It’s so precious that I don’t want to lose it.
I am so happy that I keep wondering if this is real.
It was with those feelings that I decided to hold the inauguration ceremony early.
This is how I made up my mind that everything would work out well.
On the day of the inauguration ceremony, Tyria discovered it.
-I found it.
Among the crowd in the square was the large old man I had met in the winter mountains when I was young.
He was the man whom Elric called his teacher, and he was also the man who left him fainting that day.
I couldn’t forget it.
When I think of him, I always feel a slight sense of fear and uncertainty.
This is because the eyes I faced while losing my mind were so empty.
There was an infinite, almost intuitive certainty that his appearance would bring about a change in Elric’s feelings.
It was right.
Elric, who had not smiled that day and seemed worried until the inauguration ceremony began, once again vented Tyria’s subdued anxiety.
-You left… .
I don’t know exactly what happened, but the attack on the mansion with the teacher who returned that day probably caused Elric to leave this place.
If so, it had to be stopped.
slap!
I stopped talking.
The cold early morning air sticks to my bare feet because of the thin clothes.
Scratches appeared on the tops of my feet and hands, and my breathing became increasingly difficult.
If you pass through the wheat fields and return to the entrance of the village, you will reach Weibin Station on the Transcontinental Railroad.
Only after arriving there did Tyria get off the horse.
I ran straight into the station.
It seemed.
“house owner!”
At that moment, Elric was about to enter the station.
Next to him was a man with black hair who looked like a man.
The two people stopped walking.
A small look of surprise appeared on Elric’s revealed face.
However, it soon disappeared as if it had been washed away.
My heart felt like it was being squeezed.
Slowly Tyria approached him.
It was that kind of moment.
“Please go in first.”
“Year-in… .”
A black-haired man entered the station.
Everyone around me also disappeared.
Elric spoke immediately afterward.
“Why did you follow me?”
It was a cold voice.
Tyria’s steps suddenly stopped.
It felt like my breathing had stopped.
“yes… ?”
“I definitely told the users. “I will leave this land.”
Tyria was speechless.
My head was spinning.
Yes, it was.
Elric was Kasha.
I guess they’re trying to say that the war has intensified and they can no longer stay here.
I should say that I know now that I read the newspaper… .
“You don’t notice.”
My mind went blank at the words I was given.
“I just needed a place to hide until I could clean up. “It’s time to leave.”
His words were too sharp.
It felt like each word was digging into my heart and crushing my insides.
Tyria looked straight into Elric’s eyes.
It was strange.
I couldn’t read anything.
Although he had been practicing reading people’s facial expressions and facial expressions quite a bit, I couldn’t feel anything in his bright red eyes.
I was afraid of that.
“I am… .”
“This is ridiculous. “Please stop going in.”
Tyria held the hem of her skirt tightly.
My face turned red.
My eyes were hot.
I couldn’t understand this situation.
For Tyria, it was completely incomprehensible for someone who walked hand in hand until yesterday to suddenly change like this.
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I wanted to think that I was still dreaming.
I hoped this was all just a terrible nightmare.
Still, such a miracle seemed far away.
The sensations were so vivid.
No, it seems like my five senses are amplified more than usual.
The pain in the soles of my feet or the coldness of the early morning air assaults my body.
The heat rising from within collides with them.
Meanwhile, I was filled with fear.
The thought that she would never see him again if she turned back like this did not go away, so Tyria automatically walked forward.
Elric stood still.
He just looked down at Tyria without showing any emotion, as if he wasn’t going to allow anything.
If I stretched out my hand like that, it was close enough to reach.
Tyria looked up at Elric.
The expressionless expression was like looking at a tightly closed door.
I stop thinking about saying something to him.
“not… It’s possible.”
Tyria grabbed Elric’s collar.
“If you go, you can’t.”
I stuttered.
I held my collar tighter.
My mind went blank with desperation.
Even if you give reasons to persuade him, it won’t be enough.
