How to Survive as a Player Chapter 141

#141

“I forgot… “I don’t have any.”

You probably forgot. I came all the way back just to hear that one word. However, Sehyun felt that the affection he had and the texture of her own affection were very different.

Unlike Ruhak’s desire, Sehyeon’s feelings for him were pure love. But if you asked if he was the same as the heroes, you could say no. At least, what Sehyun felt was something that could be said to be more than that.

“Nell.”

“Are you going to say it’s different?”

The fingertips gently pressing my lips were hot. It was a different touch from before. He was quite friendly and careful.

I also thought that I was unfamiliar with love because I had never experienced it before. She also admitted that she tried to get the job from Ruhak because he looked like her.

“… When you were beyond the screen… . At that time, almost every day was a war. You look scary too… They only spoke harshly, so at that time it was really… “I was hurt a lot.”

Ruhak listened quietly without answering. However, the hand languidly caressing the nape of his neck was the same, and the fingertips grazing his lips every time he opened his mouth were the same.

“Should I say I wasn’t confident… . Because I can’t go out… I wasn’t sure if what I was giving you was love. Is this right, am I doing it right? “I had a lot of doubts.”

It was Ruhak and the heroes who cleared that doubt. Every time Sehyun saw people following her well, she felt like she was being rewarded. Still, I thought that he must be doing well at this level. It wasn’t pride, it was pure faith.

I had no choice but to be pure and loving. Because what Sehyun gave me was always encouragement and support.

“… It may not be what you think. Of course, I can’t completely deny it, but the things you do to me… I’ve never thought about it, so it won’t be the same. Still, if it’s okay… I’ll try to get it right at least slowly… .”

It wasn’t that Sehyun didn’t worry about his answer. It wasn’t that he was insensitive to Ruhak’s desire, and he had no intention of turning a blind eye to it.

Sehyun just needed time to think and ponder. It took him a long time because it was an emotion he had never thought about before, and he had to be overcome by a lot of emotions to even come up with an answer.

But in the end, I couldn’t get out of the beginning. Those sad eyes. It was a feeling I had been thinking about ever since I first saw it. For Sehyun, Ruhak was a first time for everything.

‘I love you.’

These were the last words I said to Ruhak before parting ways. It was also my first confession to someone. Although it may be far less than Ruhak’s feelings, at least for Sehyun, those words were sincere.

I couldn’t let go of those words.

“together… “Let’s go.”

And this was Sehyun’s answer to Ruhak’s feelings.

Ruhak didn’t say anything until the end. However, soon his chin was held still and his head tilted. The moment our hastily put together lips overlapped, something hot entered them.

It felt somehow tight and painful. Pressing and pushing his lower lip, and folding his head deeply as if he was growling, Ruhak pushed the tip of his tongue strongly into him.

I couldn’t match it. All I could do was catch my breath every time I got the chance. My body was almost overwhelmed by the increased thirst.

The steps slowly fell back. When our backs touched the solid wall, our shoulders hit each other hard. And then, Sehyun felt a pain stabbing her spine. His body became stiff, and the inside of his throat became hot.

“ah… !”

Now I know what this feels like. Feathers of different colors can be seen between fluttering wings. The strong feathers were digging into the soft feathers.

My eyes squeezed shut from the sharp pain, and my knees buckled weakly. Perhaps because her breathing was hot, her vision became dizzy. As the arm that came inside his waist supported his body, Sehyun suffered from a stimulus so strong that his vision shook.

I couldn’t even breathe. Only the sensation of her deeply buried, strong wings followed her entire body in a terrifying way.

“Ha, ha… ah… .”

My shoulders were shaking and I lowered my head. Her large hand lazily swept Sehyeon’s back as if to soothe him. Simply put, it was a kind gesture. However, the tightly tangled collar was not like that. They tied me up tenaciously and wouldn’t let me go.

My body bounced several times. All of Chimi’s senses were sensitive. There was definitely a sensation in her sensitivity that was so pleasant that it made her moan. But it was too much for her to fully feel.

“Nell… ha… .”

On the way, Sehyun felt a hand hugging her back tightly. Ruhak chewed hard on the area below Sehyun’s trembling ear and buried his lips in the white neckline, leaving a teeth mark.

Each time, Sehyun’s wings fluttered repeatedly. The heated air died down after a while. When Sehyun’s hand, which was on Ruhak’s shoulder, fell down. The body that had been shaking sensitively fell limply into Ruhak’s arms as if it were falling apart.

Ruhak carefully lifted the tip of Sehyun’s limp chin and pressed his lips to the tearful eyes. Then he slowly went down and left a gentle kiss on her lips.

