[Episode 623] Choice and Decision.
Tap-!
The burning smell tickles the tip of your nose.
It was a place where I did not know what kind of sight it would have.
All of them were burnt and burned and lost their original form long ago.
I can’t imagine what it used to be like.
It was a world where only charred ashes and ashes burned.
‘The tail is quite decent.’
I had a big smile when I saw that.
Not anywhere else, but in my heart.
That the world has become like this. That must mean that my insides are rotten and burnt.
‘Sick.’
He acted so shamelessly that he would live properly.
The inside was like this.
I lowered my gaze.
Beneath a burning world. A space barely holding its place.
I see a child trembling, barely blocking the frame made of flames.
He seemed intimidated by his small stature.
[Heuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…]
Damn it.
It’s a f*cking memory.
“hey.”
[…Huh…?]
The child raises his head at my call.
It was a face that looked quite ferocious for a child, with slanted eyes.
“Look what it looks like.”
Since you look like that, you will live your whole life hearing that you look ferocious.
“Haa…”
He sighed and looked at the child.
“What is that? shabby.”
[Help me… Help me…!]
The child’s hand goes to me.
back.
I feel a hand grabbing my pants crotch.
[Please, please help me…!]
“…”
[I miss my mom… please…]
It was a desperate voice.
A very small, clear voice that wants to live somehow.
when was it
‘The one with that kind of voice.’
I tried to remember, but I couldn’t.
‘doesn’t exist.’
never.
Not even once.
After my mother disappeared, I had never raised a voice like that.
so.
“Are you crying all the time here?”
[Heuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…]
“Shut up.”
[…!]
The child who heard me stopped crying.
“don’t cry. shut up. Because it is noisy.”
[Turn off… uh…]
“If you cry now, you have to lose. You’ve been screwed up for the rest of your life.”
There are countless days to cry.
I have to endure it and endure it, but what if I cry here?
[Ummua Ah ….]
The guy can’t finish.
Seeing that, I let out a deeper sigh.
“You don’t have a mother, man.”
[…!]
Oops. This sounds like a bit of a mistake.
It wasn’t that there wasn’t any.
but.
“I won’t see you for another… roughly… thirty years?”
It was about that much, including the previous life.
I was struggling to find it. It’s just this much, in fact…
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“It’s almost nonexistent.”
[Haaaaaaang!]
“It’s too noisy. Shall I just hit you?”
[Heuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…]
I lowered my legs and made eye contact with the child.
“Did you want to live?”
[Huh…uh…]
“I thought it wasn’t. did you?”
that life has no meaning
I lived thinking like that.
He said he didn’t care if he died right away, but he lived like that.
“It seems you haven’t.”
Why is this child screaming so much?
“Why do you want to live like that?”
I couldn’t tell.
“Your life is hell.”
Even if it’s still a number.
I didn’t want to live that kind of life, but it turned around and around.
“Perhaps more so in the future.”
Pop-! I looked at my hand, feeling something flowing.
“huh?”
Suddenly, my palms are stained red.
It was all bloody. Drops of blood were dripping from his fingertips.
I regret this.
Regrets I’ve been trying to forget.
It was funny. I can express even this.
He raised his hand and showed it to the child.
“This is the life you will walk on.”
[Huh….]
“I can’t even remember how many people I killed.”
and.
I won’t remember any more
Killed countless numbers.
I won’t remember it because I can’t count it.
“Should it have been?”
this is what i ask
“Did I really have to do that?”
Because the child in front is afraid. Because my world is burning up like this.
It was a question to ask me.
‘you.’
Did you really have to live like that?
Of course you won’t get an answer.
‘Cause I won’t answer
[Please save me…]
The child still hoped for life.
[I want to live…]
“…”
Seeing this, I have a question.
Did I wish for life
Maybe it was.
comes to mind
It was the first time I was standing on the street after returning.
I couldn’t even grasp the situation properly.
I thought as I felt the crowd and the buzz.
‘I must have longed for a sight like this.’
Called.
peaceful times.
Even at the most f*cked up times for me.
I had hoped for that time.
So I would have been relieved.
‘The sight you see at the moment of death. Because it’s that day.’
[Do you want to eat potatoes?]
Because it was the moment I met that child.
Even if life before him is hell.
At that moment, it seemed that it had many meanings to me.
“But there is.”
pop.
He stroked the boy’s cheek with his blood-dripping hand.
“I need to stop doing this.”
[Hee hee hee hee…]
“How long are you going to hold back?”
The child who felt my touch trembled in fear.
[Um … Ummuaa …]
I started crying like a kid.
oh boy it’s not right
‘I never thought I’d see me cry.’
This is quite a different experience.
Even if that’s an illusion.
I looked at the trembling child and continued.
“Someone kept saying that I couldn’t be without you.”
[Heuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…]
Sweep.
I move the hand that was rubbing my cheek.
The stained blood left traces along the touch.
He brought it to the child’s neck.
