Episode 224. The past that cannot be discarded, the future that cannot be grasped (4)
“Would you like a drink?”
“The miasma is still running through you.”
“Wouldn’t you like to drink?”
“… … Well, I’ll take a drink anyway.”
Li Cheon-sang filled the cup of Xi Liang.
The fragrant fragrance is impressive. She was the Shenju of Six Heaven, whom Xi Liang liked.
Xu Liang glanced at Li Chun.
“Can I just drink this?”
“This is the drink I dipped. There is no reason not to drink it.”
“It is, but it is. If you pick it up every time we meet, it will run out soon.”
“Two hundred and thirty dong.”
“yes?”
Lee Cheon-sang, who emptied his glass, spoke calmly.
“There are still two hundred and thirty dong left. And I plan to soak again in the future.”
“… … .”
“There can be no shortage of them.”
“Give me a few dongs.”
“Take it with you when you go.”
Isn’t that giving permission too easily?
Xu Liang took a deep breath and took a drink. Perhaps because he was disturbed, the six-cheonshimju, which used to be fragrant, seemed particularly bitter today.
A strange silence passed.
Even after drinking a glass of alcohol, the two did not speak. We just refilled each other’s cups and drank them over and over again.
That’s how the ego time passed.
“Master. It is a total army.”
“Come in.”
Kugoong!
The door opened and Ho Yo-seong came in.
I feel it every time, but I want to make the door bigger even if it is sponsored by Gyojujeon. It wouldn’t be easy to hear that kind of roar every time the door is opened.
Ho Yo-seong, who had come to the pavilion, knelt down.
“Invincible Protestantism, Heavenly Demon Buddha. General Commander Ho Yo-seong sees you.”
“What is it?”
“Everything you ordered the other day has been completed.”
“is it.”
Lee Cheon-sang nodded.
“It was hard. I will call you every day, so go back and rest.”
“yes.”
Ho Yoseong woke up and glanced at Seo Liang.
Xi Liang was not even looking at Ho Yao-seong. He’s just messing around with his glass.
Ho Yo-seong smiled.
“Can I just say a word and leave, sir?”
“I will.”
“Three Gongja fools.”
Xu Liang looked at Ho Yao-sheng and opened his mouth wide.
Ho Yo-seong ran to the door in a hurry. He ran without even looking back, and even the urgency came out of it.
Kugoong!
Silence fell again as the door closed.
Xi Liang opened his mouth like a carp, as if he was absurd.
“… … What is that man?”
It seems like a joke, but why doesn’t it feel like a joke?
“Take it.”
“yes? Ah, yes.”
Yi Chun-sang said to Seo-ryang, who was drinking, as if tossing it.
“I got them all.”
“yes?”
“The ones who made you suffer.”
“… … ?!”
“I mobilized the Heavenly Demon Army. Unlike the previous treason incident, it moved quietly. They said there were twelve in total. It is said that he was imprisoned innocently.”
The old man’s face hardened.
“Did you clean up after me?”
“It is precisely for the main school. It hasn’t been long since the treason broke out, so it’s difficult for such impure elements to rampage.”
“It’s an impure molecule… … .”
That’s right. At least for Lee Cheon-sang.
But you can’t just call yourself an impure molecule. Because I understand their behavior.
“You knew everything.”
“Yes.”
“why… … .”
Seo Liang swallowed his words behind his back.
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Lee Cheon-sang, who emptied his glass, said.
“Why didn’t you solve it beforehand?”
“… … All right.”
The answer that will come back anyway is obvious. It will be said that it is your job and that you should have behaved well.
And that means… … That’s really right. He didn’t do it, but he had to do it.
But unexpectedly, Li Chun-sang’s answer was different from what Xu Liang expected.
“okay. That was my mistake.”
mistake.
It wasn’t a word that came out of Lee Cheon-sang’s mouth. It was a shock enough to blow away the complicated state of mind.
Looking at the disciple who looked at him with surprised eyes, Lee Cheon-sang calmly continued.
“I couldn’t let it go. It shouldn’t have been that way even for the sake of the main school.”
“… … .”
“I have been very impressed with watching you solve the problems you are facing. I knew you would show it like that this time too.”
“… … Did you?”
“It was. And I recently realized that it was my mistake. Do you know why?”
“I do not know.”
“You are a sharp enough knife. A sharp knife should be kept in a scabbard, and it would be foolish to go to the whetstone again just in case. Not only is it a waste of time, but it can also wear out the knife.”
“… … .”
“So that’s why I made a mistake.”
Seo Liang laughed bitterly.
“The teacher made no mistake at all. Because this is something I should have dealt with. No, it’s something you shouldn’t have done in the first place.”
“But it has already been done.”
“… … .”
“I don’t think it makes much sense for you to look back on your mistakes as a leader and a teacher.”
It’s a really brutal word.
If you make a mistake, you should look back and think about it, and you should not do that in the future. It is natural.
However, the natural thing, Lee Cheon-sang, says that it is meaningless.
Why?
“The reason is that you are the one who made the mistake.”
“… … What are you talking about?”
“You are completely different from the people I have seen so many times. You’re not very good at looking back and making mistakes. He is a guy who specializes in seeing the future and moving forward.”
“… … .”
“If you already feel sorry for them enough, that is it. It’s also not right to fall into it and ruin your life. You’re not even that kind of guy in the first place. But why do you look so ugly?”
