Episode 248: When will I die?
The black magician who emerged from the Mabul’s dwelling slowly walked through the inner courtyard of the Cheonmasin Church.
I walked around, looking at each building in the building carefully. I had never looked at these buildings in detail before.
The unmanned soldiers standing guard greeted him politely.
As Geommuyang greeted them, the warriors exchanged curious glances. Geommuyang was always busy passing by, so they had never greeted him properly.
The place where Geommuyang arrived after walking around like that was Donggwonmun.
It was late, but Kwon-ma was awake.
The black cat followed the unmanned guide and arrived in front of the cliff.
Kwonma, who was standing in front of the cliff, spoke without looking back.
“I intend to knock down this cliff in one blow. That is my dream.”
Geommuyang looked up at the cliff. The huge cliff with no end in sight was firmly saying that it was impossible. Geommuyang thought that even with his might, this would be difficult.
“If you are the one who made the dream come true, you will definitely achieve it.”
Only then did Kwonma turn towards him.
“Hello, Lord Kwon.”
“Your Highness, come quickly.”
Whenever he saw the scary face of Kwonma, which made even the evil spirits of the Cheonmasingyo look kind, Geommuyang couldn’t help but feel afraid.
“I’m sorry to come to you so late at night.”
“No. I was awake because I had a late-night practice.”
Surprisingly, Kwon Ma was still attending the late-night training meetings. He hadn’t been able to participate in the sword dance since he returned from school, but Ian and Cheon So-hee were consistently attending.
Kwon Ma didn’t want to show that he was going to go out but then didn’t go out because there was no sword dance. That’s why he went out, but these days he doesn’t miss out because of Cheon So Hee.
I didn’t know until Geommu-geuk spoke, but as time went by, I gradually came to know that her talent and personality were no less than that of the next Kwon-ma. So I gave her separate teachings in the middle of her training.
Kwon Ma found this late-night training session fun.
Honestly, it might be because he was with two young and beautiful women. It might be because of Chun So-hee, who had absolute respect for Kwon Ma. It might be because of Ian, who made him laugh with unexpected jokes every now and then. For him, who had been teaching his whole life, this late-night training meeting was a very valuable and fun time.
“Yeah, what’s going on?”
Just by coming in the middle of the night, Kwon-ma could sense that Geommu-yang was about to make some big decision.
“You are the only one who has officially announced your support for me.”
“I’m not a person who breaks promises.”
“If it had been after you met Mugeuk, would you have made that promise?”
Kwonma glared at Geommuyang as if he was going to pierce through her. Geommuyang, who still hadn’t gotten used to Kwonma’s face, slightly lowered her head to avoid eye contact.
“If that was the case, I would have announced my support for the candidate.”
Geommuyang was glad that Kwonma answered honestly. It was also because he knew that Kwonma was this kind of man that he came to see him today.
“What kind of person is Mugeuk?”
“Don’t you know better, older brother?”
“No, I don’t know.”
Kwonma’s gaze turned towards the cliff again.
“I told Lee Gong Ja what I told you earlier. I said that my dream was to bring down this cliff.”
Geommuyang was curious. How would Geommu-geuk respond?
“He wanted to destroy himself too.”
Geommuyang felt it for a moment. At least for Kwonma, those words were correct.
“Someday, the person who destroys this cliff may become a scholar. Your younger brother is that kind of person.”
It must have been because of these small differences. These small differences, accumulated over time, must have created the difference between Geommu-geuk and myself.
“Couldn’t that be a lie? Couldn’t it be that he’s just trying to look good to you?”
It was a lame remark that she would not have made originally, but Geommuyang revealed her honest feelings as if she had made up her mind.
“Of course, that could be the case.”
“But why did you believe it?”
Kwon-ma understood how Geommu-yang felt. It was a Geommu drama that would engulf them, so it would have been impossible for the young Geommu-yang to deal with him.
“Because Lee Gong-ja showed it through his actions. He came out of the Dongkwonmun and went up from the Baekkwon to the Black Kwon.”
“If Moogeuk had the martial arts skills, it wouldn’t have been difficult!”
Kwon-ma calmly asked the agitated Geommu-yang.
