Side story Park Sirin (4)
The sunlight is stinging.
My whole body complained of numb pain and it throbbed as if the blood in my body had dried up.
“it hurts······.”
At least the soft touch made him realize that he was on a bed.
“brother?”
And in front of it, there is Corinne, fiddling with her smartphone while looking at the view of the beach.
“······.”
Well, over there──”
“Shut up. I’m thinking.”
“Yes······.”
Sirin became cautious as she carefully observed Corin’s thoughts.
‘I… lost.’
Sun Klau Solas.
In the face of that vast power, he was unable to overcome it.
In the previous episode, she was not chosen by Klau Solas. Among the party members, Corin was the only one that Klau Solas recognized.
However, as he was only an extra, he did not have the magic power to operate Klau Solas.
But now, he was actually handling the Ohad Breath… no, more than that, he was handling the sun.
‘No, that wasn’t the problem.’
The sun is a fake on a large scale. The real thing is the tip of the spear that breaks through the gap in the seal that encloses even the sea and destroys all irrational magic.
Tates Balthazar.
Likewise, the talent he possesses is displayed regardless of the size of his power.
‘Now… I can’t win again.’
Shirin realized this again.
When did I become this strong?
“hey.”
“Huh? Uh, oppa…”
“after···.”
A small sigh. But to Shirin, it sounded as loud as thunder.
Every move he makes takes my breath away and makes my heart pound.
From the beginning to this moment, he has had such a huge presence in Shirin’s life.
“As always, you’re a bitch.”
“Ugh…”
I’m getting tired of the words of rebuke. I was so scared that it was difficult to bear it.
In the end, I cried.
Even though I am wallowing in regret and self-loathing, seeing people who do not affirm me makes me want to beg desperately.
However, if she thought that such squishiness would tire Corin, she could only bite her lip and avert her gaze.
But the pain, the miserable feeling, is conveyed so desperately.
“I’m sorry… I was wrong…”
I thought it was an NPC. It was because of efficiency. If you’re trying to save the world, isn’t that neat?
When I was letting off steam alone, none of the excuses I made to myself came to mind.
In the end, all she can spit out is regret and regret…
“I was wrong… I was wrong… I mean, I mean…”
Please forgive.
That pitiful beg could not leave his mouth.
Wouldn’t you be disappointed?
Wouldn’t they laugh and throw me away?
Wouldn’t it actually have the opposite effect?
I can’t bear to shamelessly change my attitude.
When that happens, I am afraid that the other person will be disappointed and laugh at me.
I know very well that I am a selfish bitch.
Isn’t it impossible from the beginning for such a person to be accepted by such a kind person?
“Ugh… Ugh… Ugh…”
I just swallowed what I wanted to say, gritted my teeth, and shed tears.
I can’t hope for forgiveness or understanding.
It is impossible to expect oil to mix with water.
I cried and cried again.
I don’t have anything to say.
Because I can’t say what I want to say.
Corinne looked at Shirin in silence as she cried and cried for hours.
“Hayeon.”
Suddenly, the tears stop.
Instead, it was my heart that was beating.
Yes, there was more to beg for than forgiveness.
She crawled in front of Corinne, knelt down, and grabbed him by the leg of his pants.
“Ha, Hayeon… our daughter… did nothing wrong. So… so please… don’t take anything away from Hayeon…”
The pouring tears soak the floor.
A second warmth in her cold and cold life.
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I can never give up on the warmth that helped me connect my failed love and my failed life.
Since she couldn’t protect it with force or a cause, all she could do was beg.
“······.”
Corinne felt mixed feelings as she saw Shirin praying with tears in her eyes.
The great wizard who was so cruel and cold-hearted, and whose self-esteem and pride were stronger than anything else in the world.
Begging for mercy so servilely and miserably.
It is not because of one’s own life or gain, but pure motherly love. Honestly, the love I had for my child was surprising.
How could such a cruel and proud person become so servile?
As a player,
As an archmage,
As a demon,
As the President.
It was a unique moment when she, who had mastered the greatest power and status a human could possess, became the human Park Sirin.
Love and maternal affection are truly contradictory and human.
3 years after returning. The hatred and anger I had been harboring all this time cools down.
“······You too are a child of man.”
I thought it was a monster that didn’t even look like a human.
I thought the love she confessed to me was like crocodile tears.
But she was also a person, a person with feelings, someone who could become so miserable and servile, and someone who could protect something.
“Let me ask you just one question.”
