Episode 110 < How she loves. (2) >
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2.
And Raviel Ivansia tightened her hands. To kill a man. The intention is to infect him with permanent scars.
-Wook, ke, eup… … !
The man twisted his body. Raviel Ivansia’s sword penetrated even deeper into his heart. The man screamed in pain. A scream tore through the space where only the two of them were left.
‘I don’t want to kill you.’
Raviel Ivansia bit her lip.
‘I don’t want to lose it.’
But contrary to that wish, Raviel Ivansia stabbed the knife even harder. Every touch felt vivid in his hands. Textures. His heart is broken. His flesh is cut off. His heart has been pierced, and he is constantly coughing up blood.
All of that hurt Raviel Ivansia.
‘more.’
stronger. From now on, to engrave this moment as your own trauma. So one day, I don’t know when, let the man I love catch a glimpse of this scene.
So, the moment the man was about to vomit blood, Raviel Ivansia stole his lips.
-……!
Fishy breath flowed from his heart to her mouth. It was red and sticky breath. This is my man’s body temperature. This is my man’s blood. This was the heart of my man.
Raviel Ivansia covered his mouth to prevent even a single drop from escaping.
-…….
The man is dying.
Raviel Ivansia did not blink. She didn’t miss a single moment as she saw the man she loved dying. She felt pain every moment as his complexion became white, his vibrations became lighter, and his breath became fainter.
I don’t want to lose it.
I wanted to loose my voice and scream at the world.
I don’t want to lose this man.
What if this moment is not imprinted as a trauma? So what if all of your plans end up failing? Then I will forget him, and he will lose me. There is nothing left.
Raviel Ivansia was afraid.
‘more.’
Being afraid of something was a shame for someone like her. It was an insult. However, Raviel Ivansia constantly saw frightening sights. She had this terrible fantasy over and over again. She deliberately dug her wounds deeper.
The way he fails to persuade Toph.
I forgot about him and things continued like before.
The two of us casually passing each other in the hallway.
Layer wound upon wound.
-…….
And Raviel Ivansia saw. his death.
-…….
Raviel Ivansia understands. This is the same time as the residue. It is a very brief moment of respite before the man returns. Perhaps in just a few seconds he will regress. He himself will be caught up in his time and regress in the same way.
Just a few seconds. Just a few seconds.
But those few seconds felt like an eternity to Raviel Ivansia.
She slowly parted her lips.
– Confucius?
There is no answer.
-Confucius.
ah.
At that very moment, Raviel Ivansia knew. Yes. This last sight, the absence of an answer.
His gaze lost direction. His lips stopped, as if he had forgotten how to speak. Because of this, this moment has become an indelible trauma to Raviel Ivansia.
Everything became clear.
He had never left a more terrible scar than this.
-…….
Raviel Ivansia hugged him. He hugged his body. There are only a few seconds left until the final time. She spent her last moments hugging him.
Believe.
[Trauma reproduction completed.]
You will believe in me just as I believe in you. Confucius.
[Confirm that the subject’s ego is maintained.]
So we can wait for each other.
[End penalty.]
It will be so.
[Your current immersion rate is 98%.]
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Strangely enough, it was difficult to open my eyes.
“butler?”
The Lady of the Golden Silk sitting across from me was surprised. She was bizarre. The young lady’s face, which always seemed to shine brightly, seemed dull today.
“Is there a problem? “What’s wrong with you all of a sudden?”
“yes?”
“You’re crying. now.”
Only then did I realize that I was crying. I was surprised. Just a moment ago, the Lady of the Golden Silk and I were chatting together.
I just blinked for a moment.
In that moment, tears flowed.
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“ah… ?”
Even, I couldn’t stop crying.
“Ji, butler? I’m a little scared. There aren’t many things I’m scared of, but I’m a little scared. Why do you suddenly cry while talking to me? “Well, did I do something strange again?”
“no… that is… “I don’t know either.”
“Are you crying for no reason? Did you spin? omg. You’re really crying… . Uh, what should I do? This is the first time my butler has cried like this since he was beaten by me when he was 5 years old… .”
