EP24 – I was trying to rest (3)
“Why are you looking like that?”
“what.”
“No, there’s something about the expression on my face right now that makes me look like someone who just received a confession and doesn’t know what to do.”
I’ve thought about this often for a long time, but Taeyoung is this bastard.
There are some sharp corners.
It is true that I received a confession not long ago. But that’s not why he feels helpless. Because the decision to confess has already been made.
The reason I’m worried now is.
“Well, just because of the year-end song festival.”
“Year-end song festival? “Is that something you’re worried about?”
“To be more precise, it’s because of going on stage.”
Because of the stage. I didn’t even get on the main stage, but at most I just got on the rehearsal stage.
But when I go on stage for rehearsal, I always feel complicated.
This is the stage I tried my best to stand on in my past life. My heart races every time I spot a camera filming me.
And every time that happens, you naturally adopt the gaze or composition you studied in your previous life.
At the same time, ‘Won’t I get another chance?’ I start to think such vain thoughts.
“Is this your first time going on stage yourself?”
“It’s not the first time, but it’s been a while.”
“Hmm, Hajun Yoon is coming on stage… … la.”
But Taeyoung Kim looks at me with an unpleasant expression. I frown at that sight.
What is that unpleasant expression?
“What?”
“No, well, I thought how amazing the performance of Ha-Jun Yoon, who was scolding us so hard during the stage production, would be.”
“You seem like a narrow-minded person.”
I heard you had something on your mind during the event stage.
But at that time, I was in the producer’s position, so there was nothing I could do.
“The year-end song festival will be broadcast live, right?”
“yes.”
“Okay, let’s watch it together with the fans.”
“Watching it with fans?”
Well, are you planning to get together and have a screening?
As I was thinking that, Taeyoung Kim looked at me with a pitiful expression.
“It means watching together while communicating through Inbyeolgram live broadcast. These days, every time I broadcast Personal Gram, thousands of people come in, so I feel like broadcasting.”
“Do I watch your broadcast that much?”
“Originally, about 10,000 people came in when we first started, but it steadily decreased. I guess I lost interest because I was eliminated. And I have less. “When Suyeon was on air, there were almost 20,000 people watching it?”
Sooyeon did a broadcast?
Now that I think about it, you said you often flirt while looking at your phone these days. Was that what you were doing?
There are more than 20,000 viewers.
I knew that Inbyeolgram live broadcasts were popular these days, but I had no idea that they would have such an impact.
“Why don’t you try it too? I watched Suyeon’s broadcast and there were so many people looking for you and Goyo. Su-yeon said, ‘My brother doesn’t like this kind of thing~.’ Although I didn’t show it. “What, why are you looking like that?”
“I’m a little disgusted that you followed Suyeon.”
Watching him imitate Suyeon’s voice makes me want to hit him.
Why does something that isn’t even cute look disgusting by imitating our cute Suyeon?
“You should try iTube or something like that with Sooyeon. “The company said they would create an iTube account for me too.”
“bothered.”
“But the publicity will be good, right? Well, you can figure it out. More than that, what are you worried about about the stage? “Is it not as good as you say?”
Oh, yeah, you were talking about the stage with Taeyoung, right?
I chuckle at Taeyoung Kim’s words.
If the performance hadn’t gone well, I wouldn’t have had to worry about this.
“It’s the opposite.”
“huh?”
“Rather, I’m worried because the performance went so well.”
While saying that, I took a sip of the coffee left on the table.
* * *
In Kim Tae-young’s opinion, Yoon Ha-jun is a special species among special species.
It is said that there are all kinds of different types of people in arts and physical education, especially music, but Ha-jun Yoon is one of the best among them.
First of all, there is a lot to know.
I don’t study and just make music all the time. I don’t know why I see and hear so much, but if it has anything to do with music, there’s really nothing I don’t know.
In addition, there is no greed.
If you check music streaming sites or music charts right now, there are eight songs written by Ha-Jun Youn in the top 100.
In addition, he must have received quite a handsome fee for appearing here and there.
Is that it? The work fees earned while outsourcing work will never be small.
However, Ha-jun Yoon did not change. Just like before, I eat frugally with bread and drinks from convenience stores and wear the same clothes.
Not long ago, Taeyoung Kim desperately tried to stop her from trying to travel by bus or subway, saying that taxi fare was not worth it.
