Chapter 187 – 187. Answers
“Haam.”
Late morning.
Han Sen woke up scratching his stomach, felt numbness in his lower abdomen, and opened his heavy eyes.
I felt like my bladder was going to explode at any moment, but it was too bothersome to get up.
I was tempted to just endure it and sleep, but I woke up with a sigh because I had done that once before and woke up with the bed wet.
“cadet.”
Head throbbing as if it had been hit with a hammer. Yesterday, I had a good hand and won a lot of money, so I was paying for a lot of expensive drinks at the store with a woman on either side of me.
I heard that expensive alcohol doesn’t cause hangovers.
Could it be that the contents of the bottle and the alcohol were different?
Han Sen, who was suspected of being ill, went into the bathroom thinking about various things.
So after a while.
After refreshingly emptying his stomach, Hansen comes out of the bathroom, scratching his head.
You can’t really see the inside of the dark house, but I’ve been there countless times anyway and it’s not big enough to get lost.
Han Sen, who was about to go back into his room, looked at the door directly across from him and made a puzzled expression.
Lover’s room.
The place was originally intended to be used as a room for the child to be born later.
But now we don’t even talk to each other, and it’s been quite a while since we’ve been in separate rooms.
We each manage our own money and rarely see each other face to face.
However, that didn’t mean they didn’t break up because they still had feelings for each other.
If both of them left this house, they would have no place to live.
The romantic relationship has already become dull and is just an uncomfortable cohabitation out of necessity.
The good news is that I didn’t have children.
“hmm?”
The room of the lover who can now be called a stranger.
Han Sen looks at the open door and makes a puzzled expression.
When you just went to the bathroom, was the door open?
Questions linger in my head that I normally wouldn’t have paid attention to due to my hangover.
Meanwhile, Han Sen slowly stretched out his hand and poked his head into the room.
It didn’t mean anything.
In a situation where I thought it might just be a thief.
“Ouch! “Sigh!”
The voice of a lover that sounds like he is exhaling in vain. The eyes just happened to be adapted to the darkness.
Silhouette of lovers lying down.
And then something begins to struggle and spew out from above the ship.
At first it seemed like a tree root, but gradually it began to take on the shape of a person.
Tdu-duk-duk.
It turned its head and rushed at Han Sen, emitting a deep red glow.
* * *
It feels like quite a long time has passed, but when you look at it, the winter break at Lovern Academy is not over yet.
The semester starts in the spring of March, so after a year has passed in North Sweden, it is now mid-January.
I returned to Lovern one step ahead.
Eleanor went back before us to attend the year-end banquet in the capital, Graypond, and Aria also returned to her hometown to spend the year with her parents.
I left Illuania and Seville behind because I thought it would be better to stay in North Sweden rather than Loverne.
In the end, the group was me, Findeneye, Owen, and Erica.
Erica, who returned to Lovern with me instead of going back to Violen, the Bright family’s territory, was now in my lab.
Also, Per Petra, a pink-haired professor who has spent the past year alone in her lab even though it is a vacation without lectures, carefully stands to my right.
“How are you?”
I slowly move the right hand she attached to me. Perhaps because it was sensitive to mana, it was truly strange that it felt like my actual hand.
Not only can you move as you want, but you can also feel the cool air of the laboratory through your right hand.
It was a moment where I realized once again how great of a person Professor Per Petra was.
“That’s amazing. “It doesn’t feel much different from a real hand.”
Compared to the left hand, the liveliness and sensation feel dull, but it is literally only at a pale level.
It was a world of difference from having hands attached like a mannequin.
“If you have sensation, you also feel pain. “I deliberately reduced the sensitivity in case anything goes wrong.”
“… … .”
“Well, Professor Deius does a lot of difficult work.”
“So if I increase the sensitivity as much as possible, it will resemble a hand?”
When Erica, who was quietly listening next to her, asked while squinting, Professor Per scratched the back of his bushy head.
“It may not be perfect, but we’re trying to make it as similar as possible.”
Professor Perr’s voice becomes weaker and his tone rises when he talks to Erica, unlike when he talks to me.
Since it was Erica who brought her to Lovern Academy, she seemed to have established herself as a close friend to Per.
As the two people start talking about prosthetic hands, I check my right hand.