“You’re really going to carry on that job for the rest of your life. miss. “If possible, please forget it.”
“But Deacon. Even if you forget that you were beaten when you were 5, you were beaten when you were 6, you were beaten when you were 7, you were beaten until you were 14, and in fact, you still get beaten from time to time. If I forget all that, will I get amnesia? In fact, it is no exaggeration to say that a deacon’s life is a series of beatings.”
Amnesia.
“…….”
“Hi, I thought the crying had stopped, but why are you crying again?! sorry! I’m sorry for just beating you up! I won’t hit you anymore. When I hit you, I’ll do it in a less insulting way. “Then that’s it, right?!”
“Perhaps you had a nightmare, lady…” … ”
“yes? A nightmare? “Have I been captured by a monster and torn to death?”
“no. A woman was crying endlessly while looking at me… “She felt very sad because she wanted to wipe her tears, but she couldn’t.”
“indeed.”
The Lady of the Golden Silk had an expression of deep understanding.
“That woman was me.”
“It was definitely not the lady… . You can never make such a sad and noble expression. Because the atmosphere is inherently different… .”
“ah. Should I hit you, just?”
The Lady of the Golden Silk glared at us with slitted eyes. Normally, she would have bowed her head and said ‘I’m sorry’ around this time, and the young lady would have replied with a helpless look on her face, ‘I’ll be generous and understand.’
But I got up from my chair.
“butler?”
“I’m going somewhere for a moment.”
“Eh. Where are you at this night? I was going to tell you that I had dinner plans with His Royal Highness tomorrow. I was excited and wanted to show off. “The butler has a duty to listen to my boasts.”
I bowed down.
“sorry. miss. But there is a place you must go.”
“…….”
The Lady of the Golden Silk huffed and narrowed her eyes. The young lady rested her hands on the chin of her chair and looked at my face.
“is it so. A deacon also has a head, and if he has a head, he will think. But please don’t come back with bare hands? “I’ll have to stop by the kitchen and steal some muffins.”
“Tomorrow, the crown prince will present a blue coral ring to the young lady.”
The Lady of the Golden Silk blinked her eyes.
“yes?”
“I will leave now.”
I walked away.
Behind his back, “Deacon! “Is that really true?!” the young lady shouted. But she ignored it.
“Wait a minute, even if you have to leave, just answer before leaving! Butler, you idiot!”
After coming to Sormwin Academy, the young lady has become much quieter, but she is still a street leader at heart. He was the one who went around beating up the kids in his hometown.
‘My master.’
I hurried my steps.
It may have been my first time on this road, but my steps were familiar.
‘It feels like I’ve walked the same path before.’
The main door of the Lady of the Silver Lily’s residence was open. There were no guards. It was supposed to feel strange, but I just thought, ‘It seemed like that for some reason.’ My steps crossed the garden without hesitation.
corridor.
“Are you here?”
A speck of moonlight.
“… … “Were you waiting for me?”
“Yes. “Today is [the second].”
Questions and answers without context. An incomprehensible conversation touched the night air. With a full-length mirror behind her, the Lady of the Silver Lily was smiling.
“Look in the mirror.”
“…….”
“What do you see?”
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■■ ■■■: [Teacher], [Lover], [■■■ ■■], [■■■], [■■■], [■■Child], [■■], [■■■■ ■■■■■■], [■■■■ ■■■■■], [■■ ■■■■■]
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“… … I see the words teacher and lover. The word child. “It seems like you can see fragments of small letters, but the meaning is difficult to understand.”
“Call me.”
“cow.. ”
I was about to call him “Little Duke,” but I closed my mouth.
Even though that is the title given to Raviel Ivansia with the greatest respect.
『Never call me Duke with your lips again.』
I will cut out your heart and kill you.』
A conversation I had never had before came to mind. It was as if I was peeking into a dream from a previous life.
I was confused. I felt like no matter what happened, I should never call her my cow duke.
“… … “Young lady.”