Shirin’s face, looking up at those words, was truly dirty and miserable. Corinne asked as she wiped her face.
“Why do you like me?”
I doubt it.
Why does such a cold and selfish woman crave and obsess over me so much?
“My brother… is a different person from me.”
With her head down, she makes an earnest confession. She laments a love that can never be concluded.
He conveyed his sincerity that cannot be lied to.
“He’s kind and considerate…like a pushover…”
“······.”
An innate goodness that he could never imitate.
The goodness of giving a hand willingly when someone is in trouble and giving without calculating the profit or loss.
“I thought it was cool. Even though they laughed at me and said I was stupid, I couldn’t be like that.”
Admiring someone different from yourself.
They hate people who are similar to themselves.
Even though they ridicule him for being foolish and brazen, he admires them, and even though he thinks they are cool and refreshing, he hates them.
Park Sirin is a villain.
You are willing to sacrifice others for gain and success.
In addition, they make appropriate excuses, such as NPCs or strangers, and even relieve the guilt of evil deeds.
What’s wrong with not choosing any means to achieve your goal?
In order to succeed, you have to be cool-headed.
It is better to win ugly than to lose beautifully.
Such an idea that has already become natural.
A rebuttal appeared from the front.
“You’re a student at a prestigious university, so why are you working as a trainer?”
“The coach takes money from the president of the association and manipulates matches. “I crashed in and got kicked out because I was disgusted.”
You idiot. mutual aid.
Even though I laugh at it like that, I become aware of it.
“You said you were a candidate for the national team and now you work as a gym trainer. Do you have any regrets?”
“You kept your convictions. “I think it’s much more valuable.”
“The national team slipped? “If I hadn’t hit it back then, I would have regretted it now.”
“My life is not over yet. You can start again at any time. Who says national team is more valuable? “I decide my value.”
Conviction. Justice. The right thing to do.
A two-headed bastard. What is that?
The bottom will soon be revealed. A guy who just talks nice and pretends to be nice. But──
“Why do I need a reason to save you?”
That belief,
That consideration,
That definition.
When Park Sirin found out that this was being done willingly to me as well, she realized.
“It was like a hero.”
Unlike myself, who eats alone,
Watching him share it with everyone.
Unlike yourself, who sacrifices others for profit,
Watching him sacrifice himself to save.
Dedication, sacrifice, and justice.
Even though I think it’s a childish concept.
I actually admired someone who maintained that attitude in life.
I longed for it.
I also wanted to take care of my country.
“I’ve been sincerely since the day you first saved me.”
love you.
This is my sincerity without any lies.
Probably the first time.
It was a sincere confession.
* * * *
When I left the villa, Erin was playing with her child.
“ah···.”
Black hair that resembles her mother’s and cold eyes. But her ruby eyes and wild features resemble me.
“Ugh…”
Hayeon is hiding behind Erin’s back and glaring at me. Well, from her child’s point of view, her fan would have been seen as a scoundrel for spoiling his mother.
“Bad man…”
I see Hayeon passing me with a bitter smile.
“Are you the baby’s father…?”
“Hehe, Corinne, she’s a confident and kind girl just like you.”
I sat down on the bench next to Erin, who was laughing.
“Did you decide to accept it?”
“Because she is the mother of my children.”
“Yeah, I thought so.”
“Why?”
Erin had an expression as if she was asking the obvious.
“You cannot be so harsh as to separate a child from its parents.”
“······I could do it. I even tried to do it.”
“Then why did you decide to accept it?”
“······.”
I couldn’t speak for a while. I feel like I’m caught in a contradiction of self-contradiction.
“If you consider the sins of the previous episode… Actually, Miriam is the same.”
She also crossed the line of what I can tolerate.
He killed countless people and ultimately ruined himself.
There was only a difference in scale from Park Sirin.
But I forgave Miriam and decided to make her my wife.
“If there is a difference between Miram and Park Sirin… there are probably two things… The first is the feeling of betrayal.”
“Feeling betrayed?”
“No matter what, Park Si-hoo from the previous episode was a precious person to me.”
A person from my hometown who I met while living abroad, feeling embarrassed and afraid.
The fact that I, who ended up as just an extra, was able to play a supporting role even though I was not the main character of the story was entirely due to Park Si-hoo’s help.
“We fought together, protected each other with our lives… and tried to save the world.”
So I felt even more betrayed.
Park Si-hoo, who was doing something like that in a place I didn’t know, and Park Si-hoo, who tried to force me to take it without asking my will.