You can see it by turning it around, poking it with your left hand, or pressing it with your fingernail.
Although it is a foreign feeling, it is clearly felt.
I know that Professor Fehr is continuing his research, dreaming of the perfect prosthetic hand.
If it continues like this.
“… … .”
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Turn your head slowly.
Although Erica and Per couldn’t see it, I could see the dark spirit and Stella on either side of me, staring at their right hands.
[How amazing.]
[If you had met me when I was alive, I would have received a lot of help.]
“if.”
Without realizing it, I opened my mouth to the two people and blurted out. Immediately, I felt like I was being too hasty, so I quickly kept my mouth shut.
However, the dark spirit and Stella seemed to find it strange and looked at me with a squinting look.
[why?]
[Is there any problem?]
“… … “No, it’s nothing.”
When I answered by shaking my head, the two looked puzzled but let it go for now.
After roughly adjusting my right hand and hearing instructions from Per. Professor Per cautiously yet unexpectedly made a request.
“But can I ask you a favor?”
“of course.”
They even gave me a prosthetic arm for my right hand without charging me anything, but I thought there was nothing they could do for me.
Professor Per made a somewhat unexpected request.
* * *
“Hmm, hmm.”
Erica clears her throat because it feels awkward.
He said he would go to his room for a while and changed his clothes, but instead of the suit he usually wore to lectures, he changed into a white blouse and a black skirt that reached down to his ankles.
The corset attached to the blouse made it tight, clearly exposing her hidden body.
“I’m just going to buy some dessert.”
“Oh, I know.”
Erica slowly comes to the side and maintains an arm’s reach distance away.
Professor Per asked me to go to the city to test run the prosthetic arm and buy dessert for him.
Erica had brought it to the lab a few times in the past, and she seemed to have liked it quite a bit.
Since only Erica knew the location of the store, Erica and I naturally went together.
“Ho, is there a dark spirit lover, Stella, nearby?”
I shook my head as she asked me cautiously.
“The dark spirit will be guiding Stella to the academy.”
Since it was Stella’s first time at Lovern Academy, the dark spirit shrugged and guided her.
I thought he was being flattered by something strange, but I remember him smiling and telling me to just leave it alone because Stella was cute.
“What about Finden Eye?”
It felt like they were asking me questions one by one, as if checking each thing, but for now, I continued answering.
“I’m cleaning my room.”
“You do things like that?”
Even so, since she is a maid, shouldn’t she have to do it? Of course she was complaining why she had to do this to herself.
Since Illuania isn’t there, I guess I’ll take Owen with me and treat him well.
The wind around is cool.
Thinking it might still be too cold to wear a blouse, I glanced back at Erica, but saw a golden butterfly sitting on her shoulder.
I wondered if it had settled down before I knew it, but a vague yet warm energy was slowly coming out of it.
“Is it a spirit?”
“Oh, yes. “Like you said, I and the spirit have good compatibility.”
As Erica learns to use elemental magic in the latter half of the game, she becomes quite a great helper.
I knew that, so I just told her earlier.
“… … .”
“… … .”
We walked for a few minutes without saying anything.
I didn’t think it was particularly awkward, but since Erica’s expression next to me was obscured by her hair, I couldn’t tell what she was thinking.
However, the backs of each other’s hands just pass by as if they are maintaining an appropriate distance.
“Now that I think about it, I was curious about something while I was giving the lecture.”
When I thought about it, there were a few things I wanted to ask her while teaching as a professor.
I didn’t have time to think about such trivial things for a while, so it came to me naturally when I had some free time.
Erica hesitated for a moment and answered without looking in this direction.
“Can I ask you later?”
“It’s not that great. “I have some time left, so I guess I can listen to that much.”
Isn’t there still time left anyway?
I don’t know how long it takes to get to the dessert shop, but I decided it would be a good idea to use my time efficiently.
“… … “I don’t want to talk about work during dates.”
Pop.
Before I knew it, my steps stopped, and after taking a few steps, Erica’s steps also stopped.
I tried to say out loud that I wasn’t thinking that way at all.
When I saw Erica kneeling down in shame and trying to hide her red face, I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut.
“There was no consideration.”
Since I don’t know much about this, I apologized honestly, and Erica responded with a bitter smile, still blushing.