Now Hajun Yoon is a celebrity. He played an active role as a host in a program that boasted a whopping 30% viewership rating, and the number of views on iTube exceeded a whopping 7 million.
There is no way that anyone who has watched TV or YouTube will not know Ha-Jun Yoon’s face.
However, Ha-jun Yoon does not show such awareness.
For a moment, I thought, ‘Are they just pretending to be humble because they’re still in high school?’ But seeing as they don’t use social media or participate in communities, it seems like they’re not naturally interested in such things.
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Lastly, I have a lot of self-loathing on such topics.
The feeling of kinship I felt when I first met him and heard the song he composed.
However, Taeyoung Kim said goodbye to herself through ‘Da capo’. Thanks to that song, Kim Tae-young was able to make a new start for herself and she was able to forgive and like herself at the same time.
However, Ha-jun Yoon, who created such a song, still hates himself.
Additionally, I lack confidence.
In front of others, he pretends to be a genius and acts great, but when working alone, you can always see him worrying and feeling anxious about whether it’s really good or not.
Self-loathing and lack of confidence.
There will be no words that can describe Hajun Yoon better than those two.
Because Kim Tae-young knows how weak Ha-jun Yoon is, she continues to care about him. Well, it is true that I crave his songs.
“I heard that Hajun will be on stage today, so I’m really curious.”
Kim Tae-young, who turned on the Inbyeolgram live broadcast, said that and looked at the chat.
Perhaps thanks to a whopping 7,000 viewers, the chat went up very quickly.
And most of the comments are about Ha-jun Yoon.
If possible, I would like to show this comment to Hajun. So many people like you and the song you made.
However, because he knows that showing this to Ha-jun Yoon will not change his mind, Tae-young Kim can only sigh.
Hajun Yoon does not acknowledge other people’s evaluations. He likes praise and gets happy when he gets good grades, but that’s it.
There is only one evaluation that Ha-Jun Yoon acknowledges: his own evaluation.
‘But I’m glad that my confidence has improved a bit these days.’
-Aren’t you going to move in together with Hajun?
-I heard you’re close with Hajun!
-My friend is a teacher at Seolwon Arts High School, and he said ‘Da capo’ is so good! I want to hear that!
-Show me your face better ㅠㅠㅠ
-When will you debut???
-Do you have any other close friends?
At that time, one chat that I really liked caught Taeyoung Kim’s eye.
Kim Tae-young, who read the chat while it was rapidly rising, said with a smile on his face.
“I really like ‘Da capo’. I wonder what it would have been like if I had sung that on stage. Personally, out of all the songs I’ve sung so far, none was as good as that song.”
Taeyoung Kim was excited and talked about ‘Da capo’.
Every time that happened, the response in the chat window was enthusiastic. I want to listen to it, can you sing it later, do you have any plans to release it as a digital version?
Kim Tae-young calmly nodded and spoke in the chat containing such content.
“I plan to release the music for ‘Da capo’ somehow. “I’m not saying this because I sang it, but I really think ‘Da capo’ is the best song Hajun has ever made.”
As soon as those words were finished, the chat window went up at an invisible speed.
And the impact was not limited to the chat window.
Even though it ended, the Sing A Star community, where many users are still active, was also in an uproar with stories about ‘Da capo’.
Taeyoung Kim, unaware of the ripple effect her words would have, continued to smile and communicate with viewers while watching the year-end song festival.
And then, the Sing A Star special event stage finally began.
The first stage was Lim Ha-in’s stage. Actually, since I’m in 3rd place, I think I’ll be the first one to perform.
“That’s too bad. “I also wanted to perform at the year-end music festival.”
Taeyoung Kim whetted his appetite while watching the performance.
In fact, Kim Tae-young was worried about singing ‘Da capo’ when competing against Im Ha-in.
But in the end it wasn’t called.
If you had sung ‘Da capo’, would you have been there right now?
It’s a meaningless thought, but I can’t help but feel that way when I see Han Go-yo singing ‘Blame’ and winning.
And I feel that much resentment.
Then, after Im Ha-in’s stage, it was finally Yoon Ha-jun, Yoon Su-yeon, and Jeong Yoon’s turn.
Hajun Yoon, wearing a school uniform, comes up from the bottom of the stairs first. With a guitar on your back. Then he sits down on a chair and starts playing the guitar.