“If it was so easy, why didn’t you do it?”
“!”
Geommuyang couldn’t answer. He knew it too. What Kwonma was talking about wasn’t just a matter of martial arts skills. When actions follow, belief gains strength.
Kwonma’s gaze turned towards the cliff again.
After a moment, Geommuyang asked.
“Can I ask you one last question?”
“Do it.”
“Do you think it would be better for our religion for Mugeuk to become Cheonma?”
“Why are you asking me that?”
“Because I think you’ll be the most honest among the Amazons.”
For a moment, Kwon-ma was lost in thought. He had a feeling that his answer would have a big impact on Geommu-yang. Nevertheless, Kwon-ma spoke honestly.
“Before I answer, let me tell you this. Regardless of my answer, our official position supporting Janelle will not change.”
“thank you.”
Kwonma stared at Geommuyang and spoke without any sign of apology.
“I’m looking forward to Lee Gongja’s Cheonma Shingyo more.”
It was a cruel answer to Geommuyang, but he answered honestly.
Those words flew into Geommuyang’s heart and struck him hard.
“Thank you for being honest with me.”
Geommuyang politely bowed with a trembling voice and turned around. Before leaving, he looked up at the cliff one last time. Even if he looked at it again, he didn’t have the courage to collapse.
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Kwon-ma, who was watching his back as he left, started walking in the opposite direction to go to the late-night training.
I didn’t offer him any words of comfort or encouragement.
Because the cliff given to each person had to be overcome by each person.
* * *
My brother came to see me.
Standing under the moonlight, dressed in his martial arts attire and carrying a sword, he looked different than usual.
My brother said to me right away.
“Let’s have a go.”
I could tell. The outcome of this match was to decide the successor. I came here knowing I would lose.
“Okay. I’ve wanted to beat you up for a long time.”
“This is no joke.”
“I’m not joking either. I’m a vicious older brother who tried to instill fear of the martial arts world in my younger brother who is about to become a warrior. So, I deserve to be beaten up a little, right?”
“If that’s what it takes, then by all means.”
“Don’t talk like it’s no big deal.”
“No matter what, I won’t say sorry.”
We didn’t say anything about fighting over a successor, as if we had made a promise. We just acted like we were settling an old grudge.
My brother drew his sword, and I drew my sword too. This was the first time we had pointed our swords at each other like this, except when we were young and had fought.
Bicheon sword method vs. Bicheon sword method.
My brother had achieved the ten-star level, and I had achieved the twelve-star level. Even if that were not the only difference, the difference in experience, skill, and internal energy was so great that my brother could not defeat me.
I won’t let it go. I’ll just make him use all the moves he can without subduing him all at once.
“Watch out, it’s really going to happen.”
The older brother, who had given a serious warning, performed the first-class Gyuncheonsik.
Shhhhh!
A ray of light flew towards me, trying to cut me in two, but my balanced attack was faster and more powerful.
Kwaaaaang!
Hyung was shocked as he watched the first meal being dissolved in the air.
He sent out a surprise attack with a surprised face, but this time, the stronger attack dispelled it.
Third meal, fourth meal… … .
As the number continued, Hyung’s despair grew. He knew I was stronger, but he didn’t know I was this strong.
That’s what happened with the blood clot.
I agree with that statement that stepping firmly when stepping would be the way for my brother.
I showed all my skills to the point where my brother felt despair.
That was the path for my brother. To never let his mind wander in the future. To accept that not being able to become the successor was not a regret, but a natural thing.
Hyung will be looking at the wall. A wall that is higher and bigger than the cliff that Kwonma was looking at.
When the Bicheon Sword Technique didn’t work, Hyung swung his sword and charged. He probably knew he would lose. However, when defeat became a reality, Hyung became desperate.
‘I want to be the successor!’
But that earnestness couldn’t make up for the gap in our skills.
Taaang.
The sword flew out of my brother’s grasp and fell to the floor.
My brother, who had been staring at the sword with a blank look for a moment, glared at me and said.
“Actually, I was going to beat him up with this fist.”
“Then! A man uses his fists!”
I put the black magic sword back into its scabbard and said to my brother.
