How to Survive as a Player Chapter 120

#120

The brilliant dawn I saw then. The end of her dream, as Nell remembers, was calm, eternal, and lonely.

Living by this dream was all Nell could do. Even though it was a dream that was only a vain hope, Nell could not give it up. He groped endlessly and remembered persistently.

A dream that becomes reality when it becomes real. That was the dream of every grand duke. A vain dream that makes you wait for a savior. It came every night, and every night it took everything in vain.

Nevertheless, all the grand dukes waited for the master of their dreams. And Ruhak had not yet escaped from ‘Nel’s dream.

As he blinked, a white neck full of red marks appeared in Ruhak’s field of vision. The congestion engraved on the delicate skin conveyed the heat. There was a body breathing slowly in his arms.

Ruhak carefully reached out and traced his dry back. The newly born soft wings were immediately touched by his hand. It was a delicate feather that had not yet fully grown.

Ruhak spread out and tidied up the sensitive fluttering wing feathers so as not to cause any pain, glanced at the unlit fireplace, and spread his wings to wrap around the shaking body.

Meanwhile, the heated, straight neck was shriveled. Ruhak buried his lips into the engorged nape of her neck again.

It was the only thing Ruhak wanted. To obtain that one thing, Ruhak risked everything and walked a long path. He sleeps to meet him.

I hope it’s you.

I closed my eyes, and the world became quiet. Only the sound of deep breathing was his comfort.

***

It seemed like I had been sleeping and waking up all night and feeling anxious, but when I opened my eyes, the room was filled with long sunlight along with the dawn air. Everything was quiet.

The air was quite cold, but all the firewood had been burned and now only black charcoal was left. Still, my body was warm. As I looked down, I saw black wings covering the body. It was a wing that looked solid because its neat texture was so clear.

As I moved my body, something passed behind my neck. No, it was more accurate to say that it fell apart. It was like that when I saw the empty, empty nape of my neck.

“Ruhak… ?”

As soon as I could turn my head, a hand grabbed my waist and lifted me up. As soon as he woke up, Sehyun met deep eyes. The eyes were definitely different from yesterday, when my memories were blurry. Calm and stable.

“Where does it hurt?”

It was a vivid voice, as if he hadn’t slept at all. Sehyun lowered her gaze and looked at her body wrapped in black wings. A mess came into view. The clothes that were barely put together were in tatters and the blood was grotesque.

But the body itself was fine. I couldn’t feel anything right now, not the pain that felt like it was going to take my breath away, or the tingling sensation that felt like something was blocked. I could breathe easier and my body became energized.

As I lightly brushed my wings, the soreness that had been building up all night went away and I felt refreshed. It was a familiarity that I had forgotten.

“I’m fine… . are you okay.”

As the black wings that conveyed heat disappeared, a chill passed through my shoulders. There were cozy wings before her eyes. The white and weak wings were the same wings that Sehyeon always saw. Same shape, same size. Nothing has changed.

You’re back.

Before I realized it, my legs were stretched out of the bed. Even though Ruhak knew it, he didn’t bother to catch it.

The tip of my foot, which extended from the bed, was facing a tightly closed wooden door. In front of the middle door, which I rushed to open, there was Asha, squatting and dozing off.

Startled by the sound of the door, Asha lay face down in a half-asleep state and fumbled with the floor with her hands. When she saw her pure white bare feet, she raised her head and looked up at Sehyeon. Soon, straight wings were engraved in Asha’s black eyes.

Asha’s eyes lit up in an instant. Se-hyeon patted the head of Asha, who was shedding tears, forgetting about her daze, then brushed past him and made his way to the handle of the outside door.

The first thing I felt was cold. The door that opened with a harsh sound of hinges was filled with snow. When the snow powder brought in with the wind brushed the top of her feet, Sehyun stood with her eyes covered.

In places where snow was pouring down, there were vassals sitting there holding back tears. No, Lee Jae-young and Baek Do-hyun, for some reason, also had a fan.

The figures were looking at the ground, barely able to escape the cold with a tent blocking the snow and a bonfire built around them, and it was all dark, wondering what they were thinking.

However, when Sehyun stood on the snow, all the sunken gazes turned upward. One by one, the eyes filled with shadow began to express passionate emotions.

It was a street with only a few stairs. It was a street where you could clearly see the images of heroes gritting their teeth and trying not to shed tears.