“You feel much better.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily Duke approached me. Her red eyes looked at me. The lady just stared, her lips tightly closed.
『What did you dream about?』
Still, it felt like the Lady of the Silver Lily was speaking to me. The closed lips seemed to be moving. It was too intense to be a hallucination, and too clear to be an auditory hallucination.
“My lady… … “He was in tears.”
“and?”
“You kept calling someone. A man was tied up in front of the lady… . I think he was probably calling that man. “But I don’t remember the man’s name.”
“and?”
“The lady was in pain as she stabbed the man with a knife.”
It was strange.
Why do I talk endlessly to those who remain silent? Why is the Lady of the Silver Lily silently listening to me?
It was really strange.
The strangest thing is that my heart does not find this situation awkward.
“That’s amazing.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily stroked my head. ‘That’s amazing.’ The echo of those words penetrated deeply into my heart. ‘That’s amazing.’ A long time ago. It felt like I had heard something like that somewhere before I was even born.
I think I smelled a blue scent.
“Look.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily took out something from her bosom.
It was a card.
“… … What is?”
“It is proof that you worked hard for me. “It’s okay to be proud.”
The golden card had dense letters engraved on it.
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[The love of a returner]
Rank: EX
Effect: To a regressor, love is like poison. No matter how hard you struggle, you cannot share time with the one you love. Then, a certain returner made a wish. ‘Please protect my lover’s memory.’ That wish was fulfilled by reaching the tower.
You share a timeline with your beloved lover. If your lover goes back a day, you go back a day too. As you go back a day, your lover goes back a day too. This is the oath of the ring. This is the wedding of time.
I wish you both good luck.
※However, it only activates when you and your lover love each other.
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“…….”
I was speechless without knowing why.
“Please protect my lover’s time.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily smiled slightly.
“It would be difficult to receive a proposal like this. I like your voice. Do you understand? If it’s not addressed directly to me, I won’t listen. So my dear. “Come back quickly.”
My heart was pounding.
“I will kill you. I will kill you no matter how many times I kill you. “Until you come back, if I can make you come back by showing you my wounds, I will show you and show you forever.”
“Young lady… … ”
“So take a peek at my wounds and suffer. Look at the scars you left on me. Look and look again. “There are traces of you there.”
The Lady of the Silver Lily stretched out both hands and grabbed my neck.
“The only person in this world who can kill me is you.”
Gently.
“Know that I am the only one who can kill you.”
And I saw.
[You are dead.]
[Relive the trauma of the enemy who killed you.]
I looked and looked again.
[Your current immersion rate is 97%.]
I saw the Princess of the Silver Lily shedding tears.
I saw her kill a man several times.
Every day I went back, I lived her dream.
[You are dead.]
[Your current immersion rate is 96%.]
We were in love in a past life.
[You are dead.]
[Your current immersion rate is 95%.]
I was going to love him in this life too.
Maybe even in the next life.
[Your current immersion rate is 94%.]
[Your current immersion rate is 93%.]
[Your current immersion rate is 92%.]
That I hurt you. That you shed tears in a place I couldn’t see, at a time I couldn’t be with you. That I cried silently.
Unless I forget them.
If you don’t forget, if you remember.
[Your current immersion rate is 91%.]
We can love forever.
[Your current immersion rate is 90%.]
and.
and.
and.
And I return to you.
By opening the door. Across the garden. Running down the hallway.
You were born as the legitimate daughter of Duke Ivansia. She had a sad mother and led a sad life. Even before you were born, your marriage partner was decided, and from then on, you devoted your life solely to that marriage partner.
You were a white flower.
You were called Ivansia’s Moon, you were called the Duke, and even shorter, you were called the Princess.
“Are you here?”
“…….”
You are standing in the hallway. Standing in the hallway on a dark night, you were like a lonely island in the middle of the night sea. The endless sea surrounded you. I overheard the waves of the sea.
Not the Duke of Ivansia, not the duke’s daughter, or even shorter, not the princess.
“Raviel.”
The white flower smiles.
“I was waiting. Confucius.”
I am.
I love you.
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