Admission is a Waste of Time Chapter 180

Admission is a waste of time (180)

Lesson 35. The Last Changeling – 5

Those who cling to illusions usually know that they are illusions.

I know it, but I can’t give up.

No matter how hard I squeeze it, it won’t come off.

Even if I pull, it doesn’t pull.

Even if I chase after them, the distance doesn’t get any closer.

That thing that always hangs before our eyes, twinkling, yet seems close and far away.

You just chase it until you die, believing that you will get it someday.

For Ketra, it wasn’t actually a light emotion like love.

Not friendship, not honor, not even family.

It wasn’t revenge against his parents who had thrown him into a village of nameless humans in a lower dimension.

It was just a longing for the fundamentals of the fairy tribe.

I needed a firm conviction about my own fundamentals that would be strong enough to overwrite my past memories of growing up always doubting myself.

So it is only natural that he would hang around Mira, who was obviously a ‘real fairy’.

To him, Mira was not an individual called Mira, but a fairy tribe itself, an object of adoration rather than a love interest, and at the same time, an object of hatred that could not be abandoned.

So――That is what I thought at least until one day, when Ban Yu-won suddenly appeared and took Mira’s body and mind away.

“You’re going to die.”

“That’s not what the person who stabbed me in the stomach should say.”

Ketra thought it was a miracle that he was still alive, since he already had a terrible wound in his abdomen that looked like it had been dug up with a large sword, and they were thrusting a red spear into it.

Climbing the Tower of Babel, and sometimes even committing piracy to improve your abilities and collect artifacts wasn’t all in vain.

A faint, empty smile appeared on Ketra’s lips.

The man who saw it also smiled with a bewildered expression.

“Why did you betray me, Ketra?”

Ketra joined Crimson Spear, one of the representative dimensional pirate groups along with Exodus, even before she entered Union Academy.

Both Exodus and Crimson Spear had connections to higher dimensions, but… … .

Exodus couldn’t hide his desire to use the higher dimensions while also bringing them down.

Crimson Spears are those who enjoy the power of a higher dimension and wish to be incorporated there.

This group was a perfect fit for Ketra, who had been abandoned by her parents in a higher dimension and was longing for her own race that had its roots there.

“Weren’t we supposed to do it together? Dimension switching.”

The man speaks in a stronger voice, urging him to answer.

Ketra let out a short sigh as she faced the man who had stabbed her in the stomach with a spear.

Until just recently.

That is, until he manipulated the information to bring Crimson Spear’s elite forces to the E-1 dimension and confront Exodus.

As a dimensional pirate belonging to the same Crimson Spear, I had a fairly deep relationship with the man in front of me.

“No, um. Isn’t that a common occurrence? Infiltrating enemy territory for an operation, meeting a woman, falling in love, and betraying your allies to save her?”

“Ketra, you’re doing it for that woman.”

The man snorted.

“If Princess Hongyeon finds out, she’ll burst out in laughter. And――she’ll take her anger out on us just as much.”

“I’m sorry, Sheldon.”

“Wow, this is really driving me nuts. I’m going crazy.”

The man, who was called Selden, scratched his head as he pulled the spear out of his abdomen.

There was no need to provoke him any further since he knew Ketra would die soon anyway, and the betrayal was so sudden that he hadn’t even sorted out his feelings for Ketra yet.

“… … Swapping those Exodus guys with our members wouldn’t be profitable even if you tore your soul into pieces.”

“I guess so… …. What happened?”

“Exodus has now been cleared out. That leaves us with only one ship left.”

Ketra was part of Crimson Spear and was working on some large-scale project.

It was an attempt to surpass Exodus, an attempt to completely upset the balance of the S-class dimension, and at the same time, a cruel revenge against the fairies.

But how shocked must the unaware colleagues have been when Ketra, who had been more active than anyone else in this, suddenly manipulated information, destroyed confidential data, and ultimately caused the Crimson Spear’s fleet to collide with Exodus by ‘changeling’ them.

It was a miracle that even a single Crimson Spear ship survived, as the forces of Exodus and Crimson Spear were evenly matched as if they had been precisely manipulated.

It was also evidence that Ketra’s changeling ability had reached its peak.

If that weren’t the case, it would have been impossible to transfer the wound on Mira’s abdomen from a long distance to Changeling.

“Hey, Ketra. Is love so great? So great that you’d risk your life?”

“I don’t know.”

Ketra replied in a light tone, taking out a candy from her bosom and biting into it.

It was something I received as a gift from him after a sincere conversation about Mira after breaking up with Ban Yu-won one day.