Xi Liang’s eyes were bloodshot.
“I don’t remember the past.”
I did not say that I was not me at that time with all my strength.
“But if I did something, I must take responsibility.”
“How are you going to take responsibility? Are you willing to take responsibility for your death?”
“… … .”
“You will never die for them. I’m not the kind of person who would commit suicide. In addition, you will not suffer for the rest of your life. You are not that kind of guy.”
“… … .”
“You, who will neither die nor suffer, are struggling like this right now. By any chance, did you want to pretend to be in pain to honor those who are not in this world?”
It’s like cutting out the heart with a knife.
Lee Cheon-sang’s words, his words that clearly reveal the results, were terribly realistic and sharp enough to be unbearable.
“You mourn and sympathize with them, but you do not consider yourself the perpetrator. Because it’s something you don’t remember. Am I wrong?”
“… … .”
“Do you really want to give them a ray of comfort? Then die right here and now. Let the main school know about your heroic death, and make the demons who cursed you feel ashamed.”
Xi Liang’s cheeks trembled.
Lee Cheon-sang, who was staring at Seo-ryang, filled his glass.
“Stop ignorant sympathy and false confusion that doesn’t contain any sincerity. Rather, it is truly the way for them.”
“How does the headmaster know that? Are you truly a god?”
It’s a dangerous statement.
Li Cheon-sang answered calmly, and upon hearing his answer, Xu Liang had no choice but to keep his mouth shut.
“Because I’ve experienced it too many times to count.”
Yes.
In the past, when he went on a rampage to catch the eldest son of a demonic sword family.
When asked why he didn’t give it to Mine who died unfairly, Lee Cheon-sang answered like this.
– The demon who died unjustly prayed for me until the moment he died. Do you think he really prayed to me for something?
– He was just for me. All he wanted was the well-being of the one god he believed in and followed. There was no other intention.
– Loyalty and faith that expects a reward are unjust.
What is the difference between Lee Cheon-sang at that time and Seo-ryang now?
Not like that. This is essentially the same problem.
Ma-in, who died unjustly, prayed for Lee Cheon-sang. No one knows whether the demon really hated the two heavens for not giving it to him or not.
But Lee Cheon-sang did not step forward. He set his own standards and was aware of his place. He thought that it was truly for the devil himself to die with loyalty and faith that did not expect anything in return.
Then what about the amount?
“You don’t know what they really want. Did you hear directly? no It can only take effect while they are alive.”
“… … .”
“If you want to die for those who have already died, that is fine too. But, by your standards, is it really for them to commit suicide, to writhe in agony?”
“… … .”
“I felt remorse and apologized for them. However, since you have no memory of the act, you cannot truly understand their sorrow or feel guilty.”
What matters is your own standards.
The perpetrator must apologize according to the standards of the victim. However, ‘living’ according to the standards of the victim is unjust.
It is because it proves that you are not a human being without a subject.
“Many people will point fingers at my choice as not being right.”
“If you don’t have your own standards, that will make you more distressed.”
“Because I am the teacher’s disciple, I am not punished by the law even if I do such an outrageous thing.”
“That is your position.”
“Then, does it matter if I destroy Protestantism as I please?”
“That is also your choice. Of course, if it was before you became the leader, I would stop you from doing that.”
Seo Liang sighed.
“In the end, what matters is who I am.”
“Of course. Everything depends on whether or not you can handle the consequences of your choices based on your standards.”
“I can handle it… … .”
“Because of the past, you almost lost your life. In living in Moorim, Eun-Won comes from everyday life. In the end, both the person who takes revenge and the person who endures revenge live according to their own choices.”
Lee Cheon-sang asked as he filled Seo-ryang’s cup.
“I will ask. Do you have the confidence to truly suffer for them?”
Seo Liang raised his head.
His eyes were still red and bloodshot, but his eyes were quite clear.
“I have no confidence in that.”
“Are you willing to give up your life?”
“Not even that.”
“If so, what will you do for them?”
Xu Liang, who was staring at Li Chun-sang, emptied his glass and said,
“I will think about it later.”
“If there is no standard, it is enough to set it up again. That was enough.”
Before drinking from the glass, Lee Cheon-sang murmured.
“I thought you already knew that much, but you’re young in the weird part.”
Xi Liang is never young. Actually, he is in his sixties.
But this is my first experience. Anyone has to be the first.
It’s something someone can just overlook, but Xiliang could never just ignore it.
It is clear that it will act as a big problem in your life in the future.
“Today, somehow, you talk a lot.”
“I really hated seeing the unkempt face of that stupid disciple. What are you doing kicking her out, the only way is to hit her on the head and make her realize.”
Seo Liang smiled.
“thank you.”
“Pour me a drink.”
“yeah.”
He seemed lighter than before.
When Li Cheon-sang emptied his glass again and Xu Liang took up the bottle again.
“I will stop drinking today.”
“What is it?”
Lee Cheon-sang got up from his seat and went down the pavilion.
“Follow me.”
“Where are you going?”
“Whether or not to decide on you as the successor, I need to do a final test.”
“… … A test?”
“Rain.”
“… … !!”
“If you don’t pass the exam, there will be no future. If you pass the test, then I will teach you directly as the leader and successor.”
Li Cheon-sang, who came down from the pavilion, looked up at Seo-ryang.
“A point was deducted from the rotten mental power. If you can’t prove how sharp your sword has become, you will never be the successor.”