The black wing feathers were still stubbornly entangled between the delicate feathers. Ruhak placed Sehyeon’s head on his shoulder and began to gently stroke the back of Sehyeon’s head as if to comfort him while exhaling a long breath.

Only then did the actions fueled by thirst gradually begin to subside.

It was a few hours later that Sehyun opened her eyes again. The world was still pitch black. What was reflected in my vaguely shaking vision was a wide bed.

A strong arm was wrapped around Sehyun’s waist. The arms that hugged me until it hurt gave me warmth.

The scene of the simple and well-organized room resembled Ruhak. These were all things that Sehyeon put a lot of thought into. Since he first designed this room, Ruhak has been using it without any modifications.

The feeling of a hand languidly rubbing the back of my neck filled my heart. Maybe that’s why the words came out of nowhere.

“… When there is too much to handle… oh my god?”

“I guess I’ll have to cut it out.”

“When you have to embrace it.”

“It’s enough if everyone carries it together.”

My vision became blurry. Although it was only for a moment, I felt lost. There was so much to handle that I couldn’t breathe.

“It’s enough to lighten the heavy load, and if that doesn’t work, those who can lift it can lift it. No one has to bear it alone, and no one has to. “You just have to stay where you are.”

“Don’t talk about other people. “You too.”

“You and I can’t be the same.”

I already knew that there were different levels of what I could handle. However, when I looked back, Ruhak was always looking at Sehyeon, carrying a burden that seemed like it would sink. He knew that his skills were different, and that the times he had been through were different.

Sehyun didn’t even know Ruhak’s exact age yet.

“What you must prioritize is your safety and life. “The rest is up to me and my vassals to handle.”

“… “You don’t tell me anything.”

Ruhak was silent for a moment. But soon gentle words were whispered slowly.

“By the time the Archduke said something, it had already happened… Only when death is imminent. Or I want to disappear.”

“Is that a restriction?”

“okay.”

This meant that nothing could be said. The word extinction struck me as very scary.

Sehyun looked at the window for a moment and then closed her eyes. As soon as the sound disappeared, I felt a gentle breathing on the back of her neck.

“Nell.”

However, along the way, Sehyun opened her eyes again. And he whispered a warning.

“If you do more, you can go to the heroes. stop.”

A long breath fell down the back of my neck. But the lips that had been quivering were no longer there. Instead, black hair fell over Sehyeon’s shoulders. I was suffocated by the strength of the arms that hugged and pulled me tightly.

I felt a firm fingertip touch my wing that was tightly pressed against it. The hand that went up to find the wing as if fumbling, caressed the curved wing for a long time.

Sehyun’s eyes slowly closed as the hand gently caressed her. Her stuffiness disappeared and drowsiness came. The action continued until Ruhak buried his lips deeply into the wing. Sehyun fell into a restful sleep after feeling the last biting sensation.

Through my narrowing vision, I could see black wings surrounding my body. Color like a dream. And the color that has now become his symbol.

As soon as his vision narrowed, Sehyun was immediately swallowed up by the color.

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“Mr. Fen, I don’t have time, so just tell me your business. “I don’t want to keep seeing that face.”

“I’m sorry. “I just want to make friends.”

“I tell you to go to someone else instead of me. “Why would you come here and hang out when you’re busy scouting for the empire?”

“Hmm, everyone hates it, right?”

“If anyone hears it, they will think I’m doing this because I like it.”

Sehyun responded coldly as she watched Fan leisurely tipping his teacup. Anyway, Fan just smiled and said trivial things the whole time.

It’s already been three hours since I came to you to discuss something that happened a few days ago. Sehyun had just exploded due to Fan’s chatter, so she pushed away the teacup and stood up.

Only then did Fenn leisurely get to the point.

“You must have heard that strange noise from a few days ago.”

“I didn’t know you stopped by there.”

“Don’t act like you don’t know. “Isn’t it what you expected that the sound spread throughout Elix?”

Sehyun looked down at Fan’s blue eyes and sat down on a chair. The smile that used to fill Fan’s face was no longer visible.

“No matter what you expected, there is no difference, right? “I don’t know if more allies left.”

“That’s right. She slipped away. No, more accurately, it was moved.”

“You mean the alliance where the White Cloak Empire exists?”

Fan quietly nodded. Sehyeon had not yet heard from Fan about the alliance where the White Cloth Empire was located. All we know is that the name of the alliance is the ‘White Coat Alliance’, named after the White Coat Empire, and that it is a federation that has a hostile relationship with the Choun Alliance.