When he tasted it, it truly was a more powerful potion than any he had ever tasted, but as Selden had just said, the series of changeling acts he had committed today would not be worth the sacrifice of his entire soul… … No matter how great the candy of life was, it was only at the level of slightly slowing down the final journey and reducing the pain.

But now I’m tearfully grateful for that reprieve.

“Hey, Selden. Since you took the bullet for me, shouldn’t you at least give him a final greeting?”

“I think so too.”

Ketra still wasn’t sure if she really loved Mira.

Without any confidence in myself, I’ve been acting like a complete lie even at the Academy.

I wondered what meaning there was in building emotions on a false foundation.

Well, that’s why I’m in this situation because I haven’t been able to decide on my future path properly and I’ve been wandering around in circles.

“Are you going to send it?”

“… … Go. Since our team is already defeated, I should make your final journey comfortable.”

“Thank you. Really.”

But this feeling of wanting to see Mira right now was definitely not a lie.

Even if he gave in to Ban Yoo-won, acknowledged him, and stepped back, there were still things he could not give up.

If you can’t let go of a lie, then it must be real, Ketra wanted to believe.

“It opened.”

Selden spoke bluntly and pointed to the floor of the spaceship.

A square emergency exit opened, sending a gust of wind rushing in, ruffling Ketra’s hair.

“Sheldon, thank you for everything so far.”

“If you were grateful, you motherf*cker, you shouldn’t have left this mess behind.”

“The project will fail.”

Selden’s face distorted as Ketra declared.

“Are you going to keep talking bad until the very end?”

“I’m being serious. The princess of the fairy tribe has a formidable ally. An ally so great that even the Red Flame Princess can’t do anything about it.”

The princess of the fairy tribe refers to Mira.

Selden, who caught his words, snorted.

Mira was a very important figure in the project and was actually one of Crimson Spear’s targets.

Of course, I knew everything about her relationships.

“You’re not talking about the little human kid down there, are you?”

That was correct.

If the power to make the Fairy Clan changelings look good and bring about the results he wants comes to the aid of the Fairy Clan, will the Crimson Spear be able to bend the Fairy Clan to his will?

I didn’t think it would be Ketra.

The reason I first approached Ban Yoo-won was because I thought he could be useful for the project.

It’s funny because I ended up creating Crimson Spear’s greatest enemy with my own hands.

“If you’re trying to change affiliations, Exodus won’t do either. I’ve lost my mind. I’ve already turned him into an enemy.”

“Oh my, so what? Should I quit piracy and start a mercenary business?”

As Ketra was approaching the emergency exit, she suddenly placed her hand on the bottom of the ship.

A wave of energy arose around it, and soon blue lines ran all over the inner walls of the ship.

Selden quickly realized that this was a changeling of the ship, or more accurately, the transfer of ownership of the ship from the Crimson Spear’s handlers to himself.

“You, you… … .”

“If you start with a ship, you can do well as a mercenary. I’ve already changed the face, so you don’t have to worry about being tracked.”

“Huh? What the f*ck!”

After hearing Ketra’s words, Selden realized that his face shape had changed and touched his cheek in shock.

“Thank you to me because you look much better than before.”

“No, this little shit has been really.”

“I have a reliable route to my mirror, so do your best through that.”

thanks.

Before Selden could ask any further questions, Ketra, who had just said those words, jumped down the emergency exit.

Selden, who was left alone, stayed there and thought for a while, but realized that he had already become a traitor the moment he was tricked into this dimension by Ketra’s plan, and finally sighed deeply and picked up the mirror that he had left behind.

* * *

By the time Mira finished explaining to Ban Yu-won about the ‘changeling’ that had happened to her, everyone saw Ketra jumping down the emergency exit.

The Crimson Spear’s ship disappeared from sight as if it had completed its purpose… … and a little later, Shati clicked her tongue.

“I knew it, Mr. President.”

“Isn’t it that he doesn’t really know anything and just pretends to know after everything is over?”

“No, the name of the person who sent it first because Professor Jeong’s departure was delayed was the Vice President. Oh, Professor Yumi has also left just now.”

“I really want to give up.”

And that Vice President is jumping off the Crimson Spear’s ship right now.

The president really knew that Ketra was part of the dimensional pirate group.

“Phew.”

Ketra, who was still alive despite having most of her organs gone, landed lightly on the floor and smiled.

The first person he spoke to, knowing how to say something to Mira, was Shati.

“Chairman, I see the restrictions have disappeared?”

“Vice President, you’re being treated like a dead person right now. There’s no way restrictions can be applied to a dead person.”

“That’s good. I wanted to see your face before I went.”