Kwak-!
I grabbed it hard.
[Huh-!]
The child groans at this.
scruple.
and selfishness.
that’s the child’s name
The hesitation that is preventing me from going any further.
A few emotions that I kept without excluding it.
Among them.
“The most useless person to me.”
I defined it that way.
This is the part I already knew.
“…and.”
The one I didn’t want to lose the most.
This child was like that to me.
but.
“It seems like it would be impossible to do that now.”
I can’t be stubborn any longer.
and grabbed the child by the throat.
rattle.
I feel a trembling in my hand.
It was a disgustingly vivid sensation.
“The truth is.”
He looked at the child and said.
“I didn’t want to abandon you.”
It is the sincerity that has not been spit out by anyone.
“It still is. That’s how I feel.”
the moment i abandoned you
“Because I will have to admit it.”
Leaving a normal life where there was even the slightest hope.
Human beings should leave the main axis and become dragons.
You have to acknowledge that life.
I thought I had already made up my mind to do so.
I was also unable to do so.
I already knew the truth.
“I am not human.”
It’s a fact I already knew.
“It won’t be in the future.”
I know I can’t go back
I’m still wondering if that was my choice.
“…but that’s what I mean.”
Apart from that.
“Even knowing that, it wasn’t easy.”
It’s an obsession.
I knew best about the so-called poop stubbornness myself.
I couldn’t do that though.
Why?
Why can’t I do this simple thing.
Did the world have to be so rotten that it turned black?
I do not know the reason.
Is it because you just don’t want to be a dragon?
Refusing to admit that you have become a dragon does not mean you have become a human.
I knew it well.
‘From the moment I decided to become a demon.’
From the moment I let myself go to protect it.
This is part of what I was aware of.
I mean, it’s too late to turn back.
‘I know that.’
I knew it. I couldn’t.
Why?
I don’t even know myself.
Was being human really that important?
Why is it so important that you worry so much about it?
I don’t know.
But now was not the time to ask why.
As long as you don’t let go of this obsession.
‘Because I won’t be able to go any further.’
Can’t keep what needs to be protected
My life has always been on the scales.
It was always a series of choices.
Place the selection on the scale and choose the one that weighs the most.
I’ve always lived like that
It was much later this time, but I was just doing the same thing.
“you. lighter than others That’s all.”
yeah that’s all
[Save me…!! I don’t want to die!]
I slowly put strength into the hand that held my neck.
[I miss my mom…! Ah… Daddy!!]
I hear the child’s cry.
I had to ignore it.
kill one in
What will change by doing this?
I wonder if this action can change a lot.
I didn’t know.
just do it though
Kwak-!
[Turn it off…]
Despair fills the child’s eyes as the strength grows.
Tap-! Tap-!
The flames that had been burning the surroundings also began to move again.
In order to swallow even the barely empty space.
“sorry.”
That was all I could say looking at the child.
“I don’t know what will happen next.”
This is the end with the child.
“Thank you. until now.”
like that.
As he finished speaking, he tried to break the child’s neck.
It was only natural that it had to be finished.
Together.
widely-!
in a burning flame.
widely-! Tap-!
I sensed something strange.
The sound of ashes that continued to burn.
Tack… Tack… Tack.
It started to slow down gradually.
…widely.
at some point.
I couldn’t hear any sound at all.
“…?”
A subtle sensation stopped the power in his hand.
I looked around.
Then I knew.
The flames that burned and danced everywhere stopped moving.
“what?”
It had been so noisy until just now.
what kind of phenomenon is this?
I was a bit embarrassed, but I didn’t mean to stop.
I’m trying to erase my embarrassment and do what I was doing again.
“uh?”
He turned his gaze back to normal and widened his eyes.
The child he was holding with both hands disappeared.
It was also a while to stop at the sudden situation.
Sarak.
“…!”
I realized that there was something other than a child in front of me.
[Huh…]
And that, while holding my childhood that I was looking at just now.
what?
I had to frown as I stared at the unexpected figure.
It’s because it didn’t look right.
The shape is blurry and cannot be seen properly.
What else is this…?
Oh maybe
“Is it blood?”
Seeing that it appeared the other day, perhaps the blood energy appeared in a bizarre form again.
That’s what I thought, but I asked.
“Hmm.”
I paused for a moment at the sound I heard.
because it belonged to a woman.
It was a voice I had never heard before.
‘however.’
doesn’t come to mind
whose voice was it?
I couldn’t remember.
Is this also a play of blood?
“What are you going to do when you show up again this time-”
“I mean.”
while I was talking.
My mouth fell shut at the sound of the woman’s voice.
If it was originally, I would have ignored it and spat out the words.
Somehow that didn’t work out.
“I didn’t want you to make this choice. That’s why I couldn’t stand it.”
The calming voice was making a part of my heart ache for some reason.
“Actually, I knew that too. What’s more, it was a device I’ve been using for this purpose.”
