looking at him.
Blue eyes are looking at you.
A smile spreads across her lips. Ayla takes her steps towards her, a few steps away from her own. That was Ayla’s first step in her life.
like that.
The girl faces the world for the first time.
See the world with your own complete perspective.
afraid. There are only scary things. Facing the world head on, she pronounced each syllable with strength.
“Is there anything I can help you with?”
Choose with your own will.
“Ashen wizard, Raniel.”
Make judgments based on your own thoughts.
“···aha.”
A smile spread across Raniel’s lips.
She starts explaining with a smile. After hearing the explanation, Ayla nods her head. Clearly, this was something only she could do.
“I’ll try.”
“I’ll leave it to you.”
Ayla speaks, and Raniel answers.
“I will do what I can.”
Raniel headed towards the gaping gap,
“For the princess, please do what you can.”
Ayla walks towards the altar.
So they head to their respective stages.
To do something only you can do.
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