“I know you have feelings for someone else.”
“… … .”
“But you’re not sure about that yet, are you?”
Like tapping on the stone bridge of a stream you pass for the first time.
I needed to firmly establish the feelings that came within me.
because.
The feelings I have for Findenai.
The feelings I have for Erica.
The feelings I have for Stella.
Because everything was different.
I couldn’t help but be confused, and even though they each had an odd quality, I wasn’t sure what the love was.
I was slowly confirming my feelings using the love for Illuania that Deius Verdi left behind as an indicator.
“Right now, I can’t make the decision to choose just one person.”
“… … .”
“Also, in order to prepare for the future, I have no intention of having a relationship with someone for more than four years, even if I find the answer.”
“4 years… … .”
Erica mumbles as if thinking over my words. Now, a year has passed and the first graders have become second graders.
It was necessary to put aside personal feelings in order to prevent the destruction of the continent.
“Even if I think it’s ugly, I won’t make excuses. “If you want to break off the engagement, I will send you a letter of engagement right away.”
Erica returned the divorce letter to me at the last festival.
“Because I am a poor person, I need confidence in my emotions.”
“If I say I don’t like you, are you really going to let me go?”
Erica slowly reaches out and pulls my collar. Normally I wouldn’t have known it, but for some reason I felt like I knew the meaning behind this gesture.
I feel sorry.
Is that why?
“I think the joyous feeling I had with Findenai could be love.”
“… … .”
“So I was thinking of keeping my distance from others. “I didn’t want to hurt you by acting like I was giving you a chance.”
I gave a slightly odd answer.
“but.”
“… … .”
“The warm time I am spending with you right now. “I’m thinking it might be love.”
“… … !”
“sorry.”
I had no choice but to apologize because I knew I might hurt him.
But it wasn’t a lie.
Deius’s feelings toward Iluania included what I felt toward Findenai and what I felt toward Erica.
“If it hurts you, you can leave me at any time.”
“And then.”
One step.
Erica suddenly approached me.
Her hand was still clutching my collar.
“What if I leave and realize it was love?”
if.
I realized that I was actually in love with Erica.
What if she has already found another lover while forgetting about me?
After thinking for a moment, I looked at her gently and answered.
“I heard in a book that unrequited love is like a sparrow.”
“Sparrow? “It’s out of the blue.”
“Suddenly, they say you can see it while walking down the street, but you can’t catch it.”
“… … .”
“Maybe suddenly I thought of you and regretted not being able to catch you.”
It wasn’t difficult to imagine.
Because it really felt like there would be a future like that if Erica got away from me.
“Looking at the sky, I hope you are flying beautifully.”
“… … .”
“No matter what choice you make, I want you to be happy.”
Honest answer.
This is the only affirmation I can give right now.
Erica takes a step closer to my answer that I will spread my hands and let her go even if I spread my wings and fly at any time.
Erica, who was already close to me, took a deep breath and glared at me coldly.
“Can I hit you just once?”
“However much.”
I slowly closed my eyes because I thought I deserved it.
Swish!
Erica grabs me by the back of my neck and pulls me strongly.
Wow.
Hard teeth with a soft feel on the back of the neck.
I don’t know why, but I realize that Erica kissed the back of my neck and left a mark at the same time.
“it hurts?”
“It’s just bitter.”
“But the scars remained.”
That was correct.
When I placed my hand on the nape of my neck, I noticed that it was swollen and thick.
“I don’t know what the consequences will be. “You may realize your feelings and find someone else instead of me.”
I didn’t deny it because it wasn’t wrong.
Erica’s eyes became wet as she pictured the situation in her mind, but she still kept her smile.
Then he grabs my jacket with both hands. As if he wouldn’t let me run away anywhere.
“The scars from that time will remain bitterly inside me, but they are also proof that I loved you.”
“… … .”
“Deius, if anyone has to suffer even just a little bit.”
Erica placed her forehead against my chest and whispered softly.
“I’m going to be sick.”
“Erica.”
“So you find the answer. “Don’t hesitate and don’t be afraid to hurt.”
There were sobs mixed in, but it wasn’t a tearful voice.
Although I couldn’t see her expression, I felt that it contained determination to overcome sorrow.
“No matter what answer you give, you will be happy.”
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