“But what should I do? I am Kwon Ma-nim’s disciple.”
“… … Don’t use herbivore.”
I laughed out loud at my brother’s words. It’s a good sign to say something like that in this situation.
Yeah, bro. I’ll definitely beat you up.
The two of us fought with our fists. Whether it was swordsmanship, martial arts, or punches. How could my brother beat me?
Bam! Bam!
My fists sank into my brother’s face and body.
This is punishment for instilling fear in my younger brother because of my greed. I need to get revenge.
Bam! Bam!
It was a fist to forgive my brother.
Even though he was beaten to death, my brother never used his internal energy. He could have taken the opportunity to kill me, but he didn’t. He didn’t even try.
That’s why. Brother. The reason I tried to take you alive. Father must have seen it first. What kind of person you are.
And my brother, who had lost all his strength, was about to collapse!
Phew!
My brother’s fist hit my face.
I got a good beating. I guess I felt sorry for my brother. If I hadn’t regressed, my brother would have been the successor.
But, hyung, becoming your successor is also for your sake. Let’s live this life. Whether we become close or fight, let’s survive.
And so the fight that wasn’t really a fight ended.
My brother, who had succeeded in delivering the final blow, smiled with satisfaction and fell back to his knees.
Hoo, hoo, hoo.
My brother’s heavy breathing, everything was contained in that breathing.
The sound of breathing slowly subsided.
Until then, I also lay next to my brother and looked up at the night sky.
My brother asked me while I was lying down.
“Do you think you can do it?”
I expected you to say no, but I also expected you to say that there was even a slight possibility.
“I can do it the best among all the heavenly horses.”
“shit!”
My brother shouted while lying down.
“Ewww!”
He shouted as if he was going crazy. Many people in the school must have heard this shout. This shout that would decide the fate of my brother and me.
The older brother, who had stopped screaming, let out a deep sigh. He let out every last bit of his regret with that breath.
“You really have to do well.”
“I’ll do well.”
“The successor of the Cheonmasingyo is acting up and being naughty. That won’t do!”
“That’s because you don’t see me being serious. Should I beg you to please tell me a joke?”
“Don’t do that!”
“okay.”
My brother had completely given up on being a successor, so this question was also sincere.
“When are you going to kill me? Before I kill you, I need to make sure I have time to get my affairs in order.”
“Hyung, why are your heads filled with such negative thoughts? Even if you instilled my darkness in me, who planted it in you?”
“You are the weird one.”
My brother gave up everything, but he didn’t have to. I needed him.
“From now on, you have to help me, hyung.”
“Stop talking nonsense.”
“I’m serious. I don’t need a puppet brother. I don’t need a brother who is hurt and depressed. I need a real brother.”
I got up first and extended my hand to my brother who was lying down.
After I get rid of the firearms, I might give it to my brother. I don’t know what will happen to us then. Brother, so hold my hand.
My brother sat up on his own without holding my hand. He said while wiping his nosebleed while sitting.
“It’s a waste.”
“Be proud. You have a brother who kills.”
“I want to kill you. Really.”
And the next moment.
My brother held out his hand to me. It was a hand that I was asking him to grab and help me up.
The moment I saw that outstretched hand, my heart sank. I had so much to say that I couldn’t say anything.
I held his hand tightly. I felt my brother holding my hand tightly too.
He lifted his brother up with force.
My brother stared at me for a moment and then raised his fist in front of me and said.
“If you don’t act as a proper successor in the future, I’ll hit you again!”
I smiled at my brother. It was the first time I had ever smiled because I liked him.
“If someone bullies me, can I call you hyung?”
“That crazy guy.”
My older brother walked to Cheonma Hall first.
I told my father that I was taking my brother, but he is taking me.
The men standing guard were startled. In the middle of the night, the brothers were walking side by side, their faces swollen.
“Shouldn’t you wash up before you go see your father?”
“If you keep going like this, I’ll let them know that you’re a vicious younger brother who beats his older brother.”
And my brother said.
“When you kill me, tell me in advance… … Even if someone harasses you, tell them.”
A gust of wind blew and blew the hems of our clothes. It was the wind that announced a new beginning.