You can probably come up with quite a few reasons why you shouldn’t leave, why you should be here.
But nothing came to mind.
Tyria mechanically repeated the words almost forcefully.
“… You must not go. “The matriarch must be here.”
The tip of my nose was so hot.
So much so that the smell disappears.
“Aren’t you a lord? Didn’t you say you would protect this place? however… .”
It felt like my eyes were about to burn.
So much so that my vision becomes blurry.
“Go, you are Portman’s owner.”
It was a phenomenon that Tyria had never experienced before in her life.
Even when I was in pain every day due to countless abuses as a child, the first day he left, and the 10 years he was gone.
No day has ever hurt as much as today.
It wasn’t as irrational as today, and it wasn’t as difficult to control myself as it was today.
‘no.’
I was never swayed by those unreasonable emotions.
I couldn’t do anything other than think that I didn’t want to live in a place without Elric.
How on earth should I stop it?
What should I say to someone who hits the wall like this?
The more I thought about it, the more out of breath I became.
My impatience was also rising.
My heart was racing like crazy, blocking my thoughts.
Someone said breakup was a loss.
Wrong.
Tyria’s separation was not a loss.
Just the thought of losing makes me feel like a stake is being driven into my heart, so how can I call this a loss?
How can I talk about emptiness if just thinking about tomorrow without him causes new pain every moment?
That was the reason.
Also, tears flowed down my cheeks.
At the same time, the words I had stored inside were vomited out as if regurgitated.
“I like… .”
So please don’t go.
Please continue to stay here.
Please stay by my side.
It was close to a mutter.
Tyria’s head dropped.
Once the mask was broken, it could not be put back together.
The tears that had been burning my eyes turned into a stream and dripped down from the tip of my chin.
There was a strange confidence.
Even though this is the first time I’m sharing my feelings out loud.
Even though I’ve never done anything like this before.
“… “I know.”
I had a gut feeling that I would be rejected.
Elric’s feet were somewhere in his field of vision toward the floor.
I tried adding strength to the hand holding his collar.
“Let go.”
He took his hand away.
Soon his feet disappeared from sight.
I looked up later, but couldn’t see Elric.
Tyria was completely destroyed.
Tears just flowed endlessly.
She sat down somewhere in the station and could not move a single step until Grdio and the head maid came.
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It is easier to resent than to understand.
Elric knew that.
“Let’s go.”
“Well, sir… .”
“Let’s go.”
After saying that, I closed the seat door.
Soon the train started shaking.
It trembled and moved forward.
Elric then crouched down.
I held my chest and let out a long breath.
I closed my eyes.
‘… Good job.’
It was a good thing I didn’t waver at that moment.
It was the right choice to keep the expression until the end.
What will change if I don’t shake off her hand?
In fact, what will change if we say that this situation exists?
That was the cruelest thing to Tyria.
When I jump into a battlefield where life and death are uncertain, I tell her I love you too, and she will be waiting.
Even if I can’t come back, I will live my life dreaming of it.
She was that kind of person.
So I can’t bear to say it.
Rather, we should make them feel resentful, angry, and hate themselves.
The breakup hurt.
Getting hurt was more painful than having a knife stuck in my stomach, getting an arrow stuck in my back, or having my body covered in burns.
I hated myself for having no choice but to do that.
I hope so.
I hope she thinks she’s such a bad person that she never wants to look at her again.
May she completely erase herself from the rest of her life.
You will be able to do that.
‘Resentment is easier than understanding.’
Because it would be easier than missing and being in pain for the rest of your life.
Elric would do the same.
I would never look at what I left behind again.
I would take the time to reflect on her pain and look forward.
However, I would take every step with the resentment that would come at the end.
If you do that, you will be able to reach it.
Tdu-duk-
The joints were realigned.
A hatred that made me forget even the pain welled up inside me.
Elric’s eyes finally opened,
Suuuuuuuuuu
It was red like blood.
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