“Oh, Hajun’s guitar playing has improved a lot. “When I first heard of him, he was a complete mess.”
No sooner had Taeyoung Kim finished speaking than he said, ‘Really?’ Chats like this started popping up.
However, Taeyoung Kim did not see such chats. This is because Yoon Ha-jun’s performance is more important than chatting now.
Taeyoung Kim makes an interesting expression as she sees Hajun Yoon on stage for the first time.
‘indeed.’
And Kim Tae-young seems to know why Yoon Ha-jun said that.
Hajun Yoon looked so natural on stage.
Obviously, it’s been a long time since I’ve been on stage, and it’s my first time on such a big stage, but I don’t feel awkward or anything like that.
They naturally make gestures and act out sadness as if they have already been on stage hundreds or thousands of times.
Obviously, he’s just playing, but he focuses the camera on himself.
Next, Yoon Soo-yeon, wearing a school uniform like Yoon Ha-jun, appears at the top of the stairs and comes down the stairs. She then goes to the standing microphone next to Ha-jun Yoon and starts singing her song.
Yoon Soo-yeon’s unique tone is distorted and crying. A song that makes her heart sink and her nose wrinkle just by hearing it. Taeyoung Kim sniffed her nose, feeling all her other emotions being ignored and filled with overwhelming sadness.
In addition, Jeongyoon, who appeared in the center of the stage, adds emotion to the emotion.
If I had felt overwhelmingly sad just a moment ago, now I feel something warm in the sadness.
‘Is that Jeongyoon?’
I thought that the people who appeared as mentors this time, including Jeong Yoon and Jin Se-hee, were no joke.
Taeyoung Kim forgot that she was on a broadcast and stared blankly at the year-end music festival stage.
The presence of Sooyeon Yoon and Yoon Jeong fills the stage. But for some reason, it wasn’t those two that caught my eye.
The person who was currently stealing Taeyoung Kim’s attention was not those two, but Hajun Yoon, who was playing the guitar.
Is it simply because he is his friend?
No, that’s not it.
Even if you leave those things aside, there is something about Hajun Yoon that steals your attention.
Soon Taeyoung Kim realized what it was.
It’s the eyes.
Eyes like a hungry animal.
Those intense eyes are stealing the attention.
Soon after, Soo-yeon Yoon, Ha-jun Yoon, and Yoon Jeong finished their performances, and it was Han Go-yo’s turn.
The camera moves to show the stage next to it, showing Goyo Han wearing a white dress. At the same time, Hangoyo starts singing.
A lovely and gentle voice that blows away all the sadness left behind by Soo-yeon Yoon and Yoon Jeong-yoon.
Kim Tae-young, who was watching the scene on TV, clenched his fists strongly.
‘It’s really shameful.’
When did you become able to sing a song like that? The guy who used to only sing about negative emotions is now singing about positive emotions.
You don’t know how shocked I was when I heard that song on the final stage of Sing A Star.
I envy that overflowing talent. But what’s more enviable than that is the fact that they are singing on the same stage.
Goyo Han, Suyeon Yoon, and finally Hajun Yoon. Singing at the Sing A Star finals, and now at the year-end music festival.
But why is he here?
Why is it Im Ha-in who is next to them and not me?
Taeyoung Kim was angry and angry at that fact, so she gritted her teeth.
I want to stand on the same stage as them. I don’t want to sit alone like this and watch other people’s performances.
“… … “I want to debut.”
In the end, Taeyoung Kim confessed to herself the feelings she had been holding in until now.
I want to continue singing in the future. I want to stand on more stages.
I want to feel the same emotion again as I did during Sing A Star.
Now that I know the joy the stage gives me, I don’t want to lose it again.
As Kim Taeyoung was thinking such things, he realized something and opened his eyes wide.
A conversation I had with Ha-jun Yoon just two days ago came to mind.
-The opposite, the opposite. Rather, I’m worried because the performance went so well.
‘Surely, Hajun Yoon wants to stand on stage?’
It’s something I’ve never thought about before.
In Taeyoung Kim’s opinion, Hajun Yoon is a born composer and producer. He is a person who creates songs that can be performed on stage rather than performing on stage himself.
But Hajun Yoon wants to stand on stage?
“Hmm.”
Kim Tae-young snorted and looked at Yoon Ha-jun caught on the screen. This is Yoon Ha-jun, who has a somewhat sad and regretful expression.
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