The woman hugs the child in her arms as if she is caring for it, fearing that she will cry.
“I delayed and delayed because of greed. It must have hurt you.”
It shakes.
I kept shaking my stomach at the words I didn’t know.
“…who are you?”
blood is not ‘Instinct’ said so.
That woman is not bloody.
Then who is it?
no way.
“A divine sword…?”
When I met the Heavenly Demon at Shinryonggwan.
I once listened to my mother and absorbed her energy.
This was also something that I had to solve when I met my mother someday.
As much as that happened, I wondered if the person who appeared in front of me was Shingeom.
“…haha.”
The woman who heard the words only let out a laugh in a calm voice.
The voice sounded very sad for some reason.
“Similar. But no. I am not the child you want.”
The woman turns around and takes a step.
OK.
Whoaaaaaagh–!!
“…her!?”
Starting with the woman’s toes, the world full of ashes begins to change.
Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Green grass grew over the black world and wrapped around the area.
The tree, which had lost its shape due to decay, came to life and dyed its color.
The space where there was nothing changes and changes.
There was even a small shelter under the world colored with autumn leaves.
That happened in just a few seconds.
Drurr-! widely-!
The sound of a waterwheel moving near the residence was heard.
Tit-! tweet-!
Even birds chirping echoed in the woods behind them.
My insides have already rotted and rotted.
The result is the world just now.
Where do you mean now?
In a world that has suddenly changed.
[Huh…]
“Right.”
The woman soothed the child and walked calmly to the place.
He sits on the floor naturally in a light posture and looks at me again.
The gaze is not clear.
I couldn’t see it properly because of the blurry body lines and features.
Without knowing why, I was sure she was looking at me.
“…what are you? What is your true identity?”
I looked at the woman and asked.
Then the woman answers.
“I was once your heart.”
pounding.
My heart skipped a beat at those words.
“There were times when I became eyes, ears, and two legs. It was also a sword. also.”
A woman strokes the hair of the child she is holding.
“Although she was a man’s everything and a child’s mother.”
Seruk.
A single maple leaf fell on the woman’s lap.
My eyes went unnoticed.
“Because you don’t remember me right now. Now…”
I could feel the woman’s voice tremble slightly as she spat out the words.
“Anonymous.”
As if he was afraid to speak.
“I guess I should call it that.”
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A few seconds have passed since Gu Yangchun asked for time.
The princess stood by the side of Guyangcheon with her eyes closed, watching.
It was because I realized something and decided that I needed time to think about it.
“Hmm….”
In the midst of that, the princess was slowly examining Guyangcheon.
The reason is not different.
The more you look, the more you resemble.
This is the thought that came to mind while looking at Guyangcheon.
‘At first, it didn’t look like anything.’
It resembles only a few characteristic features.
In terms of appearance, many things were different.
Therefore, they are not direct blood relatives.
I thought so.
The princess had to clear her thoughts after just two meetings.
It reminds me of what Yangchun Gu did when I first met him.
Yangchun Gu said, “Did you do the same thing to the other party?”
If he had done that, he would upset everything, and the appearance of his anger resembled him at that time.
The behavior and speech were completely different.
If you follow me.
‘…That way was more scary.’
Rather than the appearance of Guyangcheon, which showed the violence as it is.
He was even more frightening as he endured such an appearance and suppressed the surroundings only with air pressure.
‘I wonder what it will be like now.’
Even then, he looked like a monster.
Seeing the condition of the child she gave birth to, she seemed to already know.
So I was more curious.
‘Even at the time, I couldn’t win.’
I haven’t had a fight with him yet.
it’s a shame.
In the eyes of the princess, he was the only one who could compete with him.
It was just a pity that death was close now.
‘If anyone sees it…’
He expresses delusion for a while.
It was quickly erased with a smile.
He didn’t even have time for that.
The princess looked at Guyangcheon again.
Apart from being his child, the fact that I have found out so far was surprising.
‘It’s not enough to raise this level at this age.’
A dragon that broke a bowl and awakened.
‘That’s what I mean.’
It seems to mean that it wasn’t a human vessel in the first place.
If so…
‘Who is it?’
The women who were beside him at the time.
Which of them is the child?
It seemed like there were a lot of them, so I couldn’t predict them properly.
one thing for sure.
‘I don’t think there were any women who were inferior in looks.’
On the contrary, if it is excellent, it is excellent.
I remember that there was no one who was somewhat lacking.
But what is this friend who is a child?
that was a little strange
The moment I thought about this question.
yes.
“hmm?”
The ice crystal in front starts to emit a shallow light for an instant.
“…her?”
It is an anomaly of ice crystals.
After confirming this, the princess paused for a moment.
Whoops—!!
At the same time as the light of an ice crystal.
The cold air that was circulating in the space began to swirl around Guyangcheon.
It was not that the cold air approached Guyangcheon on its own.
like.
It was as if Guyangcheon was sucking in the cold air.