The sight of them holding back tears until their eyes turned red was so pitiful that it made me choke up. Sehyun finally calmed down her trembling and stretched out her hand to the heroes who were waiting for her.

“It’s okay, come here…” .”

It was like seeing tears rolling down my cheeks. However, before she could find traces of tears, Sehyeon was tightly hugged by her frighteningly crushing arms. Three people, no. Two people were not enough, but twelve retainers were surrounding Sehyeon and coming face to face with him.

But why was it so scary that I didn’t even touch its wings with a finger? Sehyun, who was wrapping her arms tightly around his waist, spread his wings wide and warmly surrounded the heroes’ bodies.

Perhaps it was when the soft snow fell on the bridge of the nose, but at some point, the heroes’ sobs could be heard. Hearing the sad sound, Sehyeon comforted the heroes like comforting a child.

“are you okay… don’t cry. I’m fine. are you okay… .”

I could see Jaeyoung Lee in the distance, sobbing and shedding tears. Next to him, Baek Do-hyeon, who was making a sad expression, and Fan, who was looking at him as if he had lost his mind for a moment, were also seen.

When Sehyeon caught sight of them, he could finally feel the bitter cold creeping up his toes.

“It’s cold. Shall we go in now? Didn’t everyone eat? “Let’s go in and eat together.”

I heard the footsteps of two people behind me. One of them must be Ruhak. Sehyeon looked up at the sky, frozen in place.

It was a completely different place from Behia. All I could see was a landscape full of snowy mountains, and it was a cold, small village with endless snow falling on every roof and icicles growing thick.

Suddenly, I wondered how cold it must have been. I must have waited here for three full days, and I thought it would have been a big deal if I had used the elixir.

The cold creeping up my toes came to an end a moment later when someone picked up Sehyun and started walking. With that step, everyone who had been shivering outside all day was finally able to set foot in a warm place.

Of course, Sehyun decided to take a shower first. While Sehyeon washed up, everyone warmed their frozen bodies by the fireplace. This was the reason why Sehyeon asked him to sit in front of the fireplace and not move. The heroes, who were as inflexible as nails, did not even move their bodies and sat basking in the fire until their faces got cooked.

And only when Sehyun appeared wearing thick clothes did the heroes stand up as if they had been waiting. Of course, the space in front of the fireplace belonged to Sehyun.

“Mr. Kwak Jeong-han… “You didn’t come?”

Sehyeon shook off his wings and asked Ruhak gently. There was a subtle silence for a moment. But soon a low voice came out like a sigh.

“He will be watching the king of the Earthen Empire.”

It meant that it was on an airship. Sehyeon’s eyes closed heavily.

“later… “I’ll go see you.”

If it were Kwak Jeong-han’s personality, he would have blamed himself by cutting himself off. It was clear that he endured the harsh stares without saying a word. I might have talked about my mistakes more than explaining the situation.

When I thought about it, I felt confused.

“… It’s my fault. Even though the silver blue was dried, it went in… I sent Kwak Jeong-han on purpose because I thought he might be in danger. So don’t punish me. “You know he’s probably blaming himself.”

Strictly speaking, this incident was largely Sehyeon’s fault. He couldn’t put the blame on Kwak Jeong-han.

“In that situation, a vassal is someone who should be able to protect even at the cost of his or her life.”

“There’s no way you can immediately respond to a situation you haven’t experienced. Mr. Kwak Jeong-han was not trained in that way. And don’t generalize situations where sacrifice is forced.”

Sehyeon looked up coldly at Ruhak. Ruhak was always like this whenever Sehyeon defended the mistakes or mistakes of his vassals.

In the process, Sehyun never won. It always ended with seeing the backs of the retainers being called to Ruhak’s office as they were being dragged to the slaughterhouse.

But today was different from usual. As soon as Ruhak, who had been making deep eye contact, closed his eyes, the conversation was cut off. He didn’t even look worried. The only sound was the crackling sound of burning wood.

However, after a while, Ruhak took a step back and spoke.

“It was something I neglected from the beginning with the intention of leaving it to you. “You brought him here, so it would be your duty to take charge of him.”

Ruhak’s punishment was silence and neglect. For Kwak Jeong-han, it would have been a heavier punishment than any other punishment.

Sehyeon’s gaze fell to the ground. The wings had already dried and the dampness had disappeared. The newly grown wings were still sensitive to external stimuli, but they were gradually improving.

Just like their relationship with each other.

“… “I’ll take care of it.”

Ruhak said nothing more. It was a word of permission.