I felt terrible, hated, and betrayed.
“And most of all… when he went on a rampage, I was powerless to stop it.”
What if he goes crazy again? Can I protect my precious people from this guy?
The reason he fought with Park Sirin and threatened to take her child away was to confirm that.
Now I am overwhelming Park Si-rin and Park Si-hoo from the previous episode, and she is submitting to me to the point of despair and longing for love.
If I can control it… if I can turn it in the right direction…
“I thought I could think about it since I’m a mother.”
If I hadn’t been able to overwhelm Shirin, or at least lost in strength, I would never have accepted her.
“Well, that’s how I am. What matters now is other people.”
“Other people?”
“Let’s start with Erin.”
Erin looks blankly at my words. She immediately nodded her head as if she understood.
“I’m fine.”
I pressed my forehead against Erin, who willingly accepted her.
“I’m always grateful and sorry.”
“It’s okay. You don’t have to feel sorry for me.”
The person who is my benefactor and teacher for the rest of my life.
She is like a tree that always gives generously to me. but······.
“······What about other people?”
“”······.””
This decision wasn’t just mine and hers.
“······decomposition.”
Marie said, pouting.
“Our first child with Corin is our Deokgu. Our eldest son is our Deokgu.”
-Kung!
“of course.”
“Then that’s enough.
As if that was enough, Marie turned her head and said yes.
“Arisha and you?”
Alisha was grinning from earlier, wondering what was so good about it. Anyone can tell that those kind eyes are on Hayeon.
“Mr. Corrin, I am an illegitimate child.”
“No, why is that…”
“Are you planning to make Hayeon an illegitimate child?”
“······You really leave me speechless.”
Arisha smiled as she handed a honey bomb candy to Hayeon, who was wary of strangers.
“Children should be happy. They should receive plenty of love from their parents.”
“······thanks.”
I turned my gaze to Hwaran. No, it looks like blue eyes.
“They say they don’t care about anger. Even if one more person comes now.”
Ran grinned and stared at Corrin with a sinister smile.
“Well, if you look at the timing, you met the stork a long time before us, right?”
“Well, I’m sorry.”
“What can I do, brother? It’s already happened.”
Ran came up to me and whispered in my ear.
“I want to have a baby, too.”
“Keuhum…!”
Ran is smiling brightly.
“Wouldn’t it be okay after you graduate?”
“Well, let’s make a plan little by little.”
I was thankful that everyone didn’t object. I’ll have to get permission from Estelle, Miriam, and Runia, too.
“I was in charge of the first approval.”
Shirin looks behind the door at my words and carefully comes out. She looked at me and her wives with an extremely depressed posture.
“You said you were Miss Park Sirin? There’s one important thing, right?”
“Huh? Well, what is that…”
“How many children are you planning on having? Can you have about 11 more?”
“?????”
Shirin is confused as if she was asked a strange question. Arisha… you were the first one he killed…
“Miss Park Sirin.”
“Oh, Marie… senior.”
“Hmm? Oh, I said it was a kite from my past life. I have one question to ask.”
Since the story of the previous episode was already discussed, Marie smoothly passed over Shirin’s words.
“Are you good at eating potatoes? Our Locke family is not allowed to eat potatoes.”
“Yes? Uh, uh… Well, eat well.”
“Okay then! Does Hayeon eat potatoes well?”
After Marie, it was Ran. In the previous episode, Hwa-ran was sublimated to Hu and Ran’s personality disappeared.
This is probably Shirin’s first time seeing Ran.
“I have something to ask.”
“Uh, um… uh…”
Ran looked around at her surroundings and whispered in a voice so low that I could barely hear it.
“When a baby is born… does the stork really not come?”
“???”
In the end, she received recognition and consideration from the three people, but for some reason, she lowered her head in a gloomy mood.
“I am······.”
“Why? I think you’re getting offended too easily, even though you’re like an enemy when you think about it.”
“······.”
Sirin did not deny what I said.
I just whimper and desperately try to stop my emotions from spilling out.
“What should I do? I…”
In the end, he puts his hand on Shirin’s bowed head, hiding the tears that are pouring down.
“Try.”
Things I’ve done wrong so far. The sins committed cannot be made up for.
Things that have already been done cannot be done as if they never happened. At least I don’t know how to make up for it.
But as a husband. As a father.
“We’ll find it together.”
We will search for it together for the rest of our lives.
fantasy,