The restriction is that Ketra cannot come near Mira.

In fact, that restriction was such a surefire way of attack for Ketra, who was part of Crimson Spear, that if it had been discovered, he would have been excluded from the project anyway.

“mummy.”

“Ketra, are you stupid?”

Mira said to Ketra, who turned towards her, with a bewildered expression.

“You’re an idiot.”

“Don’t make me carry such a heavy burden. Just because you do that, I… … .”

Mira, who had been spitting out words as they came to her mind, unable to control her emotions, soon furrowed her eyebrows and closed her mouth.

Instead, Ban Yu-won spoke to Ketra.

“Why did you do that?”

“Would you believe me if I said it was love? Would you believe me, Mira?”

“… … I can’t believe it, but even if I did believe it, it wouldn’t mean anything.”

“Haha, believe me. Even if it’s a lie.”

Feeling resistance to Ketra’s words, Mira instinctively tried to step back, but Ban Yu-won was already there.

Ban Yu-won placed his hand on Mira’s shoulder and spoke in a quiet voice.

“I don’t like it when people just deny it. Especially since he’s the one who protected my precious people.”

“Yuwon, you said you would accept everything from me.”

“that’s right.”

Ban Yu-won gently stroked her stiff cheek.

“That’s why, even if it’s you, I can’t tolerate you stealing a part of yourself without permission. No matter how embarrassing and sinful your memories may be, they’re precious to me.”

“Ugh… … .”

In fact, Mira did not deny Ketra just because she wanted to be completely faithful to Ban Yu-won.

The reason she denies everything about Ketra is because his existence symbolizes the sins she committed in the first semester.

At the time, she blamed it on the constellations that guided her mind, and on Ketra for not taking proper care of her, and she used the appearance of Ban Yu-won as an excuse to break away from her past self and create a new self.

But no matter how pure her feelings were, Ban Yu-won actually didn’t like the idea of removing all the murky parts that made her up for that purity.

“Ugh, ugh… … .”

I feel ashamed, loving, and grateful for Ban Yu-won’s words, but I also feel sad and depressed at the thought that my true feelings have been revealed.

But if the master who owned everything about her (although Ban Yu-won hated it and never called her that in front of him) wanted it, she had no choice but to honestly accept it.

“sorry…….”

Mira bowed her head to Ketra.

Tears fell down onto the floor.

“I tried to kill you… … . I did something bad… … .”

“mummy.”

Ketra looked surprised, then looked at Ban Yu-won instead of Mira with a somewhat relieved face.

“I really can’t win… … .”

“I’m sorry, thank you. I’m sorry.”

Mira spoke again.

Ketra sighed deeply and sat down on the floor.

The limit was slowly approaching.

“It’s okay, Mira. I was actually trying to use you. I was going to do some ridiculous villainous thing like sacrifice you and the fairies to change dimensions. So you don’t have to feel sorry for me.”

“What are you talking about all of a sudden?”

“I already sent it to your junior mirror, so read it slowly later.”

Ban Yu-won is startled when a story of a different scale suddenly comes out.

Ketra smiled, as if satisfied with the reaction, and added a word.

“There are enemies at the Academy. Keep a close eye on the children of the teenage families.”

“Okay, thank you.”

“mummy.”

“Thank you, I’m sorry… … .”

“mummy.”

Ketra called out again strongly to Mira, who was repeating the same words like a broken doll.

“If possible, I would have preferred ‘I love you.’”

“That was, maybe, in the past.”

Mira, who was ordered to be honest with Ban Yu-won, spoke honestly while watching his expression.

“But right now, I love you, Yuwon. I’m sorry.”

“Ha, even if I get stabbed instead, it’s still different.”

Ketra giggles.

Ban Yu-won found herself chuckling as she saw his smile return to the atmosphere she had when they first met.

“Do you think a woman’s heart is easy? You should have caught her when she seemed to like her.”

“As expected, my juniors are of the same type as me. What did I say? I said that when we team up, we’re the best.”

… … There was nothing to refute.

“Junior, thank you for reconciling us. Mira, thank you too. Chairman, I’m sorry for being such a bad subordinate.”

After finishing her final greetings, Ketra picked up her dagger and handed it to Ban Yu-won.

“Would you like to finish it, junior?”

“You’re making me do something I don’t like. Is this revenge?”

“I have to do this much since I lost the woman I like.”

“… …Thank you for protecting Mira, Senior.”

Take care.

Ban Yu-won did as he was asked.

Mira closed her eyes tightly.

I realized that my first love, which I had not been able to properly end, had finally ended perfectly.

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